Integrating Shadows Past

Settling into myself this evening after what feels like many days of going & doing.

My husband and I have moved from Los Angeles to Tulsa, Oklahoma. It’s been a flurry of transition since June, the heat of summer to now, October, feeling the chill of fall. Earlier tonight the call inward, to return to the sacred embrace of Divine Mother spoke loud & clear. The previous opportunities I’ve had for down-time, inward-time, has lessened greatly with the new life that has been unfolding, and I savor the snippets I get to settle into stillness and inner quietude.

My practice as of late has been of the soul retrieval nature. Returning to the places where I’d left pieces of myself in Tulsa. The shadow of this lost, wild child, angry,  teen-age alcoholic rebel, of 30+ years ago has loomed large since I departed this town. I flung many judgments her way. Much shame was buried, until it wanted to surface, that is.

She/me is now held in my loving embrace, being integrated into a new level of wholeness. She/I was really so much sweeter than I had allowed her/me to be. Acknowledged, seen, heard, & loved, she/me leaves behind those times in the dark, to celebrate the wisdom in the light.

The memories seep through the humidity of the summer and the cool breezes as the cold approaches. The weather here carries a surprising amount of recall, through my body. It also shares visions the younger me in ‘this park’ or with ‘that person’ or ‘walking down that street’ … through much wiser eyes and a softer heart.

I’ve had many tears flow in the release of shame that I see now was unwarranted. Mistakes and choices, were made back then that can be labeled as ‘bad,’ but that no longer holds weight. as we all do our best to make our way through tough, tender years.

I reclaim myself from where I gave my love in order to learn lessons of the depths of compromise and self-negation. I reclaim myself from holding on to the innocence lost, expecting the power of love and validation to come from outside.  I reclaim myself from the addiction to suffering, from living in the past.

Each layer that rises with the initial imprint of fear, sorrow, loss, shame, etc. I hold myself and remind myself of the innate preciousness that has always been. I bring all of me back into this present Now Moment.

There is a re-patterning of this town as time-lines collapse with each layer of integration. The past fades into this life, here, now, full of Light, Wisdom & Divine Knowing of the perfection of all that has passed.  I walk with a new freedom into each moment, a clear mind, a softer heart, with more space for the Presence of Divine Grace, to make a home within.

There may be more to be revealed, to heal, to integrate, in this town. Time will tell.

But each step of the way, I know the truth beyond anything pulls me momentarily into the undertow.  I know that I am a precious, divine being, seeing beyond these human experiences.

May we all reclaim our past/future, which separate us from the divinity within and live in the fullness of our Light & Truth Now.

Many Blessings on the never-ending journey ~

Lotus

art: Autumn Skye Art

 

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Embodying Your Divine Self

Entering into the arms of your Beloved, you enter into the Essence of You.

There are thresholds that must be crossed if you wish to come home to you Divine Self. And what is meant by the ‘Divine Self?‘  

Have you experienced those moments of empty ~ bliss?  

Where you’re so lost in something you love doing, absorbed in the moment, losing track of all space & time, shedding for those moments, the attachment to who your personality is or isn’t? 

Or when you’ve felt in such a flow with creativity gushing forth, uninhibited, expressing spontaneously, that even you were amazed in the afterglow?

Or when someone or something, has unexpectedly opened your heart to allow an ecstatic LOVE pour through your being, unafraid, unfettered, and fully expanded, that there was nothing in your mind, but that state of being in your awareness? 

Our Divine Self, expresses through vibrations, frequency & states of being, rather than emotions or thought. Those states of being are always present, they don’t ebb & flow, with our whims, fears, judgments, or grief. They are ever-present, as those qualities are our sacred ground of being. They are who we are, beneath the personality of stories, beliefs, habits, & life’s experiences.

The Divine Self radiates through us in a growing force & presence, the more that we release, heal & unfurl the false sense of self.

But how do we find the thresholds, let alone access this living presence within each of us? 

How do we learn to maintain that connection once it’s made? 

How do we allow it to transform us, so that we are living more fully as our divine Self? 

This is what we explore in the Path of Embodiment, since we can’t access, awaken, maintain & transform into the remembering of our Divine Self without Embodiment.  This path is not of the intellect or mind, it must take place within our body, heart, & Soul.  It is experiential, utilizing only as needed, the informational.

You are invited to explore & expand, deepen & embody your Truest Self, Divine Self, when you step through the first threshold of inquiry & a consultation with me.

