Are You Ready to Choose Flight?

I’ve been singing some Carol King lately, with the slight change of the lyrics . . . I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel continuous walls of attachments & resistance crumbling down. I feel the sky tumbling down . . . With every release of old beliefs, stories, personality traits, whenever Spirit’s around . . .

Little did I know I had the expectation to return to a caterpillar stage & create a new groove at the start of the year. Instead the butterfly keeps emerging rapidly.

I’ve given up on finding a new routine, which I’d hoped I’d be able to ground in once I rounded this monumental corner of transformation, which I’ve been longing for, for eons it seems. Especially at this time of quickening evolution on the planet & mind blowing revelations when witnessing our human experiences . . . New, new, new. It’s sort of like being in a carnival fun house trying to find sure footing on the ever shifting floor beneath your feet. Some moments it’s amusing, others it’s anxiety producing, and many other moments you just want the ride to stop.

Instead it’s an on-going dance of new phases & stages of becoming nothing of who I used to be. I know that many of you know this feeling right now. Awakening & awakening & awakening to ever new levels of Self, Love, dimensions, divinity & assistance from beyond the veil.

The new stability is found in the heart & in the growing direct experience, rather than that which we can touch & see. It’s a constant re-aligning of action & surrender, intent & consent to the Divine flow. This is what we signed up for. We consented to go on this earthly ride at this time, to bring in & anchor greater Light.

The more resistance to change at this time, the more challenges I find. And so, I continue to Let Go & fly!

Even as there are many of us who have been experiencing the process of awakening, as it is just that an on-going process, there are many of our brothers & sisters who this may be their maiden voyage, and what a time to begin . . . Although, awakening is the purpose of this time on this planet. This time may be wrought with much unexpected, therefore I feel it’s up to all of us to come together & share our experience, strength & hope.

Change is knocking on many hearts. If there is only an understanding of a world that is linear, rational, goal oriented, work, entertainment, & processing the duality of our present political climate, when change begins to tug at you, it may not make sense.

Many people know that their old ways aren’t working any more. They feel the stress, the exhaustion, the phantom illnesses, the rising anxiety & the debilitating depression, the yearning for something new. Some realize that they are being programmed to be distracted, and follow the distractions the next moment. Others are gaining the recognition that they are comfortably numb.

There is a growing awareness & desire for something more. Something deeper. Something more sacred. Something more fulfilling & enlivening. But there is the catch. To give life to the new will require change. Change will be uncomfortable. Period.

As soon as the heart & soul reach out to inquire for the new, the life of the creative feminine force within them, the knee-jerk reactions say:
“Oh No! I just don’t have the time.”
“Oh No! My spouse would never go for that.”
“Oh No! I couldn’t take that kind of time, that would be so selfish.”
“Oh No! I can’t afford that.”
“Oh No! But what if I fail?”

All of these rebuttals, make perfect sense. They are rational, and any logical person would say, of course, ‘Stay where & how you are, there’s too much to lose. It’s better to be safe than sorry.’
This is the paradigm we are leaving behind, whether we are ready for it or not! The growing discomfort of this time is to push us out of our comfort zones, our programmed thinking. It’s asking us to question our beliefs.
Why do you believe what you believe?
Are those beliefs yours or passed on through society?
And finally, are those beliefs serving your personal highest good, bringing you joy at the end of the day & the highest good of our world at large?

This is the time to release our stuckness in the root chakras of scarcity, survival, fear, & cultural thought forms, in order to evolve & expand into who we truly are. It is the time where we are being asked to be accountable for who we choose to be, what we choose to contribute to the world, and do we choose to be a Light in the world or a shadow.

