Integrating Shadows Past

Settling into myself this evening after what feels like many days of going & doing.

My husband and I have moved from Los Angeles to Tulsa, Oklahoma. It’s been a flurry of transition since June, the heat of summer to now, October, feeling the chill of fall. Earlier tonight the call inward, to return to the sacred embrace of Divine Mother spoke loud & clear. The previous opportunities I’ve had for down-time, inward-time, has lessened greatly with the new life that has been unfolding, and I savor the snippets I get to settle into stillness and inner quietude.

My practice as of late has been of the soul retrieval nature. Returning to the places where I’d left pieces of myself in Tulsa. The shadow of this lost, wild child, angry,  teen-age alcoholic rebel, of 30+ years ago has loomed large since I departed this town. I flung many judgments her way. Much shame was buried, until it wanted to surface, that is.

She/me is now held in my loving embrace, being integrated into a new level of wholeness. She/I was really so much sweeter than I had allowed her/me to be. Acknowledged, seen, heard, & loved, she/me leaves behind those times in the dark, to celebrate the wisdom in the light.

The memories seep through the humidity of the summer and the cool breezes as the cold approaches. The weather here carries a surprising amount of recall, through my body. It also shares visions the younger me in ‘this park’ or with ‘that person’ or ‘walking down that street’ … through much wiser eyes and a softer heart.

I’ve had many tears flow in the release of shame that I see now was unwarranted. Mistakes and choices, were made back then that can be labeled as ‘bad,’ but that no longer holds weight. as we all do our best to make our way through tough, tender years.

I reclaim myself from where I gave my love in order to learn lessons of the depths of compromise and self-negation. I reclaim myself from holding on to the innocence lost, expecting the power of love and validation to come from outside.  I reclaim myself from the addiction to suffering, from living in the past.

Each layer that rises with the initial imprint of fear, sorrow, loss, shame, etc. I hold myself and remind myself of the innate preciousness that has always been. I bring all of me back into this present Now Moment.

There is a re-patterning of this town as time-lines collapse with each layer of integration. The past fades into this life, here, now, full of Light, Wisdom & Divine Knowing of the perfection of all that has passed.  I walk with a new freedom into each moment, a clear mind, a softer heart, with more space for the Presence of Divine Grace, to make a home within.

There may be more to be revealed, to heal, to integrate, in this town. Time will tell.

But each step of the way, I know the truth beyond anything pulls me momentarily into the undertow.  I know that I am a precious, divine being, seeing beyond these human experiences.

May we all reclaim our past/future, which separate us from the divinity within and live in the fullness of our Light & Truth Now.

Many Blessings on the never-ending journey ~

Lotus

art: Autumn Skye Art

 

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Would You Want to KNOW …?

This is a post which segues from my norm. We all have our soul missions, so to speak, that we are here to bring forth. Though this post reflects an aspect of my own education, which serves my awakening journey, it is not my mission (at least at this time) to make this my public voice or expression. I’m making an exception however, as it continues to come to my attention that we, as a collective, are grossly uninformed regarding a much wider scope of the chaos in our world.  There are those who are stepping up grandly to share & teach bravely about the ‘hidden agendas’,  from whom I continue to lean, and those who are ready & willing to open to new information & new ways of thinking … in essence, more are ready to take the ‘red pill’ & awaken to a next level of understanding.

While the very latest tragedy in Las Vegas & the destruction in Puerto Rico, have been pivotal to writing this, its fuel has been culminating over the last couple of years. Briefly, I will say I (nor many others who have been preparing for this time ) am not surprised by anything that is taking place. I understand it all as a part of a necessary, major dismantling of the existing systems, as well as a needed shaking up of the individual/collective consciousness in order to awaken. This is a time of evolution/revolution & spiritual awakening. Any growth involves growing pains.

While most see the many destructive deeds/events taking place as political, personal rights/freedoms, economic, good vs bad, right vs. wrong, for me, the prism also includes that of an overarching spiritual revolution.

Many of the events that have been taking place, of which I first became aware awareness with the Ferguson shootings. We (Byron & I ), & the seekers among us, expected the upheaval. Not the details, but the events to provoke societal & racial upheaval had already been disclosed/predicted at least 1-2 years before hand. So, as those events and many others unfolded, we were prepared emotionally.  We watched them unfold not with shock & fear, but with the fore-knowledge of the pre-meditated actions being carried out to unhinge society.

We knew, because we wanted to know. There were many things we had been researching, because we wanted to know. Did we learn too, to be discerning? Yes. Did we learn how to find information & sources we could trust? Yes.  Did we feel unnerved & our minds stretched to the edge a couple of times? Yes. Did we feel more empowered by what we learned, verses frightened or powerless? YES!

I felt sadness & frustration yesterday at work, when 2 co-workers, 2 friends, were having an argument about gun control & the Las Vegas shooting. All over FB, the sides are taken regarding this issue which has been going on with heat for years.  There has been a pattern in the world & in the news of one calamity after another. The focus is on guns, then as we calm down, we get hit with destructive weather, creating sorrow, worry, fear. Just as we get a reprieve, the focus is on racial violence, brutality & injustice. Then just as that begins to settle down, we see presidential drama & anger forge to the forefront. And round and round it goes to the threat of the KKK resurgence, before more extreme weather… etc.