I’ll be hosting a deep dive into this conversation of initiation, for your Beloved’s Embrace:

Beloved’s Embrace: Embodying your Divine Self

Sunday, April 23

Los Feliz, CA

10 am – 4 pm

For inquiries, please contact me:

lotus@artofsacredembodiment

626-394-1565

Rising with Care, Ease & Grace Pt 2

The intention of this article, is as a Part 2, of Rising with Care, Ease & Grace, Part 1. In that writing I outlined just a handful of common experiences some of us may be working with as our entire body is shifting, uplifting, and upgrading. I also share some specific tools for support. In this second part, I want to share some very basic information on how the Nervous System and Endocrine System can be supported as the influx of energies move into our physical bodies and subtle anatomy systems. This will give a focal point for extra nourishment.

I’m always enthused to suggest a must have book, if one is interested in science, dietary support, necessary minerals, Ayurveda, and practices for health during this time of spiritual evolution. I mentioned it in Part 1, it is once again, ‘Spiritual Nutrition ~ Six Foundations for Spiritual Life and the Awakening of Kundalini,’ by one of my most powerful teachers, Dr. Gabriel Cousens. He and his work can be found at The Tree of Life Rejuvenation Center, in Arizona.

Some of this information is taken from Spiritual Nutrition. The process of Awakening is such a complex topic, which I won’t begin to go into . . . it’d be a book, which has already been written by a few others. So, I’m simply going to stay within this focused area of my experience that is pertinent to present time and points of reference from my own exploration.

To begin, we are all familiar with the subtle anatomy of the Chakra System. Just to recap: The chakras are subtle energy centers or vortexes, formed by the confluence of nadis. The nadis are 72,000 hollow channels, can be envisioned as similar to veins,  in the subtle body through which Kundalini energy flows. Gabriel Cousens has proposed that, there is the mundane Kundalini, which is innate within each of us, at the base of the spine, and the spiritual Kundalini which flows in through the crown chakra. It has also been mentioned that other entry points are at the Heart and Solar Plexus chakras

On the physical plane, the chakras are connected to the Nervous System and Endocrine System. Cosmic energy is drawn in through the subtle anatomy and energizes the Nervous System and Endocrine System. Within the Endocrine System we find glands that govern our health, via production and balance of hormones, regulate metabolism, growth and development, tissue function, sleep, mood, and sexual function. These are the primary ways we are served & vitalized with this system.

The Endocrine System is comprised of: Pituitary/Pineal Glands; Thyroid; Thymus; Adrenal/Pancreas; Ovaries; Testes. If we correlate these with the Chakra system, we see this alignment:

Third Eye & Crown: Master Glands or Pituitary/Pineal  Illu_endocrine_system_New

Throat: Thyroid 

Heart: Thymus

Solar Plexus: Adrenal/Pancreas

Sacral: Ovaries

Root: Testes

 

One of the significant aspects for our purposes here, in understanding this process, is that as the Kundalini (mundane & spiritual) begins her movement, the ‘voltage’, the electric force within our body increases. I’d just like to note that many speak of the ascending of this divine energy as a systematic and orderly rising through each chakra, base to crown. My experience on this and many others who experience the visceral, intelligent free flow of active Kundalini, is that it is not a linear movement. It spirals, ebbs & flows, ( just as the feminine force that Kundalini is, would move in) through out the body, clearing and purifying, revisiting areas of the body and consciousness, in the perfect order for each individual. Yes, it’s always upwardly intentioned, but not necessarily orderly.

The example has been given many times that the awakening of Kundalini and her increased energy would be like putting a light bulb that holds 100 volts into a socket which 1000 volts will be pouring through. The light bulb would shatter. With this example in mind, we can see that as energy rises and enters into the body, our Nervous System and other systems of the body must be strong enough to hold the current.

I invite you to check in with your own body. Are you anxious? Do you have trouble sleeping? Have you found you have headaches, which was a rare event in the past? Do you have excess or too little Cortisol in your system? Do you have Adrenal fatigue? Do you feel like you feel like you want to sleep all the time? Do you feel ‘something’ pulling at you to ‘go within’?  Are your hormones becoming more erratic? Do you feel depressed unexpectedly? Do you become filled with new energy and insights in spurts? Has your body led you to make significant changes in your diet?  Have you been experiencing heart palpitations? Do you have shortness of breath? 

