When the Bliss of Waking Turns South

Over the many years of working with clients as they travel on their healing path, there is a common pattern. Expanded awareness, many AhHa moments, new freedom & bliss . . . and then things ‘turn south,’ or so it feels.

I’d been working with a lovely woman who was coming for sessions every 2 weeks. Her clarity was growing, old outworn patterns were releasing. Her connection to God and her guides was deepening. She was stepping into her true expression with greater confidence. She was feeling more self-love, more love and generosity for others, and rooting deeper into her sense of self-worth.  After a few months of working together she wanted to dive deeper, so we embarked on a 3 day intensive retreat.

She was a deep-diver over that weekend! She received greater clarity and released deep grief. Though she felt much lighter, with a joyful spaciousness, she also got ‘sick’ at the very end. By sick, as I’ve stated before, that word is a more familiar label for cleansing the emotional on the physical level. With bronchitis, inconvenienced, by what was happening, and a little deflated.  It wasn’t the ending she’d hoped for.

When we really commit to our spiritual unfolding, it’s important to realize there will be peaks and valleys, highs and lows, summer and winter. These will show up in our emotional landscape. We may feel a little crazy and confused, as our mind integrates new perceptions, and the body will go through many changes. Many times, as our patterns are transformed, as our vibrations rise, we may need to boldly step into a fire, which may be painful, and walk through it to gain a new perception, a higher level of wakefulness.  The work is to show up where the rubber meets the road, so to speak, remaining vigilant and awake to practice a new way of being.

The process of awakening is amazing and filled with much wonder, as we learn to see/perceive/live, like we’ve never seen/perceived/lived before. We remember what we’ve long forgotten ~

 that we are each sparks of the Divine Love, waiting to be fully embodied. The connection with all of Life, the expansion of Love, and the deep well of Compassion we access, is without words to describe.  This is Our Truth.

And, the other side of the coin, is that we must also face the abyss of the Unknown, disconnection from identifications that previously allowed life and ourselves to make sense to our human-ness. There is an unearthing of pain, sadness, and fear, which must be released and transformed with the consciousness of waking.

When this stage of our spiritual journey is experienced for the first time it can certainly feel as if we’ve taken a wrong turn somewhere along the line! I remember after the bliss of the first 4 months of my Kundalini awakening, I became very unsettled ~ at least in the mind.

For months I’d been in a state of disintegration of the self, as I’d known myself to be. Literally, I felt empty, like a void inside, yet so clear and full at the same time. The previous ways in which my personality functioned felt washed away. I wasn’t experiencing any ‘buttons’ being pushed, even though there was plenty of button pushing happening. I didn’t need to process, discuss, or solve any issues. Silence, being present and acting from a place of being in the moment, allowed life to unfold perfectly. Judgments had escaped me and I felt deeply connected with Source. I thought I was free!

And then, it turned south, or so I thought. Around that 4 month time, the body felt at peace, empty, calm, and grounded. But my mind from nowhere, began thinking again. It was as if a switch was flipped off from being the witness/observer state of consciousness, of simply being present.  Instead, the mind’s thought was perceiving the state of intense detachment, and there was reaction. And that reaction was disturbed. I had been resting in the hightened state of witness consciousness, and next, I was entering back into the more person-hood, identified, ego consciousness.  Instead of experiencing the peace, calm, empty of the body, as I had prior, I felt greatly detached and numb to all emotion, within the mind.

This alarmed the mind, while the body remained silent and empty. Without the senses of emotion, I couldn’t access the feeling of love for my partner or family. I didn’t feel connected to myself. I felt void of personality. To top it off, the fact that I couldn’t even feel the sense of alarm in my body, that I felt in my mind, alarmed my mind even more!

This phase passed. As I traversed over the years, I recognized that at different phases of our awakening, there are a great many shifts that take place energetically, physically, and of course, this affects our consciousness.  Consciousness is the key. New states of consciousness will create a new experience in how we relate to everything. But I don’t want to digress into that long subject.

The point is, that we are growing, expanding, awakening, ascending. So many words to describe what has to be experiential, to truly understand. It’s important that we have these conversations, because this will ward off unneeded fear or disappointment. Everyone’s spiritual path is unique, and yet, there are similarities at different junctures along the way.

I didn’t take a wrong turn & head south. The client, I shared about above or the others, also didn’t take wrong turns. All of us traversing this path will realize this, if we just keep moving forward, opening our heart to love and the Divine, and keep the fire of courage burning that a spiritual warrior needs to continue their journey.

We are blessed to be living in this time of accelerated spiritual unfolding! It’s amazing. It’s daunting. It’s a path of embodiment, and this is what has been largely overlooked in spiritual teachings in the general public. So hang on, but not too tightly. The ride is filled with more ease & grace, the less we cling.  If you feel you’ve turned south, know you will soon turn north again.We’re all in this together, so you’re invited to keep rising, keep diving, keep shining.

 

Blessings on your ups & downs ~ Lotus

art: Mara Freidman
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Seek Within

Seekers, ready yourselves to cease seeking outside of you . . . While it serves us for awhile, at some point we must release the outward focus in order to receive what is being revealed from within. . .  Seek from the deep well of the source within you, which connects you directly to the Source.