Interestingly though, when thousands of arrests were made this year, of major pedophile rings that included wealthy elite, politicians & those that run Hollywood, nothing was noted. Although the news was carried by major newspapers, it was quietly ushered under the table. Again, many of us who Want to KNOW, have known about these secret underground happenings for quite some time. We are ok being called crazy or conspiracy theorists when the topics come up, because the truth always surfaces. But if you don’t want to know, you won’t.

Do you Want to KNOW why this news is of major importance?

Only by you Wanting to KNOW, what you may not know, can you help bring the dark into the Light. We are each responsible. If we choose to remain in ignorance, we are a part of the problem, not the solution, not the change.

To me, it feels like there is a rotation of issues to ignite our fear, hatred, anger, & grief, in ways that keep us on a merry-go-round of emotional turmoil & fighting with one another.  The big invisible plan/agenda/game works. The mass infighting is the proof. The heartaches, the fears, the rage & indignation, are all proof that we are just where the ‘powers that be’ want us … looking everywhere but at the them & what’s going on behind the curtain.

Don’t misunderstand any of this as to say, ‘everyone in places of power’ are bad guys, or  evil, or out to get us. But it is to say that there are many things & people that are in no way what they appear. This post is not a rant, a reactive ‘conspiracy’ theory. This is not coming to you from fear, alarmist, or to provoke anxiety.

The intention is to bring awareness to those who really may not realize that something much bigger is taking place. It’s for those who feel lost & powerless, confused & sickened by the spinning out of control of everything around them. It’s to bring a new way to regain an inner peace in the midst of chaos, and to point the way to maintain love & harmony & compassion, in these time of great change. It is also to pointedly invite each of us to be aware what we are choosing, what we are denying, where we are fearful to tread, but why we need to tread anyway.

The more informed we are, the more grounded, at peace, & empowered we are able to be. The more informed we are, the less able we are to be used as unconscious pawns in the game/agenda. The more informed we are, the more empowered we are, to turn our energy/attention to uniting with our fellow man, to turn a collective Light of awareness to those who are using us in our own destruction.

The more informed we are, the more we understand the necessity to heal our own unconscious wounds of darkness, because OUR darkness is assisting the big, invisible game to succeed. We have the power. The power is our own ability to be curious, to seek truth, and most importantly to KNOW THYSELF.

Do YOU want to know what’s going on behind the curtain?

Would YOU want to know …

Would you want to know ~ if you were being played as a pawn in a very big, invisible game?

Would you want to know ~ if the very people you have been taught to trust were Not what they appeared to be?

Would you want to know ~ if the systems you’ve been conditioned to believe in, were a part of the very big game (regardless of original intent)?

Would you want to know ~ that you are a slave to the system that exists?

Would you want to know ~ that your personal pain, fear, emotional wounds & trauma, are being used against you, to perpetuate your suffering?

Would you want to know ~ that you are addicted to suffering & violence?

Would you want to know ~ if your own conditioned addiction to suffering was being exploited & amplified to serve a hidden purpose/agenda?

Would you want to know ~ if those in power created scapegoats to carry out their agenda’s though mind-control?

Would you Want to know ~ that there are many ways in which you are under the ‘spell’ of subtle mind control techniques right now?

Would you Want to know ~ that real people are dying & being harmed as a part of hidden purpose/agenda – not by happenstance, religious terrorists, or lone shooters, but by those who have gained your trust?

Would you Want to KNOW that those we have been taught trust in, are actually the very ones carry out actions that cause death, human/drug trafficking, etc.

Would you Want to KNOW ~ that as long as your attention & energy is focused at fighting one another, this IS HOW the hidden agenda keeps power?

Would you want to know that ~ your votes, petitions, & protests are in essence fruitless, as long as the big, invisible, game/agenda has the power?

Would you want to know ~ that you may be powerless … but ONLY to the degree that you are functioning in the mindset of the systems that no longer work?

Would you want to know ~ that as long as you believe that those in power have our best interest at heart, you are unconsciously playing the big, invisible game?

Would you want to know ~ that the change you seek will come only to the degree that each of you WANTs to KNOW?

You have to Want to know the TRUTHs.

You have to Want to KNOW, no matter how much that shakes up our world view.

You have to Want to KNOW, bad enough to do the work to research through alternative sources, information, & educate yourself.

You have to Want to KNOW, enough to look a little crazy to those who DON’T want to know.

You have to Want to KNOW how to unplug from the merry-go-round & gamut of intense emotions in order to find other solutions.

You have to Want to KNOW why & how your energy of fear, anger, rage, & hatred is being used as fuel to ‘unseen powers that be.’

You have to Want to KNOW, MORE than you feel compelled, to give into your knee-jerk reactions to keep fueling fires with fighting & blaming one another, pointing fingers at either political party, fear, anger & hatred.

You have to Want to KNOW enough to start doing your own inner reflection to call out your own unconscious prejudice, anger, hatred & grief … that already lives within you.

You have to Want to KNOW, that it is your own unconscious darkness, that gives life to the darkness outside of you.

You have to Want to KNOW enough to let you mind be stretched & the world as you know it to crumble.

You have to Want to KNOW that you are powerless, ONLY as long as you are blind to the big. game & yourself.

You have to Want to KNOW that YOU are responsible for creating a different world.

You have to Want to KNOW HOW to hold the new responsibility for creating a different world.

You have to Want to KNOW the Truths, before the next level solutions can be activated.

You have to Want to KNOW/learn how to love yourself, so you can love your neighbor, no matter their differences.

