Judgment & Prejudice

One of the quickest ways for me to see & let go of some of my most uncomfortable belief patterns is when I see them mirrored back to me, in another person. Particularly judgments. It’s amusing to me how often I can be aware of a judgment, know where it’s rooted, do my best to intercept the pattern consciously, and yet when I feel it rising, it shoots out my mouth or through me body, as if from its own free will.

And then there comes that magic moment. . .  when a friend, family member or complete stranger acts out my judgement, portrays it, in all of its reflected glory back at me. Usually it triggers the utter distaste I feel towards them. But the truth is, that the distaste is really about that energy within myself, as I experience the mirror of my own belief. Nine times out of ten, that’s all it takes. It registers in my body and memory in a way that brings such clarity from the outside in. Rarely do I have to ‘work’ at staying on top of it after that. It’s dissipated and vanished!

Prejudice works in the same way for me. Most of my life I didn’t recognize prejudice in myself. I was raised in a family that was very open, inclusive, and honored diversity in race, ethnicity, sexual orientation, etc

When I stumbled along an unacknowledged prejudice within myself, I was surprised and ashamed. I hadn’t had the opportunity to take this specific judgement out of it’s neatly stored box, locked in a corner of my mind, until Life brought about a couple of trigger moments that delivered this shadow part of myself up to my awareness.

I truly didn’t like the way I felt when it would creep up on me. In it’s presence, I’d think the most awful things about a person that I didn’t even know, simply based on ethnicity, and stories which I had no basis for, which ran through my mind. The feelings and thoughts didn’t feel like who I knew myself to be. I knew it was important to not judge the judgments, but to observe myself with compassion. This was the only way that I would be able to explore this issue, learn from it as the teacher it was, and find a way to heal it in my heart. And that was a challenge.

At first I thought I could simply decide not to feel this way, based on what I intellectually knew I should believe and in essence, knew to be true. Unfortunately, mind over matter wasn’t the remedy.

Again, it was the reflection of a growing prejudice in our country over the last couple of years, that began force feeding me sentiments of this prejudice. Since the racial riots 3 years ago, the anti-semetic rhetoric bubbling up around the presidential election, to the wall being built, people being kept out of the country, to the looming threats of deportations . . .  I felt sickened every time for what was taking place, but also because there was a matching energy with my own heart & being. I knew this needed to change, and it could only begin with me.

So I began to ask questions of myself about this prejudice I was experiencing.

I looked back at my life. I drew out any memories I could find that might have influenced my feelings. Was I hurt at some point by someone of this ethnic group? Did I feel fearful that it would happen again? Was I taken advantage of? Was I trying to protect myself? Was I harboring some kind of anger? Did someone else share any kind of stories with me that could have given birth to this prejudice I was carrying?

I came up with nothing, other than perhaps the powerful effect of collective thought forms which so often we unconsciously absorb. These thought forms or programming can come from society, family, or other systems of indoctrination. Most of the time collective thought forms swoop up our own psyche without being deeply explored within the individual.

Then I began to look at the instances that triggered the awareness that I was ‘against’ a group of people.  What that began to reveal to me, was that I had a great fear. However, there was nothing to demonstrate an experience that would prompt this fear.

So I dug deeper.

And as I dug deeper, I became aware that I was carrying this fear from a past life. Through methods that have worked for me in the past for deep dives into my inner world, I found that I had been a victim to much violence, pain, rape, & suffering as a woman, in a life past. This then began to explain other aspects of my life all the way back to childhood fears, where my physical safety was of great concern to me.

A memory of unresolved fear and pain was the catalyst for my prejudice and misplaced judgments.

The healing had begun. Clarity was being gained. And in that clarity, the prejudice that I was carrying, based on deep seated fear and survival experiences from a time before this present life, my prejudice has lost it’s dark grip on my heart and soul.

It was the outed hatred, fear, anger, division, and pain amplified over these past years in the public arena, and full blown in the past months especially, that reflected the darkness held within me, to me.

We are all mirrors for one another. If we see anger, hatred, fear, blame, being projected outside to another, it is our job to turn our attention back toward ourselves. We need to look in the mirror, so that our healing can begin. In our own personal healing, we then create healing in the world. If we each took on this task of self-responsibility, there would be far less projection of these harmful beliefs forced on others in the world. We would begin to step forth into a new world experience.

We are all brothers and sisters of the world, in all of our differences & likenesses. In fact, I believe we have more similarities than differences. The more we learn to inquire as to the how’s and why’s we react to others in the way we do, the quicker we will find a new way of being together on this planet.

As we heal our own fear, anger, and pain, we then can begin to reflect our Love, Compassion, and Understanding out into the world, and begin receiving that mirrored reflection as well.

No one is going to save us from ourselves. Saving this world, creating harmony and making space for all of us to exist in peace, must begin within each of us, one by one. And truly, the sooner we each embark on this healing, the better off we all will be as one family.

When we see the truth of our own Light, we’ll see that reflected in our mirror.  How wonderful would that be?

Blessings as you look into the mirror ~ Lotus

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Only You

You can’t access a higher vibration
Until you rise to meet it.

You can’t taste transformation
Until you’re ready to greet it.

There’s a process, there’s time,
we travel, in our own way.

But we all go through it . . .
Awaken, a little more each day.

copyright Byron Lindley 2016

This is a time of co-creation. We choose to create with the Divine Truth or with the illusory world. What are you creating in your awakening experience?

