Embodying Love

Lovelies . . .
Do you long for the path of Self-Love & Embracing the Sacred within?

And yet, do you attempt to divide your inner light & darkness?
Are you unsure as to how to move more toward yourself with the grace of deep acceptance, self-love & self-honoring?

It’s often easier than we think. 
Sometimes we just need a little guidance.

Self-rejection takes shape when we judge our self as wrong, bad, not-enough, faulty, etc. When we push it further within or away, when we pretend this aspect of our self doesn’t exist, we simply delay our wholeness & authenticity.

It’s ok. Feel your ‘darkness’ rise forth & give it breath & voice.
Take it gently in your heart. See it for what it is . . . It is a wound coming forth to be revealed & healed, through your love & presence.

It is a Sacred Shadow, ready to be transformed, transmuted & integrated, with conscious compassion.

This is the path of becoming Whole & Holy. This is the path to your Truth. It is a path of remembering yourself Home, to your Sacred Center.

I have a special offer for those desiring to learn more clearly how to move from self-rejection into Self-Love. 

Embodying Love Package 
3 Distance Sessions
Receive insight, tools, practice, meditation, points of resolution/integration &Light Language. 
This will open a door & set you on a new course of relating to yourself with more acceptance, respect, love & honor. 

This new way of being enables you to share more of yourself with those you love & receive more of what they have to share as well.
Receive a 3 session package ~ $150.00
Sessions are 60 – 90 minutes
Contact me directly for scheduling!
Lotus

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Coming Home to the Heart

The darkness of winter is upon us, and so are it’s blessings. While we think of holiday’s, celebrating with loved ones, the beauty of white snow, fire light & warmth on cold winter days, there is another element to December.

The darkness, the long nights that grow longer up to Winter Solstice, can be seen as a summons to from Mother Nature & Soul, to take some time to dive within. Especially this year, as we move toward 2019, the call of the darkening days and nights, asks us to reflect deeply on what no longer serves us, what is ready to be released & let go, to die away, so more space for the renewal of Light may enter our heart.

We are in such powerful times of giant leaps of our spiritual awakening & the evolution of humanity. Yet, if we get distracted from our internal promptings, the cycle of Mother Nature, we may miss the moment that awaits us, to fuel with clear intention, the creation of our own new reality.

For myself personally, I can say that I have set myself free from my past tendrils. My return back to Tulsa, was largely inspired by healing the last area of my own inner darkness. To call all of me home, to my own heart. Integration of fragments. What this has meant, is that any last, past regrets, amends, resentments, attachments, unfinished business with others or younger aspects of myself, has now been resolved. At least on my end.

Up until my return here, I’d done much deep work. Over the years my focus was working closely with my own Sacred Shadow. My pain, wounding, confusion, illusions. Gleaning the lessons needed. Letting go of blame, shame, guilt from many other chapters of my life. However, my teen-age years were waiting my full attention. And now, I have completion and closure on my past.

My mind doesn’t carry stories. My heart is more open and soft. My being is more relaxed & silent. I am current, in the here and now. Present, with a spaciousness that feels filled with grace and inner peace. I am whole and live fully in the home of my heart.

When we are carrying around old pain, stories, false beliefs, blaming others or ourselves, our ‘wholeness’ is compromised. We leak energy. We aren’t embodying all of who we are.

As I’ve been consciously doing this process for myself and with clients, I’m seeing more clearly the beautiful transitions. This deeper integration work will become a more focused aspect of my offerings, moving into 2019.

Winter gives us the opportunity to go inside and die to the old self; heal and integrate all that is ready to be shed, that no longer serves our up-liftment.  We can choose to be current, but we must release all that is the past.

As the nights grow darker, the invitation is to utilize the winter energy to go inward, not be distracted in the outer world. Seek to consciously release the old, to create space for the new light of Solstice to grow within you. Prepare for the 2019 beginning, by allowing all that has come to pass, to integrate, create a new grounding, come home to your heart.

We are receiving the Christed frequency energies this month. How can you make the most of this powerful, sacred time? Allow inner quietude. Limit distractions. Embrace the darkening season. Nestle into all that your heart has to tell you. Listen too, to what qualities within your own being, you wish to create for the new year.

We have a great opportunity to leap into 2019 with our passions & purpose, clarity & vitality, a clear slate & creative vigor!

Many Loving Solstice Blessings,

Lotus

 

Ode to Just Being

In the morning stillness
my gaze rests 
on the sunlight dancing on the canopy of leaves.

Each breath out,
I release all the mind
believes me to be.

As I breathe into the empty spaces
I am filled with the songs of birds, 
the whispers of trees, 
the pulsing dance of Mother Earth
and Cosmic Light.