You have to Want to KNOW yourself as the Soul, the Light that you are, instead of the identification with your beliefs, societal programming, religious indoctrination, emotions, & stories.

The hand of invitation is extended by myself & many others, who can share information to awaken & empower your presence in this world;  to point you in the direction of freedom from the unconscious suffering & recalibrating your being toward the vibrations of Love, Peace, Harmony; to help you unplug from the instigators which trigger your habitual emotional reactions & to help you realize the truest Truth of Who You Really Are … But you have to Want To …

Love & Blessings ~

Lotus

 

 

Judgment & Prejudice

One of the quickest ways for me to see & let go of some of my most uncomfortable belief patterns is when I see them mirrored back to me, in another person. Particularly judgments. It’s amusing to me how often I can be aware of a judgment, know where it’s rooted, do my best to intercept the pattern consciously, and yet when I feel it rising, it shoots out my mouth or through me body, as if from its own free will.

And then there comes that magic moment. . .  when a friend, family member or complete stranger acts out my judgement, portrays it, in all of its reflected glory back at me. Usually it triggers the utter distaste I feel towards them. But the truth is, that the distaste is really about that energy within myself, as I experience the mirror of my own belief. Nine times out of ten, that’s all it takes. It registers in my body and memory in a way that brings such clarity from the outside in. Rarely do I have to ‘work’ at staying on top of it after that. It’s dissipated and vanished!

Prejudice works in the same way for me. Most of my life I didn’t recognize prejudice in myself. I was raised in a family that was very open, inclusive, and honored diversity in race, ethnicity, sexual orientation, etc

When I stumbled along an unacknowledged prejudice within myself, I was surprised and ashamed. I hadn’t had the opportunity to take this specific judgement out of it’s neatly stored box, locked in a corner of my mind, until Life brought about a couple of trigger moments that delivered this shadow part of myself up to my awareness.

I truly didn’t like the way I felt when it would creep up on me. In it’s presence, I’d think the most awful things about a person that I didn’t even know, simply based on ethnicity, and stories which I had no basis for, which ran through my mind. The feelings and thoughts didn’t feel like who I knew myself to be. I knew it was important to not judge the judgments, but to observe myself with compassion. This was the only way that I would be able to explore this issue, learn from it as the teacher it was, and find a way to heal it in my heart. And that was a challenge.

At first I thought I could simply decide not to feel this way, based on what I intellectually knew I should believe and in essence, knew to be true. Unfortunately, mind over matter wasn’t the remedy.

Again, it was the reflection of a growing prejudice in our country over the last couple of years, that began force feeding me sentiments of this prejudice. Since the racial riots 3 years ago, the anti-semetic rhetoric bubbling up around the presidential election, to the wall being built, people being kept out of the country, to the looming threats of deportations . . .  I felt sickened every time for what was taking place, but also because there was a matching energy with my own heart & being. I knew this needed to change, and it could only begin with me.

So I began to ask questions of myself about this prejudice I was experiencing.

I looked back at my life. I drew out any memories I could find that might have influenced my feelings. Was I hurt at some point by someone of this ethnic group? Did I feel fearful that it would happen again? Was I taken advantage of? Was I trying to protect myself? Was I harboring some kind of anger? Did someone else share any kind of stories with me that could have given birth to this prejudice I was carrying?

I came up with nothing, other than perhaps the powerful effect of collective thought forms which so often we unconsciously absorb. These thought forms or programming can come from society, family, or other systems of indoctrination. Most of the time collective thought forms swoop up our own psyche without being deeply explored within the individual.

Then I began to look at the instances that triggered the awareness that I was ‘against’ a group of people.  What that began to reveal to me, was that I had a great fear. However, there was nothing to demonstrate an experience that would prompt this fear.

So I dug deeper.

And as I dug deeper, I became aware that I was carrying this fear from a past life. Through methods that have worked for me in the past for deep dives into my inner world, I found that I had been a victim to much violence, pain, rape, & suffering as a woman, in a life past. This then began to explain other aspects of my life all the way back to childhood fears, where my physical safety was of great concern to me.

A memory of unresolved fear and pain was the catalyst for my prejudice and misplaced judgments.

The healing had begun. Clarity was being gained. And in that clarity, the prejudice that I was carrying, based on deep seated fear and survival experiences from a time before this present life, my prejudice has lost it’s dark grip on my heart and soul.

It was the outed hatred, fear, anger, division, and pain amplified over these past years in the public arena, and full blown in the past months especially, that reflected the darkness held within me, to me.

We are all mirrors for one another. If we see anger, hatred, fear, blame, being projected outside to another, it is our job to turn our attention back toward ourselves. We need to look in the mirror, so that our healing can begin. In our own personal healing, we then create healing in the world. If we each took on this task of self-responsibility, there would be far less projection of these harmful beliefs forced on others in the world. We would begin to step forth into a new world experience.

We are all brothers and sisters of the world, in all of our differences & likenesses. In fact, I believe we have more similarities than differences. The more we learn to inquire as to the how’s and why’s we react to others in the way we do, the quicker we will find a new way of being together on this planet.

As we heal our own fear, anger, and pain, we then can begin to reflect our Love, Compassion, and Understanding out into the world, and begin receiving that mirrored reflection as well.