What needs to be brought into awareness is that when we choose not to inquire into ourselves as those questions invite, that IS our programming at work. This is the part of us that chooses the status quo of what is known, what is ‘comfortably numb’ verses joyful, celebrating wholeness, stepping into our purpose. This is the part of us that clings to the belief of limitation, rather than expand into abundance, desires to remain asleep, rather than awaken, that chooses to remain trapped in the servitude of programming, rather than experience a greater freedom. This is the part of us that chooses to hand over our personal power to authorities outside of our highest conscience and forfeit our sovereignty..

Change is indeed difficult. It can be confusing. It requires us to release the stability of outworn ways and grow in a faith & trust of the greatness within our soul. Change sets the stage for our transformation, and it doesn’t play by the rational rules. It plays by the rules of faith, creativity, inspiration & intuition. It introduces us to the direct experience of higher awareness, soul connection, & being true to one’s Self. It leads us to divine connection & divine knowing, which increases our Faith & Trust that we are not alone. Choosing change gives us the strength to resist falling prey to all the lies & programming of the world.

We can choose to stay in the stuckness today, a year, or 5 years from now. We’ll most likely continue seeing through the same eyes & often times carrying a heavier load. I’ve heard people say, ‘if only I’d taken that other path when I had the chance, my life could have been so much different.’ Well, this is true, and it’s also true that the path of choosing self-empowerment, self-love will always be there. Sometimes it just gets harder to see as time goes on.

We are given choices over & over again, moments when we are on that threshold again, to honor our Self fully and say
“Yes!” It’s time for something different.
“Yes! I choose to step out of my sleep walking & awaken to the truth that is calling from inside my heart.”
“Yes! I choose to face my fears, insecurities, in order to give life to my purpose & sacred calling.”
“Yes! I choose to go through the discomfort in order to access greater happiness, joy, trust, and faith.”

We all have these choices, on-going, and that is the joy and wonder of being a spiritual-human being evolving. My inner world & outer reality will continue to morph and transform, as I choose consistent awakening. This is such a powerful time to shine & radiate the Light within you. The path before you is open and calling. I hope, if you haven’t yet found you’re path, you join the growing numbers of change makers! Come fly with us!
The choice is yours! What will you choose?

Blessings ~ Lotus

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Love+Purpose = Power

This is a call to your Soul, if you have not yet, please begin to birth and give Life to You!

“Who are you?”

The time is over of playing it safe, staying small. Tune in. Somewhere down deep, your truest Desires call. If you can’t hear them, then step back from distractions and chaos of the swirling world, designed to keep you confused, so you can’t be infused, with your Divine Truth!

In clarification, I’m not referring to desires of safety, pleasure, and needs of validation. I’m speaking of the Big Desires ~ those that the heart and soul are within you to birth, to be of service, to uplift, and transform yourself & inspire that in others. You see one is of the ordinary, it only knows how to take. The other is of the ExtraOrdinary! It is Life giving thus, we receive more Light.

“Why are you here?”

You are here for more than to work, be entertained, and die. Listen within to the Soul’s compelling call or cry, which is most likely irrational, but highly transformational. It expands your longing to express and create, to courageously step outside your norm and deviate. In other words, to change your ordinary experience of life, into a Sacred Life.

For me as a Lightworker & Wayshower, my deepest desires have been known since I was very young. The call to be of service to bring healing and love, where there was pain; to help others re-awaken to their own purity & divinity, which had been forgotten; to create the safety to dive deep into their own darkness, finding the revelation of their Light; to celebrate every level of expansion into the Wholeness/Wholyness, which they already are. To embody love and compassion, reflecting that reality where the trapping of judgment and shame reside.

Ah! But alas, I had to gift to myself these healing’s of remembering, awakening, and embodying, before the first of continuous birthing began, shedding the old and revealing the new ‘me,’ again and again.

We are not here to be sleep walking in forgetfulness of the radiance that WE ARE. That time is over. We aren’t here to feel powerless, when in fact we are POWERFUL beyond measure. This time is NOW. We are not here to be comfortably numb to our Soul passion and purpose. That is the past. Do Not be fooled or be satisfied with any less than this ~

“What enlivens your Spirit?”