In the surrender of just being, 
I am evermore connected
to the loving wisdom of Life, 
& I am evermore connected. 

 

                                                                      Love, Lotus

Are You Awakening?

“Spiritual awakening refers to a shift in consciousness, a perception of reality which had been previously unrealized. The culmination of such realizations is in the recognition of oneness with all of existence.”  from the Urban Dictionary

This is a good comprehensive description of awakening. I would add, that awakening is an on-going process for the vast majority … but only if we engage with the process consciously.

Awakening is the topic of our time, because it’s a very real, exciting, evolutionary leap that humanity is making present day.

But what does this really mean?

What does this feel & look like?

Who does it affect?

Why does it matter? 

Who is awakening?

I can only share from my personal, direct experience & from witnessing the journey of others, whether it be friends, family, or clients.  As the quote from the Urban Dictionary expresses above, as we begin to wake-up, our perceptions change & consciousness expands. Yet this can still seem quite vague to some still asleep or just on the cusp of waking.

It helps me to break it down in specific, tangible examples, even though it can often defy any kind of concrete description. Waking-up is a deeply personal voyage we take into our own heart & soul.  As we awaken, our perceptions of what we believed to be true  begin to shift, morph, fall away & expand. This may happen in a flash from an intense experience that forever changes our awareness. Or it may happen subtly, over time, from beginning a practice of  yoga or meditation. It may also come on in trauma, from an injury or illness, or perhaps from the loss of someone we loved dearly.

Rumi wrote in this poem, a key phrase: Don’t go back to sleep. 

For years, copying other people, I tried to know myself.
From within, I couldn’t decide what to do.
Unable to see, I heard my name being called.
Then I walked outside.

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the door sill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.

 

What does this look & feel like? Before we begin our awakening, we are living in a state of slumber, asleep without knowing it. We most likely won’t even understand the meaning of being asleep, until we begin to wake.

While asleep, we are living from unconscious programs & conditioning. There is an acceptance of thought forms & beliefs that we learn form the majority. This majority may include family, education systems, culture, societal rules, etc. They tend towards thing in terms of black & white, right & wrongs; judgments, prejudices, fears & divisions, that have crept into our psyche by osmosis; the systems that ‘run’ the world are rarely questioned; and the mundane, contentment of empty entertainment/substances as the stress release from the accepted pressures of ‘this is how life is’ resolve.

But when we begin to awaken, we begin to question, we begin to seek, we desire to know more deeply who we are & why are we here. Although for me, those questions weren’t quite that clear, however as I awoke, I came closer to what seemed like the answers.

The process may be as soft as a whisper or as abrupt as thunder.

The purpose of life may take on new meaning, perhaps a new creativity springs forth, or an unquenchable thirst for learning becomes a driving force. Many experience the desire to change their eating habits to a kinder diet. Others may begin feeling called to seek truth & justice, via activism. Some find a strong call to connect with nature, while others find the need for emotional healing. Still others seek God/Spirit directly.

As we begin to look at ourselves & the world through new colored lenses, our mind & heart expand into new realizations and epiphanies.  There are new qualities of being that are accessed. While some may begin to experience as sense of Peace for the first time ever, another may feel newly energized after being previously identified by depression.

One may experience states of Bliss or Joy. This realization awakens them to another level of expanded awareness ~ that our true inner expression IS Bliss or Joy, not the personality with whom we’ve thought ourselves to be!

There are as many unique expressions of waking-up, as there are souls.

What does this mean?  Waking up, Awakening … means, we are accessing new levels of awareness, consciousness, knowing of ourselves beyond all that we have believed when we were asleep. It is this expansion of consciousness which also helps us to connect more deeply with our Soul, with the desire for more Truth, Justice, or Freedom, to feel more Peace, Compassion, Harmony, Higher Connection.

It is this expansion of consciousness which also connects us more to our heart intelligence, to Love, to our intuition, and to an inner guidance that deeply supports us in becoming free-thinking, verse conforming to the collective, mass consciousness, blindly.

Awakening inspires us to realize that we carry emotional/mental wounds. A deeper awareness begins to inform us, that these hurts we carry, often compel us to hurt ourselves & others, whether we mean to or not.  If we continue to stay open & willing to awaken, we’re inspired to heal our wounds, resolve hurts with others, and eventually to expand our focus from our individual lives, into how we can serve our sisters, brothers, Mother Nature & all living beings.

What I once believed as black & white, becomes grey & the full spectrum of color.

Where once I saw our world from one dimension, now expands to many. 

That which was once experienced as solid, is now all energy.