No one is going to save us from ourselves. Saving this world, creating harmony and making space for all of us to exist in peace, must begin within each of us, one by one. And truly, the sooner we each embark on this healing, the better off we all will be as one family.

When we see the truth of our own Light, we’ll see that reflected in our mirror.  How wonderful would that be?

Blessings as you look into the mirror ~ Lotus

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When the Bliss of Waking Turns South

Over the many years of working with clients as they travel on their healing path, there is a common pattern. Expanded awareness, many AhHa moments, new freedom & bliss . . . and then things ‘turn south,’ or so it feels.

I’d been working with a lovely woman who was coming for sessions every 2 weeks. Her clarity was growing, old outworn patterns were releasing. Her connection to God and her guides was deepening. She was stepping into her true expression with greater confidence. She was feeling more self-love, more love and generosity for others, and rooting deeper into her sense of self-worth.  After a few months of working together she wanted to dive deeper, so we embarked on a 3 day intensive retreat.

She was a deep-diver over that weekend! She received greater clarity and released deep grief. Though she felt much lighter, with a joyful spaciousness, she also got ‘sick’ at the very end. By sick, as I’ve stated before, that word is a more familiar label for cleansing the emotional on the physical level. With bronchitis, inconvenienced, by what was happening, and a little deflated.  It wasn’t the ending she’d hoped for.

When we really commit to our spiritual unfolding, it’s important to realize there will be peaks and valleys, highs and lows, summer and winter. These will show up in our emotional landscape. We may feel a little crazy and confused, as our mind integrates new perceptions, and the body will go through many changes. Many times, as our patterns are transformed, as our vibrations rise, we may need to boldly step into a fire, which may be painful, and walk through it to gain a new perception, a higher level of wakefulness.  The work is to show up where the rubber meets the road, so to speak, remaining vigilant and awake to practice a new way of being.

The process of awakening is amazing and filled with much wonder, as we learn to see/perceive/live, like we’ve never seen/perceived/lived before. We remember what we’ve long forgotten ~

 that we are each sparks of the Divine Love, waiting to be fully embodied. The connection with all of Life, the expansion of Love, and the deep well of Compassion we access, is without words to describe.  This is Our Truth.

And, the other side of the coin, is that we must also face the abyss of the Unknown, disconnection from identifications that previously allowed life and ourselves to make sense to our human-ness. There is an unearthing of pain, sadness, and fear, which must be released and transformed with the consciousness of waking.

When this stage of our spiritual journey is experienced for the first time it can certainly feel as if we’ve taken a wrong turn somewhere along the line! I remember after the bliss of the first 4 months of my Kundalini awakening, I became very unsettled ~ at least in the mind.

For months I’d been in a state of disintegration of the self, as I’d known myself to be. Literally, I felt empty, like a void inside, yet so clear and full at the same time. The previous ways in which my personality functioned felt washed away. I wasn’t experiencing any ‘buttons’ being pushed, even though there was plenty of button pushing happening. I didn’t need to process, discuss, or solve any issues. Silence, being present and acting from a place of being in the moment, allowed life to unfold perfectly. Judgments had escaped me and I felt deeply connected with Source. I thought I was free!

And then, it turned south, or so I thought. Around that 4 month time, the body felt at peace, empty, calm, and grounded. But my mind from nowhere, began thinking again. It was as if a switch was flipped off from being the witness/observer state of consciousness, of simply being present.  Instead, the mind’s thought was perceiving the state of intense detachment, and there was reaction. And that reaction was disturbed. I had been resting in the hightened state of witness consciousness, and next, I was entering back into the more person-hood, identified, ego consciousness.  Instead of experiencing the peace, calm, empty of the body, as I had prior, I felt greatly detached and numb to all emotion, within the mind.

This alarmed the mind, while the body remained silent and empty. Without the senses of emotion, I couldn’t access the feeling of love for my partner or family. I didn’t feel connected to myself. I felt void of personality. To top it off, the fact that I couldn’t even feel the sense of alarm in my body, that I felt in my mind, alarmed my mind even more!

This phase passed. As I traversed over the years, I recognized that at different phases of our awakening, there are a great many shifts that take place energetically, physically, and of course, this affects our consciousness.  Consciousness is the key. New states of consciousness will create a new experience in how we relate to everything. But I don’t want to digress into that long subject.

The point is, that we are growing, expanding, awakening, ascending. So many words to describe what has to be experiential, to truly understand. It’s important that we have these conversations, because this will ward off unneeded fear or disappointment. Everyone’s spiritual path is unique, and yet, there are similarities at different junctures along the way.

I didn’t take a wrong turn & head south. The client, I shared about above or the others, also didn’t take wrong turns. All of us traversing this path will realize this, if we just keep moving forward, opening our heart to love and the Divine, and keep the fire of courage burning that a spiritual warrior needs to continue their journey.

We are blessed to be living in this time of accelerated spiritual unfolding! It’s amazing. It’s daunting. It’s a path of embodiment, and this is what has been largely overlooked in spiritual teachings in the general public. So hang on, but not too tightly. The ride is filled with more ease & grace, the less we cling.  If you feel you’ve turned south, know you will soon turn north again.We’re all in this together, so you’re invited to keep rising, keep diving, keep shining.

 

Blessings on your ups & downs ~ Lotus

art: Mara Freidman

Only You

You can’t access a higher vibration
Until you rise to meet it.

You can’t taste transformation
Until you’re ready to greet it.

There’s a process, there’s time,
we travel, in our own way.