The many paths of yogic teachings, which include the 8 limbs of Patanjali are the science of Kundalini Awakening AND that of holding the divine force within the body, safely. In brief, the 8 limbs cover the ‘do’s & do not’s’ of ethical observances; physical yoga postures; breathing & control of prana; control of the senses; concentration & inner awareness; devotion & meditation on the Divine; Divine Union. The science of yoga is to prepare us, in body, mind, & heart for the awakening of the Divine within us. To ensure that our bodies and minds could handle the massive transformation which takes place during the process of awakening.

While it’s true our whole being is profoundly impacted, the Endocrine System & Nervous System are greatly affected with the increase of energy into our being.

At this point I’m going to shift gears. As I’ve shared previously, we have moved beyond the time of the isolated individual Kundalini awakenings. We could say now that the Earth’s Kundalini is now rising, which effects us all, collectively. In my thought process, this has transitioned into merging with the Ascension camp. Ascension is the big jump in our spiritual evolution, that is the mass Awakening. Same process as Kundalini but it’s sped up!

Humanity isn’t ascending in order to leave this planet. We are drawing down divine energies from the cosmos (spiritual Kundalini)  to become divine beings, here on Earth. As many of us have been experiencing, our bodies are feeling the surges. This is a process of Embodiment.

The many Ascension symptoms are condensed experiences of  the former, (before 2012/2014) gradual Kundalini purification processes. Taking care of our bodies is paramount for a rising into the new higher frequencies, energies, with ease and grace.( See Part 1.)  As vibrations, frequencies increase and heighten, this also happens in our body.

With this awareness, we can make sure that we are supporting the Endocrine System with whole organic, foods, minerals, hydration, time in Mother Nature, and exercise, to keep our body strong. Sleep is of the utmost importance, and our Nervous System will directly affect this. More sleep is needed nowadays, less stimulation, especially when there are strong cosmic energies flooding our planet and body. The sleep allows the body to receive the energies in a restful state so they can be more easily integrated. When we resist the naps, the sleeping in, the days when we just can’t seem to wake up, the process is more challenging.

Energy work is another powerful way to keep our body, mind, and heart feeling balanced, cleared and harmonized. Now more than ever, our alternative, natural, and energetic modalities of care are becoming more effective. As our being reduces density, and increases in higher frequencies, the old paradigm of health care & healing will be outdated.

I understand that we have lives to maintain. We feel we need to function in the world to keep up with our responsibilities. If this path is new to you, if this information is new to you, just allow yourself to imagine that, maybe what has been known isn’t supposed to be maintained, in the way your mind believes. Allow yourself to imagine that the world is not supposed to continue to function in the way it’s been functioning are. And lastly, imagine that you are being called to become transformed into the highest, most beautiful aspects of your Soul. This is a whole other topic! So I’ll stop with these seeds planted.

If any of this intrigues you, then I invite you to begin to explore how you can best support the Endocrine System and Nervous System. I invite you to begin to really listen to your body when it communicates its most nourishing needs to you. And, if you feel so called, I highly recommend Gabriel’s book, listed above. It’s a whopper of amazing insight and experiential knowledge.

These are truly epic times we’re in. If you feel called to learn more regarding your individual needs, to learn how to more effectively navigate your own transformation of awakening. you can contact me here.

I’ll be sharing next on the high frequencies of Essential Oils to assist in the raising of our frequencies at this time in Part 3. Until then, take care of your whole self, so that you may journey with Ease & Grace!

In Light & Love ~

Lotus

 

 

Shakti Kundalini ~ a Pathway to Sacred Embodiment

Recently I’ve embarked on the presently very popular 30 Day Video Challenge. I’m currently on day 16. Some days I feel challenged. Challenged to ‘be in the mood’, challenged by the on-going nemesis relationship I have with technology, challenged by revealing myself. The up-side of this challenge isn’t exactly what I’d anticipated though. While I love writing, I’m finding there is a whole level of ease and communication I’m finding through video. The surprise is that I’m actually opening up in ways I hadn’t expected . . . and finding a new aspect of myself.

As I’ve mentioned previously, for over the last decade I’ve practiced and guided many individuals through their Kundalini awakening process, via the path of my teacher, Yogi Desai. Trying to explain this path to those who haven’t traveled it, is extremely difficult. Even after one steps into this inner journey, it remains full of surprises with few words to describe it, as it’s totally unique to each traveler. One simply (or sometimes not so simply) embodies the awareness and wisdom received.

I’ve had the gift, the go-ahead, the courage to finally share this most intimate (to me) and sacred expression of yoga because of the 30 day challenge. If you feel so called, you can view it here.

