When the Bliss of Waking Turns South

Over the many years of working with clients as they travel on their healing path, there is a common pattern. Expanded awareness, many AhHa moments, new freedom & bliss . . . and then things ‘turn south,’ or so it feels.

I’d been working with a lovely woman who was coming for sessions every 2 weeks. Her clarity was growing, old outworn patterns were releasing. Her connection to God and her guides was deepening. She was stepping into her true expression with greater confidence. She was feeling more self-love, more love and generosity for others, and rooting deeper into her sense of self-worth.  After a few months of working together she wanted to dive deeper, so we embarked on a 3 day intensive retreat.

She was a deep-diver over that weekend! She received greater clarity and released deep grief. Though she felt much lighter, with a joyful spaciousness, she also got ‘sick’ at the very end. By sick, as I’ve stated before, that word is a more familiar label for cleansing the emotional on the physical level. With bronchitis, inconvenienced, by what was happening, and a little deflated.  It wasn’t the ending she’d hoped for.

When we really commit to our spiritual unfolding, it’s important to realize there will be peaks and valleys, highs and lows, summer and winter. These will show up in our emotional landscape. We may feel a little crazy and confused, as our mind integrates new perceptions, and the body will go through many changes. Many times, as our patterns are transformed, as our vibrations rise, we may need to boldly step into a fire, which may be painful, and walk through it to gain a new perception, a higher level of wakefulness.  The work is to show up where the rubber meets the road, so to speak, remaining vigilant and awake to practice a new way of being.

The process of awakening is amazing and filled with much wonder, as we learn to see/perceive/live, like we’ve never seen/perceived/lived before. We remember what we’ve long forgotten ~

 that we are each sparks of the Divine Love, waiting to be fully embodied. The connection with all of Life, the expansion of Love, and the deep well of Compassion we access, is without words to describe.  This is Our Truth.

And, the other side of the coin, is that we must also face the abyss of the Unknown, disconnection from identifications that previously allowed life and ourselves to make sense to our human-ness. There is an unearthing of pain, sadness, and fear, which must be released and transformed with the consciousness of waking.

When this stage of our spiritual journey is experienced for the first time it can certainly feel as if we’ve taken a wrong turn somewhere along the line! I remember after the bliss of the first 4 months of my Kundalini awakening, I became very unsettled ~ at least in the mind.

For months I’d been in a state of disintegration of the self, as I’d known myself to be. Literally, I felt empty, like a void inside, yet so clear and full at the same time. The previous ways in which my personality functioned felt washed away. I wasn’t experiencing any ‘buttons’ being pushed, even though there was plenty of button pushing happening. I didn’t need to process, discuss, or solve any issues. Silence, being present and acting from a place of being in the moment, allowed life to unfold perfectly. Judgments had escaped me and I felt deeply connected with Source. I thought I was free!

And then, it turned south, or so I thought. Around that 4 month time, the body felt at peace, empty, calm, and grounded. But my mind from nowhere, began thinking again. It was as if a switch was flipped off from being the witness/observer state of consciousness, of simply being present.  Instead, the mind’s thought was perceiving the state of intense detachment, and there was reaction. And that reaction was disturbed. I had been resting in the hightened state of witness consciousness, and next, I was entering back into the more person-hood, identified, ego consciousness.  Instead of experiencing the peace, calm, empty of the body, as I had prior, I felt greatly detached and numb to all emotion, within the mind.

This alarmed the mind, while the body remained silent and empty. Without the senses of emotion, I couldn’t access the feeling of love for my partner or family. I didn’t feel connected to myself. I felt void of personality. To top it off, the fact that I couldn’t even feel the sense of alarm in my body, that I felt in my mind, alarmed my mind even more!

This phase passed. As I traversed over the years, I recognized that at different phases of our awakening, there are a great many shifts that take place energetically, physically, and of course, this affects our consciousness.  Consciousness is the key. New states of consciousness will create a new experience in how we relate to everything. But I don’t want to digress into that long subject.

The point is, that we are growing, expanding, awakening, ascending. So many words to describe what has to be experiential, to truly understand. It’s important that we have these conversations, because this will ward off unneeded fear or disappointment. Everyone’s spiritual path is unique, and yet, there are similarities at different junctures along the way.