But we all go through it . . .
Awaken, a little more each day.

copyright Byron Lindley 2016

This is a time of co-creation. We choose to create with the Divine Truth or with the illusory world. What are you creating in your awakening experience?

Some of us look around and get looped into the fear programs, the density holdings of a paradigm that is crumbling. The invitation is to reflect within yourself.

Where do you get hooked into those parts of yourself that are anxious, depressed, in doubt, in fear?

Do you feel trapped in feeling that you are powerless in a world  gone mad?

We each are responsible for our own process. The shadows that seem looming outside of us, are also within, awaiting your attention and healing.

Do you see blame & judgment in the world?

Heal the blame & judgment within you.

Do you see anger & fear in the world?

Heal the anger & fear within you. 

Do you feel that humanity has lost its integrity?

Heal the loss of integrity within you. 

Our inner consciousness has the power to transform the collective consciousness. Don’t get distracted by the games that pit us and divide us from one another. Pull your attention inward.

Feel into your own heart ~ Honestly. Courageously. Humbly. 

If you don’t know how to do this inner journey, seek out those who can guide you safely and compassionately. If you have forgotten your Wholeness & Wholiness, you have a choice whether or not, to retrieve it. It is a matter of choice and action.  You hold this power.

Only you hold the key to rise up to meet your own Light! 

 

Blessings on your Awakening Journey!

 


art: Luis Tamani Amasifuen

Embodying Your Divine Self

Entering into the arms of your Beloved, you enter into the Essence of You.

There are thresholds that must be crossed if you wish to come home to you Divine Self. And what is meant by the ‘Divine Self?‘  

Have you experienced those moments of empty ~ bliss?  

Where you’re so lost in something you love doing, absorbed in the moment, losing track of all space & time, shedding for those moments, the attachment to who your personality is or isn’t? 

Or when you’ve felt in such a flow with creativity gushing forth, uninhibited, expressing spontaneously, that even you were amazed in the afterglow?

Or when someone or something, has unexpectedly opened your heart to allow an ecstatic LOVE pour through your being, unafraid, unfettered, and fully expanded, that there was nothing in your mind, but that state of being in your awareness? 

Our Divine Self, expresses through vibrations, frequency & states of being, rather than emotions or thought. Those states of being are always present, they don’t ebb & flow, with our whims, fears, judgments, or grief. They are ever-present, as those qualities are our sacred ground of being. They are who we are, beneath the personality of stories, beliefs, habits, & life’s experiences.

The Divine Self radiates through us in a growing force & presence, the more that we release, heal & unfurl the false sense of self.

But how do we find the thresholds, let alone access this living presence within each of us? 

How do we learn to maintain that connection once it’s made? 

How do we allow it to transform us, so that we are living more fully as our divine Self? 

This is what we explore in the Path of Embodiment, since we can’t access, awaken, maintain & transform into the remembering of our Divine Self without Embodiment.  This path is not of the intellect or mind, it must take place within our body, heart, & Soul.  It is experiential, utilizing only as needed, the informational.

You are invited to explore & expand, deepen & embody your Truest Self, Divine Self, when you step through the first threshold of inquiry & a consultation with me.

I’ll be hosting a deep dive into this conversation of initiation, for your Beloved’s Embrace:

Beloved’s Embrace: Embodying your Divine Self

Sunday, April 23

Los Feliz, CA

10 am – 4 pm

For inquiries, please contact me:

lotus@artofsacredembodiment

626-394-1565

Seek Within

Seekers, ready yourselves to cease seeking outside of you . . . While it serves us for awhile, at some point we must release the outward focus in order to receive what is being revealed from within. . .  Seek from the deep well of the source within you, which connects you directly to the Source.

Seek the Love that abides, which resides beneath your fears.

Seek the Joy that streams effortlessly below the turbulence of your stress, attachments & disease.

Seek the Clarity that springs forth, once you release the the addiction to the programming of the world around you.

Seek the Compassion that caresses your own heart, when you befriend the darkness of your wounding. 

Seek the Peace that is the ground of your being, present when you cease the going, doing, & busying yourself, with unending distractions.

Seek the Power that is the core of your being, that up-lifts & carry’s you from the grounded presence, that sees through the forces of trickery ,which continues to sway you from your centeredness, by the illusions of powerlessness. 

Seek the Inspired Genius which infuses your creations, as soon as you let go of the ‘thinking’ mind and access the Divine Blueprint of your Soul.

Seek to Embody the Divinity of your Humanity, by lighting the fire or your divine spark. Ignite it within your body to reveal the Living Teachings within you, and remembering your True Essence, is far beyond what this world has compelled you to be. 

Seek within, where all your questions fade away, and only Wisdom is already known.

For assistance to journey within, see  Offerings

Embraced by Programming

Too often we are held in the warm embrace of comfort and contentment, of what we think we know to be true. It feels warm and fuzzy and non-threatening. But alas, it’s what we can also call programming.

And we can feel this changing!

In this space, this close embrace, we are held in a state of sleep. By sleep, I of course am not referring to the night time, rest, rejuvenate, dream land, subconscious processing, in preparation for the coming day, sleep.