Some of us look around and get looped into the fear programs, the density holdings of a paradigm that is crumbling. The invitation is to reflect within yourself.

Where do you get hooked into those parts of yourself that are anxious, depressed, in doubt, in fear?

Do you feel trapped in feeling that you are powerless in a world  gone mad?

We each are responsible for our own process. The shadows that seem looming outside of us, are also within, awaiting your attention and healing.

Do you see blame & judgment in the world?

Heal the blame & judgment within you.

Do you see anger & fear in the world?

Heal the anger & fear within you. 

Do you feel that humanity has lost its integrity?

Heal the loss of integrity within you. 

Our inner consciousness has the power to transform the collective consciousness. Don’t get distracted by the games that pit us and divide us from one another. Pull your attention inward.

Feel into your own heart ~ Honestly. Courageously. Humbly. 

If you don’t know how to do this inner journey, seek out those who can guide you safely and compassionately. If you have forgotten your Wholeness & Wholiness, you have a choice whether or not, to retrieve it. It is a matter of choice and action.  You hold this power.

Only you hold the key to rise up to meet your own Light! 

 

Blessings on your Awakening Journey!

 


art: Luis Tamani Amasifuen

Seek Within

Seekers, ready yourselves to cease seeking outside of you . . . While it serves us for awhile, at some point we must release the outward focus in order to receive what is being revealed from within. . .  Seek from the deep well of the source within you, which connects you directly to the Source.

Seek the Love that abides, which resides beneath your fears.

Seek the Joy that streams effortlessly below the turbulence of your stress, attachments & disease.

Seek the Clarity that springs forth, once you release the the addiction to the programming of the world around you.

Seek the Compassion that caresses your own heart, when you befriend the darkness of your wounding. 

Seek the Peace that is the ground of your being, present when you cease the going, doing, & busying yourself, with unending distractions.

Seek the Power that is the core of your being, that up-lifts & carry’s you from the grounded presence, that sees through the forces of trickery ,which continues to sway you from your centeredness, by the illusions of powerlessness. 

Seek the Inspired Genius which infuses your creations, as soon as you let go of the ‘thinking’ mind and access the Divine Blueprint of your Soul.

Seek to Embody the Divinity of your Humanity, by lighting the fire or your divine spark. Ignite it within your body to reveal the Living Teachings within you, and remembering your True Essence, is far beyond what this world has compelled you to be. 

Seek within, where all your questions fade away, and only Wisdom is already known.

For assistance to journey within, see  Offerings

the Lotus Grows from Muddy Waters ~ the Rubber Meets the Road

There are the moments in our lives, where the rubber meets the road of our higher ideals and practices we incorporate in our lives. This is one such moment. One that I’ve chosen to explore with you. Here. Now.

Do you know that feeling when you’ve made a mistake which can’t really be taken back? The stomach is queasy. The mind is racing. The breath feels constricted.

And I remember, the Lotus Flower blooms through dark muddy waters … Cultivating Peace

How do we access peace in that moment? How do we quiet the discomfort of what the body/mind is expressing?  Let’s walk through it together, shall we?

As I enter into all that is present, I allow all the inner noise to be present. I come first into the breath and slowly guide it down into the belly. Often times I find it easiest to lay on my back, with my hands gently resting on my low belly.

Breathing in. Breathing out. Breathing in. Breathing out. 

In the acknowledging of what I’m feeling, all the sensations, I hear the messages of my mind. They are telling me stories of ‘I’m in trouble. I did wrong. I’m ashamed. I should have known better.’  I listen and allow the voices to be heard, even though I want to shut them out. I want them to be quiet. I want them to go away. I want to go to sleep. But I simply breathe through them with gentleness and calm.

I notice that after a moment of listening, my body is starting to relax. My breathing deepens. The voices quiet. Witness steps forward to hold a silent space of observance. As I observe the inner-chaos quieting, I can begin to inquire about what is true and what is false about my stories, my beliefs surrounding the current situation.

Peace isn’t inactive or passive. It’s dynamic. It is the potency from where we charge our battery, so that our energy source is a pure source to produce ‘right’ thought, ‘right’ action, ‘right’ activation.

As Peace begins to rise within me, the answers, the truths of ‘right’ thought, begin to clarify. It’s a soft breeze, rather than the trumpeting condemnations. 

Peace expands from the qualities of relaxation, inner silence, spaciousness, and letting go. As it expands, it has the power to touch all life around us. The ground of peace, then allows for many other high frequency qualities of energy to arise and be cultivated.

Sitting and receiving the information from within my being, resting in peaceful awareness, I’m able to receive clarity. I’m able to perceive clearly, what I would actually change if I could and what is simply my story with false projections. Peace allows me to hold both in balance and hold myself in Compassion, Forgiveness, Humility, and Gentleness. 

It’s easy to speak of spiritual qualities of being when things are as we’d like them to be and it’s always a blessing when they happen upon us via Grace. But those gifts of Grace are then doorways of invitation. These invitations ask us to ground and embody these divine qualities through practice and continuous deepening. There’s real ‘in the dirt work’ which transforms us and supports our whole being to rise in vibration and consciousness.

Today is a day of seeing how well I can meet the test before me, where the rubber meets the road.  If you’ve had one of these days, then I hope this assists you as well in coming into a state of Peace to embrace your Wholeness.

In Love & Light ~

Lotus