Seek the Love that abides, which resides beneath your fears.

Seek the Joy that streams effortlessly below the turbulence of your stress, attachments & disease.

Seek the Clarity that springs forth, once you release the the addiction to the programming of the world around you.

Seek the Compassion that caresses your own heart, when you befriend the darkness of your wounding. 

Seek the Peace that is the ground of your being, present when you cease the going, doing, & busying yourself, with unending distractions.

Seek the Power that is the core of your being, that up-lifts & carry’s you from the grounded presence, that sees through the forces of trickery ,which continues to sway you from your centeredness, by the illusions of powerlessness. 

Seek the Inspired Genius which infuses your creations, as soon as you let go of the ‘thinking’ mind and access the Divine Blueprint of your Soul.

Seek to Embody the Divinity of your Humanity, by lighting the fire or your divine spark. Ignite it within your body to reveal the Living Teachings within you, and remembering your True Essence, is far beyond what this world has compelled you to be. 

Seek within, where all your questions fade away, and only Wisdom is already known.

For assistance to journey within, see  Offerings

Are You Ready to Choose Flight?

I’ve been singing some Carol King lately, with the slight change of the lyrics . . . I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel continuous walls of attachments & resistance crumbling down. I feel the sky tumbling down . . . With every release of old beliefs, stories, personality traits, whenever Spirit’s around . . .

Little did I know I had the expectation to return to a caterpillar stage & create a new groove at the start of the year. Instead the butterfly keeps emerging rapidly.

I’ve given up on finding a new routine, which I’d hoped I’d be able to ground in once I rounded this monumental corner of transformation, which I’ve been longing for, for eons it seems. Especially at this time of quickening evolution on the planet & mind blowing revelations when witnessing our human experiences . . . New, new, new. It’s sort of like being in a carnival fun house trying to find sure footing on the ever shifting floor beneath your feet. Some moments it’s amusing, others it’s anxiety producing, and many other moments you just want the ride to stop.

Instead it’s an on-going dance of new phases & stages of becoming nothing of who I used to be. I know that many of you know this feeling right now. Awakening & awakening & awakening to ever new levels of Self, Love, dimensions, divinity & assistance from beyond the veil.

The new stability is found in the heart & in the growing direct experience, rather than that which we can touch & see. It’s a constant re-aligning of action & surrender, intent & consent to the Divine flow. This is what we signed up for. We consented to go on this earthly ride at this time, to bring in & anchor greater Light.

The more resistance to change at this time, the more challenges I find. And so, I continue to Let Go & fly!

Even as there are many of us who have been experiencing the process of awakening, as it is just that an on-going process, there are many of our brothers & sisters who this may be their maiden voyage, and what a time to begin . . . Although, awakening is the purpose of this time on this planet. This time may be wrought with much unexpected, therefore I feel it’s up to all of us to come together & share our experience, strength & hope.

Change is knocking on many hearts. If there is only an understanding of a world that is linear, rational, goal oriented, work, entertainment, & processing the duality of our present political climate, when change begins to tug at you, it may not make sense.

Many people know that their old ways aren’t working any more. They feel the stress, the exhaustion, the phantom illnesses, the rising anxiety & the debilitating depression, the yearning for something new. Some realize that they are being programmed to be distracted, and follow the distractions the next moment. Others are gaining the recognition that they are comfortably numb.

There is a growing awareness & desire for something more. Something deeper. Something more sacred. Something more fulfilling & enlivening. But there is the catch. To give life to the new will require change. Change will be uncomfortable. Period.

As soon as the heart & soul reach out to inquire for the new, the life of the creative feminine force within them, the knee-jerk reactions say:
“Oh No! I just don’t have the time.”
“Oh No! My spouse would never go for that.”
“Oh No! I couldn’t take that kind of time, that would be so selfish.”
“Oh No! I can’t afford that.”
“Oh No! But what if I fail?”

All of these rebuttals, make perfect sense. They are rational, and any logical person would say, of course, ‘Stay where & how you are, there’s too much to lose. It’s better to be safe than sorry.’
This is the paradigm we are leaving behind, whether we are ready for it or not! The growing discomfort of this time is to push us out of our comfort zones, our programmed thinking. It’s asking us to question our beliefs.
Why do you believe what you believe?
Are those beliefs yours or passed on through society?
And finally, are those beliefs serving your personal highest good, bringing you joy at the end of the day & the highest good of our world at large?

This is the time to release our stuckness in the root chakras of scarcity, survival, fear, & cultural thought forms, in order to evolve & expand into who we truly are. It is the time where we are being asked to be accountable for who we choose to be, what we choose to contribute to the world, and do we choose to be a Light in the world or a shadow.

What needs to be brought into awareness is that when we choose not to inquire into ourselves as those questions invite, that IS our programming at work. This is the part of us that chooses the status quo of what is known, what is ‘comfortably numb’ verses joyful, celebrating wholeness, stepping into our purpose. This is the part of us that clings to the belief of limitation, rather than expand into abundance, desires to remain asleep, rather than awaken, that chooses to remain trapped in the servitude of programming, rather than experience a greater freedom. This is the part of us that chooses to hand over our personal power to authorities outside of our highest conscience and forfeit our sovereignty..