By asleep, I’m referring to a subconscious resistance to ignite a more wakeful, curiosity about the world we live in. Such as: Why do I function as I do in the world? Why do the world’s ‘advanced’ societies function in the way they do? Why do I hold the beliefs I have? What is my deepest longing? deepest fear? most wondrous joy? What am I truly here on this planet for? What is my purpose? Why do I hate? Why do I love? Why do I keep repeating habits that bring unhappiness? Do I believe I am special, unique, divine? If not, why not? Do I have a sense of the sacred or soul in my life? Do I love  myself? If not, why not? Do I believe in things I cannot see? If not, why not?

You see, many of us go through our lives on autopilot (accepted programming). Yet more of us are beginning to address these kinds of questions within ourselves. When we’re asleep/programmed, held in the arms the ordinary, mundane state of ourselves and the world, we believe this ‘comfort’ is how life should be. When our boat starts to rock, we do what is necessary to return to the status quo of the previous comfort zone (programming). The ordinary, from which we became momentarily unsettled, is the default setting.

The other option: Wake-Up to something more, ExtraOrdinary  within us and outside of us.

While in the past there has been a preference to remain asleep, this is changing. Let me say here, I don’t believe people are making the conscious choice to stay asleep. This isn’t a judgment call. It’s been an overall state of mind, that as a population we’ve been lulled into. I believe there is a deeper force which programs that ‘comfort’ of the ordinary. Here’s an illustration:

One day a couple of years ago, I was having a talk with a friend. The day was beautiful and we were out for a walk. It was not long after the Ferguson riots began, and my friend was understandably feeling the pain about the violence taking place. We had stopped at the park to rest, sitting on the grass and I began to share some information that I had come across regarding this.

I thought this was the perfect opportunity to open a conversation. I shared that according to some of the sources I’d read, that these racial upsets weren’t an accident. That there was evidence of a larger plan to begin destabilizing our population, inciting hatred and fear, to create deeper division among the population. I also made the comment that according to what I’d heard, there would be more blatant episodes of racial violence in the near future. (Which there were.)

As I shared, my friends eyes began to glaze over. I received a blank stare of silence. And then she repeated her confusion, that she didn’t understand why there was so much violence taking place. With her next sentence, she then changed the subject to the park and weather. No questions. No disagreement. No challenging me in what she may have perceived as conspiracy thinking. No indication that I had shared anything at all.

In another example of collective programming, many people are more apt to remain in circumstances which breed stress, depression, unhappiness, and frustration, particularly in the the case of ones professional/work life, than be open to seeing an alternative way of living. Being open to an alternative doesn’t necessarily mean easy or without effort. When introduced to options or a plan of change, there is an unconscious clinging to the mode of rationalizations as to why life needs to remain as it is. It’s this kind of programming that we aren’t even aware of most of the time.

The programs run through us, like a computer. They’ve been ‘downloaded’ into our mind, heart and cellular structure, by society, family, education, religions and our own past experiences. They run unquestioned, automatically in the background. When they are questioned, the ‘regulation button’ (the programmed habitual thinking) is pushed, the glaze comes over the brain, and the ‘does not compute’ signal is activated. It happens so quickly and subtly, most of the time this process isn’t even recognized consciously.

New awakening signals are breaking up the old sleep signals!

The programs connect to beliefs/feelings about survival, love, security, power, abandonment, ability, and freedom, to name a few. The list goes on to include every story we believe about ourselves, others, and life. To challenge the programming, means to greatly upset the boat, which is our mind. It will challenge our beliefs of who we are, who we think others are, what we believe about life, what we believe we deserve or don’t deserve, whether we believe we have the power to change or create in our lives, etc.

For some people, there is a deep unconscious resistance to NOT grow in ways that expand our consciousness and NOT challenge the beliefs of how we’ve been programmed. Growth, change, expansion can indeed be hard and uncomfortable, but ultimately the reward is freedom. It can be painful, but the reward is joy and peace. It can be scary, but the reward is inner power and great success.

We’re opting to grow through the discomfort to realize our Joy!

We could look at two examples of familiar paths people choose (subconsciously) to live. One being, a desire to live a life that is comfortable, predictable, and with unchallenged beliefs or emotional discomfort. A second familiar path, is one of great continued stress, difficulty, emotional pain, or fear that also becomes comfortable, and thrives like addictions do, in unending cycles.

As a new concept is introduced, the ‘regulation button’ is triggered as soon as concepts or information are introduced into the mind. If it doesn’t fit into one’s present belief system or paradigm, or if it feels to strange, big, or overwhelming,  the ‘regulation button’ is pushed, tripping the signal to ‘go back to sleep.’  The internal counter reaction to expanding our consciousness, says ‘Don’t look there. Stay here, nice and cozy and comfortable.’ ‘That’s crazy talk!’ ‘I could never do that.’ etc. This in no way serves the Highest Good of Who We Really Are. It doesn’t serve the Highest Good for humanity or our planet. It only serves the agenda of other forces which desire to have control over us, via our programmed sleep.

The invitation is to all of us, to continually step into active inquiry as to how we are living our life. We are becoming more conscious, dynamic, and responsible, by reflecting and asking ourselves the hard questions. We are also becoming more willing to do the inconvenient actions in our life to continue to awaken. It is the risk of changing whatever our norm is that delivers many unexpected gifts.

There is no end to the awakening process! There is no finish line, just continued expansion.

2017 has ushered in a painful wake-up call to many with a new president bringing great upheaval, forcing all who have been asleep to wake-up. For many this process is excruciating and terrifying. Going back to sleep is becoming more and more difficult, as it should be. Why? Because we are here to truly awaken to our Selves, in both our darkness and our Light.