Though in the past I believed myself to be seperate from you, truly we are all connected.

And as we continue on the path of awakening, we begin to find it is unending, never dull, always full of wonder & magic, and that there are stages & phases of growth & change, upon stages & phases of expansion. We grow into our Wholeness. We transform. Our life transforms. . . Beautifully & continually.

Why does this matter & who does it affect?  This matters tremendously because it affects everyone! Firstly, it affects each of us, as expressed above. Secondly, our world is in desperate need of awakened hearts & minds. Souls who have healed themselves, and can bring that harmonized, balanced, clear perspective to all Life.

Our collective consciousness & those leading the majority thought forms on our planet, have been deeply asleep, separated from their own loving depths of being.  As we awaken, we become the new free-thinking, expansive, exploring higher states of being consciousness. This uplifts all of humanity & Mother Earth.

Each of us matter. And each one of us who takes on the responsibility of Awakening, makes an impact.

Who is Awakening?  My guess is, that if you’re reading this, you’ve begun! Many more around the world are beginning this amazing, glorious mass awakening at hand today, as it is written in the stars, so to speak, and the energy of this time on Earth.

Awakening isn’t a one time event. We may have a great moment or period of time, where everything is opening up in a new way. There may be a powerful epiphany which has re-set the course of a life. This is awesome & perfect. But, in the way in which I hold this awareness, that doesn’t mean we’re awake. That means we’re on the path, we’re in process, and the path is stretched our before us to continue our journey.

Some of us choose this path, because the old ways of our life aren’t bringing us happiness, health, freedom.  Some begin awakening because their Soul & Life has deemed it time! The beauty is, we don’t need to be in crisis to begin. We simply need to choose.

Are you awakening? Ultimately, you’re the only one who can answer that.

Seek within your own heart & being. Listen to that still small voice.

In quoting Rumi again … Can you hear “the breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you”?

Listen … and “Don’t go back to sleep!”

 

For guidance on your path, I offer sessions both via distance & in studio. You’re invited to reach out for a complimentary consultation lotus@artofsacredembodiment.net

 

Blessings & Love on Your Awakening Journey~

Lotus

Bringing in the Love ~ Light Language Activation & Meditation

Wednesday, May 16th at H2Oasis Float Center & Tea House
6:45 – 8:45 pm
$20.00 to RSVP via Paypal: www.paypal.me/sacredembodiment

 

You are invited to join us for this monthly gathering of activating more Love, Peace, Harmony, Unity, & Joy within us and in the world, via the high vibrational frequencies of Light & sound.

These sounds & tones of divine speech, are known and understood by our heart & Soul. They assist us in releasing outdated programs that keep us stuck in patterns which no longer serve our happiness & highest good.

Light Language activates aspects of the self which aspires toward spiritual awakening, greater Love, Compassion, Faith & Trust, Inner Peace & connection to the Divine.

We are learning more about the power of sound healing/vibrational healing. Light Language is another form of this which allows deep shifts to occur.

Light Language, though relatively new to many, has been known since ancient times. It has been called, ‘Music of the Sphere’s’, ‘Singing into the Spirit’, ‘Angelic Language & ‘Heavenly Language’ to name a few, as well as Soul Languages.

These sounds & divine speech is known & understood by our heart & Soul. They assist us in releasing outdated programs that keep us stuck in patterns which no longer serve our highest good. Light Language also activates aspects of the self which aspires toward spiritual awakening, greater Love, Compassion, Faith & Trust, Inner Peace & connection to the Divine.

They assist us in releasing all that separates us from remembering & knowing, the innate Love that we are, with ease & grace.

LL are a part of our make-up, our DNA. We all have a Soul Language and these activations & meditations, speak directly to our Highest Heart & highest potential.
Please bring a pillow or cushion to sit on & wear loose, comfy clothing. Also, please bring a notebook for noting any insights/experiences you have.
Please arrive a few minutes early to settle in with some tea. 🙂

Looking forward to sharing !

Love, Lotus

Yoga of the Divine Feminine

Sinking into the undertow of Soul, Divine Mother washes over us, as we surrender to Her waves of gentle push & pulls.  Her waters bring about reflection, deepening, remembering’s.

Rising & riding on Divine wings, follows, as we are integrated & expanded with ancient wisdom, strengthened & renewed.

And so we surrender to each cycle, always lifting us into our next level of human-divinity, as ushered in through the Love of the Divine Feminine.

 

To the Lovelies Who Attended Saturday’s Gathering …

Thank you for listening to your heart’s inner call to deepen your relationship with the Divine Feminine, your True Essence, awaiting to be unveiled.