For me, as I mention in the video, this practice is the foundation of all I teach and live. The divine energy which is innate within each of us, is the key to our spiritual unfolding and expansion of consciousness. Ma Shakti Kundalini, Divine Mother, the Holy Spirit, the Shekinah, whatever name we choose to call Her, is our ultimate inner wisdom and teacher. She is the Sacred Fire of Baptism, the access of Speaking in Tongues/Languages of Light, the Creatrix of all that lives, breathes, grows.

On the one hand, it has often saddened me that more don’t know of this path or choose it, as it brings us up close and deeply connected to the essence of who we are.  On the other hand, I completely understand that we each are compelled, propelled by Soul’s deep yearning to return home when the timing is right, and along the path that is true for each individual.

This path has been largely kept under wraps as it’s not always the easiest, nor has the timeline been appropriate for all that is revealed when we are guided into our depths of being. However, just as everything is evolving rapidly and making a giant leap of faith, we are also witnessing the collective presence of Ma Kundalini within the Ascension process. At least this is my perspective. And the time is now ripe and rich for Her presence to be more fully embraced.

For those of us who have created a deep relationship with Her ways,

have followed Her teachings as they weave, spiral, and redesign our beings, from the inside-out,

it’s clear that just as She has cleared us from our depths of darkness,

She is now delivering us into higher dimensions of Love & Light.

Many of us have danced with Her aspects of the Goddess. My beloved primary energies have been the transformational fires of Kali Ma and Chhinnamasta, as well as the expanding Love and Spaciousness of Bhuvaniswari. Yes, they are archetypes, thought to be a part of our imagination or a way to describe energetic actions/shifts in consciousness. They are also very real forces of the Divine, which help to illuminate us. And they are accessed through Her awakening of Love, spilling over into our hearts.

When we are learning directly from Ma, we no longer need to be shown from an external source, such as a book, the correct Mudra our hands should posture . . .

She guides our hands into the right and true medicine needed for us, guided by Her divine wisdom, Her true essence which is our Deepest Self.

Mantra will sing forth with Her voice, once again, as the needed sacred tone, resonance, sounding, just for us.

Yantra will appear in the minds-eye, to imbue us with divine light and higher frequency.

Devotional Service acts through us selflessly.

These are Her blessings through our body, as it is guided effortlessly, spontaneously, through Her Embodied Presence: to heal, align, restore, balance, clear & cleanse, in order for us to evolve into our Highest Self of Love and Light. 

She is now assisting this planet. She is directly related to all the forces of Love and Light, here on Gaia and in the Cosmos. She has been my greatest gift and blessing, and She is who works through me to bring healing, Light and Love to others.

Kundalini Ma, the Divine Mother, will always remain the Mystery of Mysteries, and yet we each can know Her and be guided by Her if we are called to live in Love. Our intellect will never ‘hold’ Her, but our Heart and Soul will live Her wisdom.

She is your still small voice and your protective roar.

She is the visions that awaken you and the epiphanies of divine insight.

She is your creative inspiration and that which calls you into deep contemplation.

She is the Life Force that formed you and will heal you.

She is always within, awaiting your hand to take hers.

I could wax poetic endlessly, yet the true invitation is for each person, is to touch the Space of Grace within themselves, singing your own songs, so She may rise through you, lifting your heart into the heavens.

The Art of Sacred Embodiment Program is for those dedicated to connecting to their Highest-Divine-Self through the path of the Divine Mother, Kundalini Shakti. My heart invitation extends to those who feel called, to contact me and we’ll explore if this is the right fit for you.

For all of us, I’m happy to be walking with you, in these times of heightening Love.

Keep following your heart, your joy, your passion, your purpose, your Highest Self!

Blessings ~

Lotus

art: Autum Skye Art

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Spiraling & Embodiment

art: Mara Freidman

 

“Why enter into these depths?” she asked.

She replied, “To remember your Radiant Light.”

The Sacred Feminine is enlivened within our heart and womb. She is the quiet, still voice that calls us inward, to travel Her spiral, to embrace Her depths, to fall in Love with ourselves.

She holds our deepest dreams, desires, longings, truths, and fuels our passions and purpose. She is our fullest bloom of Beauty, unfolding always, in all ways. She is our most brilliant Radiance. Our most precious calling.

I speak to you in rhyme, rhythm and flow, for this is how She speaks to our Soul.

And yet, we question. “Why?”  We avoid Her knocking, that subtle ache in our heart,  with quick fixes and superficial distractions . . . Nevertheless, as  we minimize the need for Her, down in our gut, we have an inkling… we have a suspicion, we are hiding from that which is truly, our own Divine Self.