This is the realization that more of us are waking up to. We’re joining together to create a new future, which requires we heal the abrasions within ourselves. It’s taken the chaos of our world turned up-side-down, to  shake and quake us awake. This intense shake-up has not been an accident and it hasn’t come about to simply restore the mundane to what was, so that we can go back to the comfort of sleep. It’s time to claim our power, but Not the power of muscle, might, control, and fear.

“What is your Sacred Purpose?”

This a call to Sacred Activism. A call to your Divine Right to a Sacred Life. Step into the radicalism and power of personal transformation, imbuing your core with Self-Love and Self-Honor. Step into the call of your heart, engage the fire of courage, to align with your deepest truth.

You see, when we give life to our Highest Purpose, that deep call that wishes to express through you, which is fueled by love, inspiration, and passion, regardless of how big or small, we become Empowered. We begin to gain the clarity that we each have Innate Power, which will only grows, as more of us step up and into this truth. When we learn how potent we truly are, we will no longer be dictated to by outside forces. We will no longer treat ourselves with neglect or rejection, which means we will not treat others as such either. When we embody the power of our own individual Love & Purpose, collectively we are serving the world for the Highest Good of All.

“What is your Divine Service?”

Play your unique role! Use your voice! Do what you love! Let your beautiful freak flag fly! Use the passion of Desire to align with your Sacred Purpose. This brings Joy into your life and that of others. The more empowered, fulfilled, joyful, happy, in our truth we are, the more we Desire this reality for others.

Practice the alchemy of emotion. Convert the dense into the Light. The tunnel vision blindness into expanded sight. Go forward in social and political activism, but fuel your Inner Power by actions infused with the passion and love of what you want to see created. Rather than the the exhausting, disappointing, and disempowering diluted fuel of anger, division and rage of what you hate.

“Are you ready to Empower yourself & Enliven your Life?”

Is there hesitancy? Resistance? Fear? It’s ok to be lost, confused, uncertain how to ignite this sacred transformation, if it’s new to your awareness. Ask questions. Seek those who inspire you to begin. Let what you Love inform you. Trust that the right assistance will be given when you reach out. We are all here to help one another.

 

The biggest challenge we all face is NOT what is outside of us. The biggest challenge is to become willing to reclaim and awaken to the wonderment and power that resides in each in us.

Blessings for this powerful time to be alive!

 

Body Wise

In the past I’ve spoken often about our bodies as powerful teachers. They are our guides, our informants. This last week or so, my teacher is my stomach. The informant is sharing with me information, of that which is transforming in regards to my relationship with my sense of self, with the Third Chakra. The center of personal power.

Flash Back Decades:  In my early 30’s, at the end of a 5 year relationship with a fellow alcoholic, I was just beginning to figure out this internal system of communication. He wasn’t working at that time, desperately focusing on his art, which meant he was home all day, sipping his beer. He had relapsed in the last months and was thus far controlling his intake. With one addiction enlivened, many other co-addictions arose as well, which were much harder to tame. Me? Well, I was around 5 years sober, my co-dependency now triggered immensely by the entire life I was living, yet not quite ready to admit this to myself.

I loved my job working at an outdoor flower stand in downtown Portland. Loved the people I connected with all day. And yet, every day when I got on the bus to go home, my stomach began to feel sick, as if I needed to throw up. Of course now, it’s completely obvious what was eating away at me. But back then I’d begin to wonder, as the city-scape passed by the window, “I wonder if I’m eating something for lunch that isn’t agreeing with me?”  “Maybe I drank too much coffee again.”  And as I got off the bus, walking toward our building, the feeling of a need to vomit, both strengthened, while simultaneously became numb. My whole being would go numb.