This sacred initiation process is offered in honor of the growing desire to awaken by each of us individually & collectively. It asks in return, Devotion & Commitment & Love.

Those who have already tasted the sweetness at the introduction gathering & who are ready to immerse yourselves into these warm, loving waters, here is the offering …

This will be a first level initiation of Entering the Spiral over 6 Weeks, that includes: 

  • Gathering together every other Saturday evening/ 3 circles ~ first date to be determined by majority availability.
  • 2 private, individual sessions for more personal sharing/energy work for clearing/Shadow integration.
  • e-book of inspired guidance, carrying vibrational wisdom to infuse your practice.
  • Personal, at home practice is suggested, but with specific guidelines, to be determined, based on individual assessment.
  • On-going support as needed.
  • Energy exchange ~ $190.00/ $75.00 deposit ~ payment can be made via PayPal https://www.paypal.me/sacredembodiment  
  • Please register by Saturday, March 24th or contact me for options.

Entering the Spiral enables you to create a foundation of deeper understanding & experience of this ancient, depth path of the Divine Feminine & Kundalini, offers a safe container for new awareness to be birthed, the support & commonality of community, and practical guidance of remaining in balance & harmony in your daily life, as the spiritual unfolding begins.

This is the entrance into the personal Mystery School, that is the sacred awakening of your Divine Being.  This is a Path of Embodiment, where Heaven & Earth meet in the sacred vessel/temple of the body.

If you have any questions, please feel free to contact me at: lotus@artofsacredembodiment.net  or 626-394-1565

We are the ones that we’ve been waiting for! 

With Love & Blessings,

Lotus

 

 

 

 

 

Integrating Shadows Past

Settling into myself this evening after what feels like many days of going & doing.

My husband and I have moved from Los Angeles to Tulsa, Oklahoma. It’s been a flurry of transition since June, the heat of summer to now, October, feeling the chill of fall. Earlier tonight the call inward, to return to the sacred embrace of Divine Mother spoke loud & clear. The previous opportunities I’ve had for down-time, inward-time, has lessened greatly with the new life that has been unfolding, and I savor the snippets I get to settle into stillness and inner quietude.

My practice as of late has been of the soul retrieval nature. Returning to the places where I’d left pieces of myself in Tulsa. The shadow of this lost, wild child, angry,  teen-age alcoholic rebel, of 30+ years ago has loomed large since I departed this town. I flung many judgments her way. Much shame was buried, until it wanted to surface, that is.

She/me is now held in my loving embrace, being integrated into a new level of wholeness. She/I was really so much sweeter than I had allowed her/me to be. Acknowledged, seen, heard, & loved, she/me leaves behind those times in the dark, to celebrate the wisdom in the light.

The memories seep through the humidity of the summer and the cool breezes as the cold approaches. The weather here carries a surprising amount of recall, through my body. It also shares visions the younger me in ‘this park’ or with ‘that person’ or ‘walking down that street’ … through much wiser eyes and a softer heart.

I’ve had many tears flow in the release of shame that I see now was unwarranted. Mistakes and choices, were made back then that can be labeled as ‘bad,’ but that no longer holds weight. as we all do our best to make our way through tough, tender years.

I reclaim myself from where I gave my love in order to learn lessons of the depths of compromise and self-negation. I reclaim myself from holding on to the innocence lost, expecting the power of love and validation to come from outside.  I reclaim myself from the addiction to suffering, from living in the past.

Each layer that rises with the initial imprint of fear, sorrow, loss, shame, etc. I hold myself and remind myself of the innate preciousness that has always been. I bring all of me back into this present Now Moment.

There is a re-patterning of this town as time-lines collapse with each layer of integration. The past fades into this life, here, now, full of Light, Wisdom & Divine Knowing of the perfection of all that has passed.  I walk with a new freedom into each moment, a clear mind, a softer heart, with more space for the Presence of Divine Grace, to make a home within.

There may be more to be revealed, to heal, to integrate, in this town. Time will tell.

But each step of the way, I know the truth beyond anything pulls me momentarily into the undertow.  I know that I am a precious, divine being, seeing beyond these human experiences.

May we all reclaim our past/future, which separate us from the divinity within and live in the fullness of our Light & Truth Now.

Many Blessings on the never-ending journey ~

Lotus

art: Autumn Skye Art

 

Would You Want to KNOW …?