I didn’t take a wrong turn & head south. The client, I shared about above or the others, also didn’t take wrong turns. All of us traversing this path will realize this, if we just keep moving forward, opening our heart to love and the Divine, and keep the fire of courage burning that a spiritual warrior needs to continue their journey.

We are blessed to be living in this time of accelerated spiritual unfolding! It’s amazing. It’s daunting. It’s a path of embodiment, and this is what has been largely overlooked in spiritual teachings in the general public. So hang on, but not too tightly. The ride is filled with more ease & grace, the less we cling.  If you feel you’ve turned south, know you will soon turn north again.We’re all in this together, so you’re invited to keep rising, keep diving, keep shining.

 

Blessings on your ups & downs ~ Lotus

art: Mara Freidman
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Rising with Care, Ease & Grace Pt 2

The intention of this article, is as a Part 2, of Rising with Care, Ease & Grace, Part 1. In that writing I outlined just a handful of common experiences some of us may be working with as our entire body is shifting, uplifting, and upgrading. I also share some specific tools for support. In this second part, I want to share some very basic information on how the Nervous System and Endocrine System can be supported as the influx of energies move into our physical bodies and subtle anatomy systems. This will give a focal point for extra nourishment.

I’m always enthused to suggest a must have book, if one is interested in science, dietary support, necessary minerals, Ayurveda, and practices for health during this time of spiritual evolution. I mentioned it in Part 1, it is once again, ‘Spiritual Nutrition ~ Six Foundations for Spiritual Life and the Awakening of Kundalini,’ by one of my most powerful teachers, Dr. Gabriel Cousens. He and his work can be found at The Tree of Life Rejuvenation Center, in Arizona.

Some of this information is taken from Spiritual Nutrition. The process of Awakening is such a complex topic, which I won’t begin to go into . . . it’d be a book, which has already been written by a few others. So, I’m simply going to stay within this focused area of my experience that is pertinent to present time and points of reference from my own exploration.

To begin, we are all familiar with the subtle anatomy of the Chakra System. Just to recap: The chakras are subtle energy centers or vortexes, formed by the confluence of nadis. The nadis are 72,000 hollow channels, can be envisioned as similar to veins,  in the subtle body through which Kundalini energy flows. Gabriel Cousens has proposed that, there is the mundane Kundalini, which is innate within each of us, at the base of the spine, and the spiritual Kundalini which flows in through the crown chakra. It has also been mentioned that other entry points are at the Heart and Solar Plexus chakras

On the physical plane, the chakras are connected to the Nervous System and Endocrine System. Cosmic energy is drawn in through the subtle anatomy and energizes the Nervous System and Endocrine System. Within the Endocrine System we find glands that govern our health, via production and balance of hormones, regulate metabolism, growth and development, tissue function, sleep, mood, and sexual function. These are the primary ways we are served & vitalized with this system.

The Endocrine System is comprised of: Pituitary/Pineal Glands; Thyroid; Thymus; Adrenal/Pancreas; Ovaries; Testes. If we correlate these with the Chakra system, we see this alignment:

Third Eye & Crown: Master Glands or Pituitary/Pineal  Illu_endocrine_system_New

Throat: Thyroid 

Heart: Thymus

Solar Plexus: Adrenal/Pancreas

Sacral: Ovaries

Root: Testes

 

One of the significant aspects for our purposes here, in understanding this process, is that as the Kundalini (mundane & spiritual) begins her movement, the ‘voltage’, the electric force within our body increases. I’d just like to note that many speak of the ascending of this divine energy as a systematic and orderly rising through each chakra, base to crown. My experience on this and many others who experience the visceral, intelligent free flow of active Kundalini, is that it is not a linear movement. It spirals, ebbs & flows, ( just as the feminine force that Kundalini is, would move in) through out the body, clearing and purifying, revisiting areas of the body and consciousness, in the perfect order for each individual. Yes, it’s always upwardly intentioned, but not necessarily orderly.

The example has been given many times that the awakening of Kundalini and her increased energy would be like putting a light bulb that holds 100 volts into a socket which 1000 volts will be pouring through. The light bulb would shatter. With this example in mind, we can see that as energy rises and enters into the body, our Nervous System and other systems of the body must be strong enough to hold the current.