And yet,  She continues to knock, to call, to weep, and sometimes to scream for our Return to our Sacred Center. She will not let us go, for She is us.

The Art of Sacred Embodiment requires commitment, that is empowering, heart-burst-flowering, while sometimes, simultaneously unnerving, as we learn to embody your Sacred Self.

Traveling the Spirals of Initiation, is a sacred journey cultivating self-acceptance, self-love, self-honor, self-nourishment  You are escorted lovingly, into inner portals of emotion, revelations, colors, and textures, of meaning and truth, which will not be known if you only live as a woman on the TopSide of your world.

Entering the Spiral and Deepening the Spiral enable you to commit to your Wholeness and deepen in rhythm, through your natural cycles, of unfolding and integration.

When the old ways of years past, fail to serve you, you will then know why you must enter the depths. It is then that the longing of your heart and soul are ready to release the known and dive into the Sacred Mysteries of the Unknown! It is there we birth our Light from our own Self-Love.

Through the commitment to your Self, you are supported in circling as only the Sacred Feminine can, into your depths, shedding layers of untruth, stories, false beliefs, and destructive attachments that you have absorbed, carried, consciously or unconsciously, so that your Love and Presence is revealed.

The Path of the Sacred Feminine is the journey back Home to your Sacred Center. She asks us all to embody our Wholiness & Light & Beauty, high and strong…

Close your eyes, take a breath … Do you feel Her call?

For You are She and She is You.

She is the ancient past, threading Her presence and power into the now. Restoring the fractures, balming the wounds of men, women, our Mother Earth, and all her beings. 

She is the future Divinity, threading into the now, with Her languages of Light, amplifying Harmony, Unity &  Love.

It is through our Divine Feminine receptive vessels, of songs sung spontaneously through lips, magical transformation, expands Divine blessings from the heights.

Showering blessings along grids of Light, opening hearts known and unknown, touching Souls with feathered Presence of gold.

Learn more about the Art of Sacred Embodiment.

Love & Blessings ~

Lotus

Ma Shakti Kundalini ~ Yoga of the Divine Feminine

 

The ancient ways are being birthed in abundance once again as our divine awakening quickens.  The voice of the Divine Feminine, expressed most often through the Goddess presence and archetypes have been touching a growing number of hearts and souls. We are remembering our very own depth and girth through this inkling of soul-spirit, heart opening around the world.

There are many ways through which the Divine Feminine is introduced to us. But there is one Way in which we intimately cultivate a very real, tangible, mystical relationship with Her.  It is through the Yoga of the Divine Feminine, which has many labels, but in essence it takes place through direct, personal communion with Her energy and Divine Presence.

Through this path, we learn experientially who She is, and who we truly are. When we step into this sacred relationship, the myriad of descriptions, from various religious traditions which speak of Her, fall away. The intellect cannot lead or guide us on this journey of divine Soul-Heart knowing. The Mystery teachings defy explanation, only direct Knowing.

When we fully awaken the Divine Spark within us, we embrace the Presence of God. The manual practices which were once necessary for our growth, become secondary. We meet first hand the origin of all these sacred arts and practices, Shakti Kundalini Ma.  Her teachings bubble up and through us spontaneously and organically, just as is needed by our precious being. She becomes our inner guide, calling us to surrender to Her divine care, Her sacred Love, to Her multidimensional Wisdom and our True Self.

She is the Holy Spirit, the Shekinah, all aspects of the Goddess, of all traditions. Through many languages, art, poetry, and esoteric science, attempts have been made to put Her presence into understanding, but are always incomplete. She has been revered, enlivened, and embodied by all mystics and saints of all traditions.

The Divine Feminine force is the creative energy of the Universe and our very being. She is no way foreign to us, in fact She is our truest essence, made conscious. She is the force that raises our consciousness, strengthens our intuitive knowing, that flowers forth the highest qualities of Love & Compassion in our heart, and that which connects us to God.

To travel the mystery of the Great Mother, you must step through the portal, the opening, which is within yourself, to access Her Presence.

My sacred purpose in this world is to initiate, support and guide those who are ready to step into the next level of their Divine Awakening.

If your Soul-Heart feels the call to dive deeper, expand spaciously, and ascend into the highest frequencies of Love within YOU, this is my offering to you.

These sessions are offered in person only. This is a committed path of connection and practice. This is the Way of Embodiment.

It is an honor to escort you on this sacred journey to Your Divine Self.

To learn more, please contact me personally to schedule a consultation.

See Offerings   under the Art of Sacred Embodiment Initiation Programs.

 

 

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