This is a post which segues from my norm. We all have our soul missions, so to speak, that we are here to bring forth. Though this post reflects an aspect of my own education, which serves my awakening journey, it is not my mission (at least at this time) to make this my public voice or expression. I’m making an exception however, as it continues to come to my attention that we, as a collective, are grossly uninformed regarding a much wider scope of the chaos in our world.  There are those who are stepping up grandly to share & teach bravely about the ‘hidden agendas’,  from whom I continue to lean, and those who are ready & willing to open to new information & new ways of thinking … in essence, more are ready to take the ‘red pill’ & awaken to a next level of understanding.

While the very latest tragedy in Las Vegas & the destruction in Puerto Rico, have been pivotal to writing this, its fuel has been culminating over the last couple of years. Briefly, I will say I (nor many others who have been preparing for this time ) am not surprised by anything that is taking place. I understand it all as a part of a necessary, major dismantling of the existing systems, as well as a needed shaking up of the individual/collective consciousness in order to awaken. This is a time of evolution/revolution & spiritual awakening. Any growth involves growing pains.

While most see the many destructive deeds/events taking place as political, personal rights/freedoms, economic, good vs bad, right vs. wrong, for me, the prism also includes that of an overarching spiritual revolution.

Many of the events that have been taking place, of which I first became aware awareness with the Ferguson shootings. We (Byron & I ), & the seekers among us, expected the upheaval. Not the details, but the events to provoke societal & racial upheaval had already been disclosed/predicted at least 1-2 years before hand. So, as those events and many others unfolded, we were prepared emotionally.  We watched them unfold not with shock & fear, but with the fore-knowledge of the pre-meditated actions being carried out to unhinge society.

We knew, because we wanted to know. There were many things we had been researching, because we wanted to know. Did we learn too, to be discerning? Yes. Did we learn how to find information & sources we could trust? Yes.  Did we feel unnerved & our minds stretched to the edge a couple of times? Yes. Did we feel more empowered by what we learned, verses frightened or powerless? YES!

I felt sadness & frustration yesterday at work, when 2 co-workers, 2 friends, were having an argument about gun control & the Las Vegas shooting. All over FB, the sides are taken regarding this issue which has been going on with heat for years.  There has been a pattern in the world & in the news of one calamity after another. The focus is on guns, then as we calm down, we get hit with destructive weather, creating sorrow, worry, fear. Just as we get a reprieve, the focus is on racial violence, brutality & injustice. Then just as that begins to settle down, we see presidential drama & anger forge to the forefront. And round and round it goes to the threat of the KKK resurgence, before more extreme weather… etc.

Interestingly though, when thousands of arrests were made this year, of major pedophile rings that included wealthy elite, politicians & those that run Hollywood, nothing was noted. Although the news was carried by major newspapers, it was quietly ushered under the table. Again, many of us who Want to KNOW, have known about these secret underground happenings for quite some time. We are ok being called crazy or conspiracy theorists when the topics come up, because the truth always surfaces. But if you don’t want to know, you won’t.

Do you Want to KNOW why this news is of major importance?

Only by you Wanting to KNOW, what you may not know, can you help bring the dark into the Light. We are each responsible. If we choose to remain in ignorance, we are a part of the problem, not the solution, not the change.

To me, it feels like there is a rotation of issues to ignite our fear, hatred, anger, & grief, in ways that keep us on a merry-go-round of emotional turmoil & fighting with one another.  The big invisible plan/agenda/game works. The mass infighting is the proof. The heartaches, the fears, the rage & indignation, are all proof that we are just where the ‘powers that be’ want us … looking everywhere but at the them & what’s going on behind the curtain.

Don’t misunderstand any of this as to say, ‘everyone in places of power’ are bad guys, or  evil, or out to get us. But it is to say that there are many things & people that are in no way what they appear. This post is not a rant, a reactive ‘conspiracy’ theory. This is not coming to you from fear, alarmist, or to provoke anxiety.

The intention is to bring awareness to those who really may not realize that something much bigger is taking place. It’s for those who feel lost & powerless, confused & sickened by the spinning out of control of everything around them. It’s to bring a new way to regain an inner peace in the midst of chaos, and to point the way to maintain love & harmony & compassion, in these time of great change. It is also to pointedly invite each of us to be aware what we are choosing, what we are denying, where we are fearful to tread, but why we need to tread anyway.

The more informed we are, the more grounded, at peace, & empowered we are able to be. The more informed we are, the less able we are to be used as unconscious pawns in the game/agenda. The more informed we are, the more empowered we are, to turn our energy/attention to uniting with our fellow man, to turn a collective Light of awareness to those who are using us in our own destruction.

The more informed we are, the more we understand the necessity to heal our own unconscious wounds of darkness, because OUR darkness is assisting the big, invisible game to succeed. We have the power. The power is our own ability to be curious, to seek truth, and most importantly to KNOW THYSELF.