There came the moments when I began to connect the dots. This was prompted by the mysterious disappearance of my engagement ring from my finger. I searched high and low, with no recollection of removing it. Then one day while cleaning, I stood on the toilet seat to reach up and clean a high shelf, and there it sat! The lost ring. My mind spun for a moment. Did it some how fall off my hand, and he found it and hid it from me? That didn’t fit any dynamic of our relationship. Could I have put it up there? As much as I imagined all sorts of far out things, I had an inkling that some hidden part of me was attempting to send me a message.  

Not long after, as I was taking off my jeans one evening, I found a crumpled piece of paper. It was a slip torn off from a poster advertising an apartment for rent. Whoa! How did this get in my pants?! I was honestly quite shaken from the find, but what was really shaking me up was consciousness was shifting within me, soul was sending messages which were now breaking through my denial system, that the life I was living would continue. I was shaking because these mysterious instances broke through and I received the message. It was time to leave. It was time to transform myself and my life.

My life choices were making me sick, literally. My body was communicating messages from down deep within my being, asking that I acknowledge the truth, “The jig’s up.” With this acknowledgment, also came the responsibility of decision making. I was guided to choose to love myself, to choose me. Once I saw the light, I couldn’t put the blinders back on. Goodness knows a part of me wanted to, but Soul had other plans. Thankfully.

Everything in your life shifts when you come into harmony with yourself.  

Panache Desai

Back to the Future~Present: Decades have passed and this body of mine is the first place I ‘listen into’ when change is amiss. It has never led me astray. And here I am again, guts churning. Feelings like I’m going to burst at the seams. Anxiousness free-floating. Weepy. And the guts still churn. This time not from a disconnect from personal power, nor because the life I’m living isn’t wonderful. Instead, it’s from a new level of empowerment taking place within.

I’m grateful for all the life experiences that have taught me previously how to ride these very uncomfortable waves of an inner dying process. It’s taken a couple of days of surrendering into all of the feelings, which can be labeled as depression, I suppose. However, I’m aware it’s in fact energies and consciousness being transformed.

So I rest. I allow all the feelings to rise from within, to bring forth new light.

There are traits of personality that I have worn most of my life. Some have served me in the past and have been burnt in the fire. Some are still serving me. Others are ready to be to be transformed. As some are now dying they are simultaneously  birthing a new me. Rebirth can often be as challenging as the death. Because it calls for embodiment of the new. This time it is felt in my gut.

At this juncture there is a brighter, stronger, more powerful self forming. She feels fierce and protective, like a Mama Bear watching out for her baby. Except, I am both. She is determined to play by new rules. Old rules will no longer serve the me who is becoming. And now aspects which have not been ready to be shown, or I have not been ready to don them, are now readying to burst forth.  A new sense of personal power, a deeper truth, is no longer afraid to rock the boat.

Can you ‘hear’ when your body is stepping-up in the role of Teacher?

Can you feel the messages it speaks?

Do you believe in the ‘symptoms’ you experience in the body, as purely physical?

Are you ready to see the ‘symptoms’ as a call to heal and transform your life?  

My experience has been that soul speaks through our physical being. Our physiology . . . biology . . . emotions . . . subconscious. Our being is interconnected on gross and subtle levels; along a thread of past, present, and future; from our conscious self to our Highest, Divine Self. We live in a body-vehicle.  We are embodied, and the messages come through this vehicle to guide us.

Like many things in life, we cruise along until we hit a snag of discomfort. This gets our attention and we can then inquire and make the changes necessary.  Well, when it’s time to move through a death and re-birthing process, this happens inside of us. We are guided to the inner messages being delivered.

If you don’t connect to this inner knowing already, your soulsong guidance, here are a few steps which you’re invited to practice, if you feel so called:

Stop & Listen.

Enter into Stillness & Silence & Allow space for whatever rises.  

Do not judge & Inquire within.

Get Radically Honest & Let go of what no longer serves you.

Love yourself through the growing pains of Rebirth & Take the next step into your Light.

For assistance & support along your awakening journey, click here.

Blessings & Love ~

Lotus