Time has slipped by rapidly as of late. I’ve been diving within, but feeling the first subtle ripples of readiness to re-surface. It may seem as I’ve abandoned my site, before it’s even become firmly established. The ebb-n-flow, I rock-n-roll with isn’t always one of consistency. Just like Mother Nature, we also go through cycles of day and night, waking and sleep, active and restful. Our inner masculine and inner feminine each have necessary expressions. When honored, they dance together, creating wholeness, balance, and inner harmony.
The first half dozen times I experienced these empty states the discomfort was almost more than I could bare! I felt fearful and anxious that I would remain in the ‘blah-ness’ I was feeling, if I surrendered to it. Yet, under those ‘divine-in-training’ circumstances, as I refer to them, I was rendered powerless. Or so I thought. In truth I was introduced to a very deep and beautifully fluid power that was sourced from my heart and soul. What I was given was the opportunity to learn from the Divine Feminine energies awakening within me. With my ‘agenda’ out of commission, for example with vertigo, I was literally unable to continue with the masculine momentum I’d been functioning under. Instead, I received my first swimming lesson with and in the Feminine Presence.
We are all becoming more aware that the majority of our world has been functioning under the energy and consciousness of a masculine imbalance. The need to be active, regimented, goal oriented, schedule based, and productive in the outer world, regardless of what’s happening in our inner world, has been prominent.
I’ve met many individuals, that when met with Her inner call, which sometimes shows up as illness, listlessness, low energy, overly tired, foggy headed, lack of direction or uninspired, there is an assumption that something is ‘wrong.’ For the uninitiated there is a sense that if they give in to these body messages, if they stop, if they rest, they’ll be unproductive. This then feeds into feelings of guilt, anxiety, shame, and depression. So, they power through. This is the masculine programming.
Listen to the call of Soul. When the outer world fades in clarity, Her initiation begins.
Wade into Her waters, let Her wash over you into Being, smoothing the edges of doing.
Become an initiate on the path of your heart and soul. It is here your world transforms.
The feminine expression also has active attributes. She can bring great fire and enthusiasm to our lives. However, it will happen quite spontaneously and fluidly. While many of us are in touch with the ignition of this inner power and light, and it marries well with our masculine energy to actualize in our lives, we tend to shy away from her expressions that call us to take time out.
Stop. Rest. Simmer. Be.
This is Her Sacred Initiation.
When I enter into periods of time which call me inward, or when I find I’m simply not bubbling with inspiration, I know it’s time to step back. Over time I also have gained the faith that this too shall pass, and I will rise back up renewed and ready to step back into the world, dancing with my inner masculine. It seems this most recent quiet time, may or may not be influenced by the fact that we’ve had 5 planets in retrograde. Retrogrades are in and of itself is an inner, reflective pull. While I don’t feel as much resistance to the inner deepening and the time-out as I did in the early days, I do experience a challenge from the outer world expectations. I can still feel susceptible to energetic attempt to pull me back out, into the world of doing.
The mass thought form of the world demands us to stay busy and keep our senses stimulated. We have appointments to set and keep, we have social engagements, and much work to be done to prove our productivity. And while there are many benefits to social media, we fill most empty time with on-line perusing.
I have found for myself, it takes a firm stand of giving myself permission to release and let go of the overtly masculine paradigm. I can’t convince you or anyone else of the power and revelations which come from the Feminine’s divine call to dive deep within oneself. We each have to come to the realization that to honor self-care and self-nourishment are valuable choices. Especially for women, it’s necessary for our well-being. Yet, this is something we come to know only through direct experience.
Swim in the natural inner tides of your being. It is then will you gain faith that you are being fed in ways that only the inner realm can feed you.
Listening to your own natural rhythms, connecting more deeply to your own inner wisdom, is the key to Knowing what lies within the quietude.
I won’t try to make this sound over simple, especially for mothers and those of you who are in demanding positions in your career. But it can start with baby steps. Limit your multi-tasking activities when possible. Walk away from unnecessary computer use. Practice just sitting and enjoying each sip of your coffee or tea. Eat while gazing out the window at the trees. When that 5 or 10 minute window appears when the baby is napping, instead of ‘doing’ more, just stop and connect to your breath.
There is great gratitude I have for the path I’ve traveled and the structure (or lack there of) of my life. It has been co-created with the help from the divine. It offers me the time and space to explore these realms deeply. We all have our life purpose that gifts us with what we can then share with others, and mine is the navigation of the inner realms of the Sacred Feminine Embodiment. With this work, also comes many things that I have forgone, which may have made my life more secure or easy. But,there is always a trade-off and security and ease are very subjective, aren’t they?
It is imperative at this time in the earth’s history though, that we as women and those men who are ready to birth their own balance of the Divine Feminine/Divine Masculine, begin to enter into our Sacred Centers, our inner world, our deepest natural feminine rhythms and cycles. We are the ones who will be supporting this paradigm shift. We are the game changers. We, who choose to co-create a renewed, thriving and more sustainable world, will be in cahoots with Her energies.
Those of you who resonate with me, follow me or my work, will indeed find me absent at times . . . but never far away. I’m simply diving deep into the waters of the Mother.
If you feel called to join the diving and not yet sure how to let go into this new Sacred Feminine paradigm, please reach out.
Blessings on Your Deepening ~