Do YOU want to know what’s going on behind the curtain?

Would YOU want to know …

Would you want to know ~ if you were being played as a pawn in a very big, invisible game?

Would you want to know ~ if the very people you have been taught to trust were Not what they appeared to be?

Would you want to know ~ if the systems you’ve been conditioned to believe in, were a part of the very big game (regardless of original intent)?

Would you want to know ~ that you are a slave to the system that exists?

Would you want to know ~ that your personal pain, fear, emotional wounds & trauma, are being used against you, to perpetuate your suffering?

Would you want to know ~ that you are addicted to suffering & violence?

Would you want to know ~ if your own conditioned addiction to suffering was being exploited & amplified to serve a hidden purpose/agenda?

Would you want to know ~ if those in power created scapegoats to carry out their agenda’s though mind-control?

Would you Want to know ~ that there are many ways in which you are under the ‘spell’ of subtle mind control techniques right now?

Would you Want to know ~ that real people are dying & being harmed as a part of hidden purpose/agenda – not by happenstance, religious terrorists, or lone shooters, but by those who have gained your trust?

Would you Want to KNOW that those we have been taught trust in, are actually the very ones carry out actions that cause death, human/drug trafficking, etc.

Would you Want to KNOW ~ that as long as your attention & energy is focused at fighting one another, this IS HOW the hidden agenda keeps power?

Would you want to know that ~ your votes, petitions, & protests are in essence fruitless, as long as the big, invisible, game/agenda has the power?

Would you want to know ~ that you may be powerless … but ONLY to the degree that you are functioning in the mindset of the systems that no longer work?

Would you want to know ~ that as long as you believe that those in power have our best interest at heart, you are unconsciously playing the big, invisible game?

Would you want to know ~ that the change you seek will come only to the degree that each of you WANTs to KNOW?

You have to Want to know the TRUTHs.

You have to Want to KNOW, no matter how much that shakes up our world view.

You have to Want to KNOW, bad enough to do the work to research through alternative sources, information, & educate yourself.

You have to Want to KNOW, enough to look a little crazy to those who DON’T want to know.

You have to Want to KNOW how to unplug from the merry-go-round & gamut of intense emotions in order to find other solutions.

You have to Want to KNOW why & how your energy of fear, anger, rage, & hatred is being used as fuel to ‘unseen powers that be.’

You have to Want to KNOW, MORE than you feel compelled, to give into your knee-jerk reactions to keep fueling fires with fighting & blaming one another, pointing fingers at either political party, fear, anger & hatred.

You have to Want to KNOW enough to start doing your own inner reflection to call out your own unconscious prejudice, anger, hatred & grief … that already lives within you.

You have to Want to KNOW, that it is your own unconscious darkness, that gives life to the darkness outside of you.

You have to Want to KNOW enough to let you mind be stretched & the world as you know it to crumble.

You have to Want to KNOW that you are powerless, ONLY as long as you are blind to the big. game & yourself.

You have to Want to KNOW that YOU are responsible for creating a different world.

You have to Want to KNOW HOW to hold the new responsibility for creating a different world.

You have to Want to KNOW the Truths, before the next level solutions can be activated.

You have to Want to KNOW/learn how to love yourself, so you can love your neighbor, no matter their differences.

You have to Want to KNOW yourself as the Soul, the Light that you are, instead of the identification with your beliefs, societal programming, religious indoctrination, emotions, & stories.

The hand of invitation is extended by myself & many others, who can share information to awaken & empower your presence in this world;  to point you in the direction of freedom from the unconscious suffering & recalibrating your being toward the vibrations of Love, Peace, Harmony; to help you unplug from the instigators which trigger your habitual emotional reactions & to help you realize the truest Truth of Who You Really Are … But you have to Want To …

Love & Blessings ~

Lotus

 

 

Judgment & Prejudice

One of the quickest ways for me to see & let go of some of my most uncomfortable belief patterns is when I see them mirrored back to me, in another person. Particularly judgments. It’s amusing to me how often I can be aware of a judgment, know where it’s rooted, do my best to intercept the pattern consciously, and yet when I feel it rising, it shoots out my mouth or through me body, as if from its own free will.

And then there comes that magic moment. . .  when a friend, family member or complete stranger acts out my judgement, portrays it, in all of its reflected glory back at me. Usually it triggers the utter distaste I feel towards them. But the truth is, that the distaste is really about that energy within myself, as I experience the mirror of my own belief. Nine times out of ten, that’s all it takes. It registers in my body and memory in a way that brings such clarity from the outside in. Rarely do I have to ‘work’ at staying on top of it after that. It’s dissipated and vanished!