I invite you to check in with your own body. Are you anxious? Do you have trouble sleeping? Have you found you have headaches, which was a rare event in the past? Do you have excess or too little Cortisol in your system? Do you have Adrenal fatigue? Do you feel like you feel like you want to sleep all the time? Do you feel ‘something’ pulling at you to ‘go within’?  Are your hormones becoming more erratic? Do you feel depressed unexpectedly? Do you become filled with new energy and insights in spurts? Has your body led you to make significant changes in your diet?  Have you been experiencing heart palpitations? Do you have shortness of breath? 

The many paths of yogic teachings, which include the 8 limbs of Patanjali are the science of Kundalini Awakening AND that of holding the divine force within the body, safely. In brief, the 8 limbs cover the ‘do’s & do not’s’ of ethical observances; physical yoga postures; breathing & control of prana; control of the senses; concentration & inner awareness; devotion & meditation on the Divine; Divine Union. The science of yoga is to prepare us, in body, mind, & heart for the awakening of the Divine within us. To ensure that our bodies and minds could handle the massive transformation which takes place during the process of awakening.

While it’s true our whole being is profoundly impacted, the Endocrine System & Nervous System are greatly affected with the increase of energy into our being.

At this point I’m going to shift gears. As I’ve shared previously, we have moved beyond the time of the isolated individual Kundalini awakenings. We could say now that the Earth’s Kundalini is now rising, which effects us all, collectively. In my thought process, this has transitioned into merging with the Ascension camp. Ascension is the big jump in our spiritual evolution, that is the mass Awakening. Same process as Kundalini but it’s sped up!

Humanity isn’t ascending in order to leave this planet. We are drawing down divine energies from the cosmos (spiritual Kundalini)  to become divine beings, here on Earth. As many of us have been experiencing, our bodies are feeling the surges. This is a process of Embodiment.

The many Ascension symptoms are condensed experiences of  the former, (before 2012/2014) gradual Kundalini purification processes. Taking care of our bodies is paramount for a rising into the new higher frequencies, energies, with ease and grace.( See Part 1.)  As vibrations, frequencies increase and heighten, this also happens in our body.

With this awareness, we can make sure that we are supporting the Endocrine System with whole organic, foods, minerals, hydration, time in Mother Nature, and exercise, to keep our body strong. Sleep is of the utmost importance, and our Nervous System will directly affect this. More sleep is needed nowadays, less stimulation, especially when there are strong cosmic energies flooding our planet and body. The sleep allows the body to receive the energies in a restful state so they can be more easily integrated. When we resist the naps, the sleeping in, the days when we just can’t seem to wake up, the process is more challenging.

Energy work is another powerful way to keep our body, mind, and heart feeling balanced, cleared and harmonized. Now more than ever, our alternative, natural, and energetic modalities of care are becoming more effective. As our being reduces density, and increases in higher frequencies, the old paradigm of health care & healing will be outdated.

I understand that we have lives to maintain. We feel we need to function in the world to keep up with our responsibilities. If this path is new to you, if this information is new to you, just allow yourself to imagine that, maybe what has been known isn’t supposed to be maintained, in the way your mind believes. Allow yourself to imagine that the world is not supposed to continue to function in the way it’s been functioning are. And lastly, imagine that you are being called to become transformed into the highest, most beautiful aspects of your Soul. This is a whole other topic! So I’ll stop with these seeds planted.

If any of this intrigues you, then I invite you to begin to explore how you can best support the Endocrine System and Nervous System. I invite you to begin to really listen to your body when it communicates its most nourishing needs to you. And, if you feel so called, I highly recommend Gabriel’s book, listed above. It’s a whopper of amazing insight and experiential knowledge.

These are truly epic times we’re in. If you feel called to learn more regarding your individual needs, to learn how to more effectively navigate your own transformation of awakening. you can contact me here.

I’ll be sharing next on the high frequencies of Essential Oils to assist in the raising of our frequencies at this time in Part 3. Until then, take care of your whole self, so that you may journey with Ease & Grace!

In Light & Love ~

Lotus