We are pulling out of the arms that embrace us tight & hold us in a programmed slumber!

The jig is up! We are here to awaken, evolve, transform, and create magic and mayhem full of Light and Love. But we must unfurl ourselves from the arms that hold us in a false embrace of safety and comfort. We are here to pull away from the bearer of our sleep (programming), pull out of these arms, and stand tall in our Light, our Brilliance, our Power. To take responsibility for honoring ourselves as a divine humanity, awaken and become ready to transform into all of our highest qualities. We are here to rise forth and claim our right to Joy, Peace, and Loving Power.

Blessings in Our Collective Awakening!

Are You Ready to Choose Flight?

I’ve been singing some Carol King lately, with the slight change of the lyrics . . . I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel continuous walls of attachments & resistance crumbling down. I feel the sky tumbling down . . . With every release of old beliefs, stories, personality traits, whenever Spirit’s around . . .

Little did I know I had the expectation to return to a caterpillar stage & create a new groove at the start of the year. Instead the butterfly keeps emerging rapidly.

I’ve given up on finding a new routine, which I’d hoped I’d be able to ground in once I rounded this monumental corner of transformation, which I’ve been longing for, for eons it seems. Especially at this time of quickening evolution on the planet & mind blowing revelations when witnessing our human experiences . . . New, new, new. It’s sort of like being in a carnival fun house trying to find sure footing on the ever shifting floor beneath your feet. Some moments it’s amusing, others it’s anxiety producing, and many other moments you just want the ride to stop.

Instead it’s an on-going dance of new phases & stages of becoming nothing of who I used to be. I know that many of you know this feeling right now. Awakening & awakening & awakening to ever new levels of Self, Love, dimensions, divinity & assistance from beyond the veil.

The new stability is found in the heart & in the growing direct experience, rather than that which we can touch & see. It’s a constant re-aligning of action & surrender, intent & consent to the Divine flow. This is what we signed up for. We consented to go on this earthly ride at this time, to bring in & anchor greater Light.

The more resistance to change at this time, the more challenges I find. And so, I continue to Let Go & fly!

Even as there are many of us who have been experiencing the process of awakening, as it is just that an on-going process, there are many of our brothers & sisters who this may be their maiden voyage, and what a time to begin . . . Although, awakening is the purpose of this time on this planet. This time may be wrought with much unexpected, therefore I feel it’s up to all of us to come together & share our experience, strength & hope.

Change is knocking on many hearts. If there is only an understanding of a world that is linear, rational, goal oriented, work, entertainment, & processing the duality of our present political climate, when change begins to tug at you, it may not make sense.

Many people know that their old ways aren’t working any more. They feel the stress, the exhaustion, the phantom illnesses, the rising anxiety & the debilitating depression, the yearning for something new. Some realize that they are being programmed to be distracted, and follow the distractions the next moment. Others are gaining the recognition that they are comfortably numb.

There is a growing awareness & desire for something more. Something deeper. Something more sacred. Something more fulfilling & enlivening. But there is the catch. To give life to the new will require change. Change will be uncomfortable. Period.

As soon as the heart & soul reach out to inquire for the new, the life of the creative feminine force within them, the knee-jerk reactions say:
“Oh No! I just don’t have the time.”
“Oh No! My spouse would never go for that.”
“Oh No! I couldn’t take that kind of time, that would be so selfish.”
“Oh No! I can’t afford that.”
“Oh No! But what if I fail?”

All of these rebuttals, make perfect sense. They are rational, and any logical person would say, of course, ‘Stay where & how you are, there’s too much to lose. It’s better to be safe than sorry.’
This is the paradigm we are leaving behind, whether we are ready for it or not! The growing discomfort of this time is to push us out of our comfort zones, our programmed thinking. It’s asking us to question our beliefs.
Why do you believe what you believe?
Are those beliefs yours or passed on through society?
And finally, are those beliefs serving your personal highest good, bringing you joy at the end of the day & the highest good of our world at large?

This is the time to release our stuckness in the root chakras of scarcity, survival, fear, & cultural thought forms, in order to evolve & expand into who we truly are. It is the time where we are being asked to be accountable for who we choose to be, what we choose to contribute to the world, and do we choose to be a Light in the world or a shadow.

What needs to be brought into awareness is that when we choose not to inquire into ourselves as those questions invite, that IS our programming at work. This is the part of us that chooses the status quo of what is known, what is ‘comfortably numb’ verses joyful, celebrating wholeness, stepping into our purpose. This is the part of us that clings to the belief of limitation, rather than expand into abundance, desires to remain asleep, rather than awaken, that chooses to remain trapped in the servitude of programming, rather than experience a greater freedom. This is the part of us that chooses to hand over our personal power to authorities outside of our highest conscience and forfeit our sovereignty..

Change is indeed difficult. It can be confusing. It requires us to release the stability of outworn ways and grow in a faith & trust of the greatness within our soul. Change sets the stage for our transformation, and it doesn’t play by the rational rules. It plays by the rules of faith, creativity, inspiration & intuition. It introduces us to the direct experience of higher awareness, soul connection, & being true to one’s Self. It leads us to divine connection & divine knowing, which increases our Faith & Trust that we are not alone. Choosing change gives us the strength to resist falling prey to all the lies & programming of the world.