Prejudice works in the same way for me. Most of my life I didn’t recognize prejudice in myself. I was raised in a family that was very open, inclusive, and honored diversity in race, ethnicity, sexual orientation, etc

When I stumbled along an unacknowledged prejudice within myself, I was surprised and ashamed. I hadn’t had the opportunity to take this specific judgement out of it’s neatly stored box, locked in a corner of my mind, until Life brought about a couple of trigger moments that delivered this shadow part of myself up to my awareness.

I truly didn’t like the way I felt when it would creep up on me. In it’s presence, I’d think the most awful things about a person that I didn’t even know, simply based on ethnicity, and stories which I had no basis for, which ran through my mind. The feelings and thoughts didn’t feel like who I knew myself to be. I knew it was important to not judge the judgments, but to observe myself with compassion. This was the only way that I would be able to explore this issue, learn from it as the teacher it was, and find a way to heal it in my heart. And that was a challenge.

At first I thought I could simply decide not to feel this way, based on what I intellectually knew I should believe and in essence, knew to be true. Unfortunately, mind over matter wasn’t the remedy.

Again, it was the reflection of a growing prejudice in our country over the last couple of years, that began force feeding me sentiments of this prejudice. Since the racial riots 3 years ago, the anti-semetic rhetoric bubbling up around the presidential election, to the wall being built, people being kept out of the country, to the looming threats of deportations . . .  I felt sickened every time for what was taking place, but also because there was a matching energy with my own heart & being. I knew this needed to change, and it could only begin with me.

So I began to ask questions of myself about this prejudice I was experiencing.

I looked back at my life. I drew out any memories I could find that might have influenced my feelings. Was I hurt at some point by someone of this ethnic group? Did I feel fearful that it would happen again? Was I taken advantage of? Was I trying to protect myself? Was I harboring some kind of anger? Did someone else share any kind of stories with me that could have given birth to this prejudice I was carrying?

I came up with nothing, other than perhaps the powerful effect of collective thought forms which so often we unconsciously absorb. These thought forms or programming can come from society, family, or other systems of indoctrination. Most of the time collective thought forms swoop up our own psyche without being deeply explored within the individual.

Then I began to look at the instances that triggered the awareness that I was ‘against’ a group of people.  What that began to reveal to me, was that I had a great fear. However, there was nothing to demonstrate an experience that would prompt this fear.

So I dug deeper.

And as I dug deeper, I became aware that I was carrying this fear from a past life. Through methods that have worked for me in the past for deep dives into my inner world, I found that I had been a victim to much violence, pain, rape, & suffering as a woman, in a life past. This then began to explain other aspects of my life all the way back to childhood fears, where my physical safety was of great concern to me.

A memory of unresolved fear and pain was the catalyst for my prejudice and misplaced judgments.

The healing had begun. Clarity was being gained. And in that clarity, the prejudice that I was carrying, based on deep seated fear and survival experiences from a time before this present life, my prejudice has lost it’s dark grip on my heart and soul.

It was the outed hatred, fear, anger, division, and pain amplified over these past years in the public arena, and full blown in the past months especially, that reflected the darkness held within me, to me.

We are all mirrors for one another. If we see anger, hatred, fear, blame, being projected outside to another, it is our job to turn our attention back toward ourselves. We need to look in the mirror, so that our healing can begin. In our own personal healing, we then create healing in the world. If we each took on this task of self-responsibility, there would be far less projection of these harmful beliefs forced on others in the world. We would begin to step forth into a new world experience.

We are all brothers and sisters of the world, in all of our differences & likenesses. In fact, I believe we have more similarities than differences. The more we learn to inquire as to the how’s and why’s we react to others in the way we do, the quicker we will find a new way of being together on this planet.

As we heal our own fear, anger, and pain, we then can begin to reflect our Love, Compassion, and Understanding out into the world, and begin receiving that mirrored reflection as well.

No one is going to save us from ourselves. Saving this world, creating harmony and making space for all of us to exist in peace, must begin within each of us, one by one. And truly, the sooner we each embark on this healing, the better off we all will be as one family.

When we see the truth of our own Light, we’ll see that reflected in our mirror.  How wonderful would that be?

Blessings as you look into the mirror ~ Lotus

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When the Bliss of Waking Turns South

Over the many years of working with clients as they travel on their healing path, there is a common pattern. Expanded awareness, many AhHa moments, new freedom & bliss . . . and then things ‘turn south,’ or so it feels.

I’d been working with a lovely woman who was coming for sessions every 2 weeks. Her clarity was growing, old outworn patterns were releasing. Her connection to God and her guides was deepening. She was stepping into her true expression with greater confidence. She was feeling more self-love, more love and generosity for others, and rooting deeper into her sense of self-worth.  After a few months of working together she wanted to dive deeper, so we embarked on a 3 day intensive retreat.

She was a deep-diver over that weekend! She received greater clarity and released deep grief. Though she felt much lighter, with a joyful spaciousness, she also got ‘sick’ at the very end. By sick, as I’ve stated before, that word is a more familiar label for cleansing the emotional on the physical level. With bronchitis, inconvenienced, by what was happening, and a little deflated.  It wasn’t the ending she’d hoped for.

When we really commit to our spiritual unfolding, it’s important to realize there will be peaks and valleys, highs and lows, summer and winter. These will show up in our emotional landscape. We may feel a little crazy and confused, as our mind integrates new perceptions, and the body will go through many changes. Many times, as our patterns are transformed, as our vibrations rise, we may need to boldly step into a fire, which may be painful, and walk through it to gain a new perception, a higher level of wakefulness.  The work is to show up where the rubber meets the road, so to speak, remaining vigilant and awake to practice a new way of being.

The process of awakening is amazing and filled with much wonder, as we learn to see/perceive/live, like we’ve never seen/perceived/lived before. We remember what we’ve long forgotten ~

 that we are each sparks of the Divine Love, waiting to be fully embodied. The connection with all of Life, the expansion of Love, and the deep well of Compassion we access, is without words to describe.  This is Our Truth.

And, the other side of the coin, is that we must also face the abyss of the Unknown, disconnection from identifications that previously allowed life and ourselves to make sense to our human-ness. There is an unearthing of pain, sadness, and fear, which must be released and transformed with the consciousness of waking.

When this stage of our spiritual journey is experienced for the first time it can certainly feel as if we’ve taken a wrong turn somewhere along the line! I remember after the bliss of the first 4 months of my Kundalini awakening, I became very unsettled ~ at least in the mind.

For months I’d been in a state of disintegration of the self, as I’d known myself to be. Literally, I felt empty, like a void inside, yet so clear and full at the same time. The previous ways in which my personality functioned felt washed away. I wasn’t experiencing any ‘buttons’ being pushed, even though there was plenty of button pushing happening. I didn’t need to process, discuss, or solve any issues. Silence, being present and acting from a place of being in the moment, allowed life to unfold perfectly. Judgments had escaped me and I felt deeply connected with Source. I thought I was free!

And then, it turned south, or so I thought. Around that 4 month time, the body felt at peace, empty, calm, and grounded. But my mind from nowhere, began thinking again. It was as if a switch was flipped off from being the witness/observer state of consciousness, of simply being present.  Instead, the mind’s thought was perceiving the state of intense detachment, and there was reaction. And that reaction was disturbed. I had been resting in the hightened state of witness consciousness, and next, I was entering back into the more person-hood, identified, ego consciousness.  Instead of experiencing the peace, calm, empty of the body, as I had prior, I felt greatly detached and numb to all emotion, within the mind.

This alarmed the mind, while the body remained silent and empty. Without the senses of emotion, I couldn’t access the feeling of love for my partner or family. I didn’t feel connected to myself. I felt void of personality. To top it off, the fact that I couldn’t even feel the sense of alarm in my body, that I felt in my mind, alarmed my mind even more!

This phase passed. As I traversed over the years, I recognized that at different phases of our awakening, there are a great many shifts that take place energetically, physically, and of course, this affects our consciousness.  Consciousness is the key. New states of consciousness will create a new experience in how we relate to everything. But I don’t want to digress into that long subject.

The point is, that we are growing, expanding, awakening, ascending. So many words to describe what has to be experiential, to truly understand. It’s important that we have these conversations, because this will ward off unneeded fear or disappointment. Everyone’s spiritual path is unique, and yet, there are similarities at different junctures along the way.

I didn’t take a wrong turn & head south. The client, I shared about above or the others, also didn’t take wrong turns. All of us traversing this path will realize this, if we just keep moving forward, opening our heart to love and the Divine, and keep the fire of courage burning that a spiritual warrior needs to continue their journey.

We are blessed to be living in this time of accelerated spiritual unfolding! It’s amazing. It’s daunting. It’s a path of embodiment, and this is what has been largely overlooked in spiritual teachings in the general public. So hang on, but not too tightly. The ride is filled with more ease & grace, the less we cling.  If you feel you’ve turned south, know you will soon turn north again.We’re all in this together, so you’re invited to keep rising, keep diving, keep shining.

 

Blessings on your ups & downs ~ Lotus

art: Mara Freidman