We can choose to stay in the stuckness today, a year, or 5 years from now. We’ll most likely continue seeing through the same eyes & often times carrying a heavier load. I’ve heard people say, ‘if only I’d taken that other path when I had the chance, my life could have been so much different.’ Well, this is true, and it’s also true that the path of choosing self-empowerment, self-love will always be there. Sometimes it just gets harder to see as time goes on.

We are given choices over & over again, moments when we are on that threshold again, to honor our Self fully and say
“Yes!” It’s time for something different.
“Yes! I choose to step out of my sleep walking & awaken to the truth that is calling from inside my heart.”
“Yes! I choose to face my fears, insecurities, in order to give life to my purpose & sacred calling.”
“Yes! I choose to go through the discomfort in order to access greater happiness, joy, trust, and faith.”

We all have these choices, on-going, and that is the joy and wonder of being a spiritual-human being evolving. My inner world & outer reality will continue to morph and transform, as I choose consistent awakening. This is such a powerful time to shine & radiate the Light within you. The path before you is open and calling. I hope, if you haven’t yet found you’re path, you join the growing numbers of change makers! Come fly with us!
The choice is yours! What will you choose?

Blessings ~ Lotus

Love+Purpose = Power

This is a call to your Soul, if you have not yet, please begin to birth and give Life to You!

“Who are you?”

The time is over of playing it safe, staying small. Tune in. Somewhere down deep, your truest Desires call. If you can’t hear them, then step back from distractions and chaos of the swirling world, designed to keep you confused, so you can’t be infused, with your Divine Truth!

In clarification, I’m not referring to desires of safety, pleasure, and needs of validation. I’m speaking of the Big Desires ~ those that the heart and soul are within you to birth, to be of service, to uplift, and transform yourself & inspire that in others. You see one is of the ordinary, it only knows how to take. The other is of the ExtraOrdinary! It is Life giving thus, we receive more Light.

“Why are you here?”

You are here for more than to work, be entertained, and die. Listen within to the Soul’s compelling call or cry, which is most likely irrational, but highly transformational. It expands your longing to express and create, to courageously step outside your norm and deviate. In other words, to change your ordinary experience of life, into a Sacred Life.

For me as a Lightworker & Wayshower, my deepest desires have been known since I was very young. The call to be of service to bring healing and love, where there was pain; to help others re-awaken to their own purity & divinity, which had been forgotten; to create the safety to dive deep into their own darkness, finding the revelation of their Light; to celebrate every level of expansion into the Wholeness/Wholyness, which they already are. To embody love and compassion, reflecting that reality where the trapping of judgment and shame reside.

Ah! But alas, I had to gift to myself these healing’s of remembering, awakening, and embodying, before the first of continuous birthing began, shedding the old and revealing the new ‘me,’ again and again.

We are not here to be sleep walking in forgetfulness of the radiance that WE ARE. That time is over. We aren’t here to feel powerless, when in fact we are POWERFUL beyond measure. This time is NOW. We are not here to be comfortably numb to our Soul passion and purpose. That is the past. Do Not be fooled or be satisfied with any less than this ~

“What enlivens your Spirit?”

This is the realization that more of us are waking up to. We’re joining together to create a new future, which requires we heal the abrasions within ourselves. It’s taken the chaos of our world turned up-side-down, to  shake and quake us awake. This intense shake-up has not been an accident and it hasn’t come about to simply restore the mundane to what was, so that we can go back to the comfort of sleep. It’s time to claim our power, but Not the power of muscle, might, control, and fear.

“What is your Sacred Purpose?”

This a call to Sacred Activism. A call to your Divine Right to a Sacred Life. Step into the radicalism and power of personal transformation, imbuing your core with Self-Love and Self-Honor. Step into the call of your heart, engage the fire of courage, to align with your deepest truth.

You see, when we give life to our Highest Purpose, that deep call that wishes to express through you, which is fueled by love, inspiration, and passion, regardless of how big or small, we become Empowered. We begin to gain the clarity that we each have Innate Power, which will only grows, as more of us step up and into this truth. When we learn how potent we truly are, we will no longer be dictated to by outside forces. We will no longer treat ourselves with neglect or rejection, which means we will not treat others as such either. When we embody the power of our own individual Love & Purpose, collectively we are serving the world for the Highest Good of All.

“What is your Divine Service?”

Play your unique role! Use your voice! Do what you love! Let your beautiful freak flag fly! Use the passion of Desire to align with your Sacred Purpose. This brings Joy into your life and that of others. The more empowered, fulfilled, joyful, happy, in our truth we are, the more we Desire this reality for others.

Practice the alchemy of emotion. Convert the dense into the Light. The tunnel vision blindness into expanded sight. Go forward in social and political activism, but fuel your Inner Power by actions infused with the passion and love of what you want to see created. Rather than the the exhausting, disappointing, and disempowering diluted fuel of anger, division and rage of what you hate.

“Are you ready to Empower yourself & Enliven your Life?”

Is there hesitancy? Resistance? Fear? It’s ok to be lost, confused, uncertain how to ignite this sacred transformation, if it’s new to your awareness. Ask questions. Seek those who inspire you to begin. Let what you Love inform you. Trust that the right assistance will be given when you reach out. We are all here to help one another.

 

The biggest challenge we all face is NOT what is outside of us. The biggest challenge is to become willing to reclaim and awaken to the wonderment and power that resides in each in us.

Blessings for this powerful time to be alive!