Change is indeed difficult. It can be confusing. It requires us to release the stability of outworn ways and grow in a faith & trust of the greatness within our soul. Change sets the stage for our transformation, and it doesn’t play by the rational rules. It plays by the rules of faith, creativity, inspiration & intuition. It introduces us to the direct experience of higher awareness, soul connection, & being true to one’s Self. It leads us to divine connection & divine knowing, which increases our Faith & Trust that we are not alone. Choosing change gives us the strength to resist falling prey to all the lies & programming of the world.

We can choose to stay in the stuckness today, a year, or 5 years from now. We’ll most likely continue seeing through the same eyes & often times carrying a heavier load. I’ve heard people say, ‘if only I’d taken that other path when I had the chance, my life could have been so much different.’ Well, this is true, and it’s also true that the path of choosing self-empowerment, self-love will always be there. Sometimes it just gets harder to see as time goes on.

We are given choices over & over again, moments when we are on that threshold again, to honor our Self fully and say
“Yes!” It’s time for something different.
“Yes! I choose to step out of my sleep walking & awaken to the truth that is calling from inside my heart.”
“Yes! I choose to face my fears, insecurities, in order to give life to my purpose & sacred calling.”
“Yes! I choose to go through the discomfort in order to access greater happiness, joy, trust, and faith.”

We all have these choices, on-going, and that is the joy and wonder of being a spiritual-human being evolving. My inner world & outer reality will continue to morph and transform, as I choose consistent awakening. This is such a powerful time to shine & radiate the Light within you. The path before you is open and calling. I hope, if you haven’t yet found you’re path, you join the growing numbers of change makers! Come fly with us!
The choice is yours! What will you choose?

Blessings ~ Lotus

Rising with Care, Ease & Grace Pt 2

The intention of this article, is as a Part 2, of Rising with Care, Ease & Grace, Part 1. In that writing I outlined just a handful of common experiences some of us may be working with as our entire body is shifting, uplifting, and upgrading. I also share some specific tools for support. In this second part, I want to share some very basic information on how the Nervous System and Endocrine System can be supported as the influx of energies move into our physical bodies and subtle anatomy systems. This will give a focal point for extra nourishment.

I’m always enthused to suggest a must have book, if one is interested in science, dietary support, necessary minerals, Ayurveda, and practices for health during this time of spiritual evolution. I mentioned it in Part 1, it is once again, ‘Spiritual Nutrition ~ Six Foundations for Spiritual Life and the Awakening of Kundalini,’ by one of my most powerful teachers, Dr. Gabriel Cousens. He and his work can be found at The Tree of Life Rejuvenation Center, in Arizona.

Some of this information is taken from Spiritual Nutrition. The process of Awakening is such a complex topic, which I won’t begin to go into . . . it’d be a book, which has already been written by a few others. So, I’m simply going to stay within this focused area of my experience that is pertinent to present time and points of reference from my own exploration.

To begin, we are all familiar with the subtle anatomy of the Chakra System. Just to recap: The chakras are subtle energy centers or vortexes, formed by the confluence of nadis. The nadis are 72,000 hollow channels, can be envisioned as similar to veins,  in the subtle body through which Kundalini energy flows. Gabriel Cousens has proposed that, there is the mundane Kundalini, which is innate within each of us, at the base of the spine, and the spiritual Kundalini which flows in through the crown chakra. It has also been mentioned that other entry points are at the Heart and Solar Plexus chakras

On the physical plane, the chakras are connected to the Nervous System and Endocrine System. Cosmic energy is drawn in through the subtle anatomy and energizes the Nervous System and Endocrine System. Within the Endocrine System we find glands that govern our health, via production and balance of hormones, regulate metabolism, growth and development, tissue function, sleep, mood, and sexual function. These are the primary ways we are served & vitalized with this system.

The Endocrine System is comprised of: Pituitary/Pineal Glands; Thyroid; Thymus; Adrenal/Pancreas; Ovaries; Testes. If we correlate these with the Chakra system, we see this alignment:

Third Eye & Crown: Master Glands or Pituitary/Pineal  Illu_endocrine_system_New

Throat: Thyroid 

Heart: Thymus

Solar Plexus: Adrenal/Pancreas

Sacral: Ovaries

Root: Testes

 

One of the significant aspects for our purposes here, in understanding this process, is that as the Kundalini (mundane & spiritual) begins her movement, the ‘voltage’, the electric force within our body increases. I’d just like to note that many speak of the ascending of this divine energy as a systematic and orderly rising through each chakra, base to crown. My experience on this and many others who experience the visceral, intelligent free flow of active Kundalini, is that it is not a linear movement. It spirals, ebbs & flows, ( just as the feminine force that Kundalini is, would move in) through out the body, clearing and purifying, revisiting areas of the body and consciousness, in the perfect order for each individual. Yes, it’s always upwardly intentioned, but not necessarily orderly.

The example has been given many times that the awakening of Kundalini and her increased energy would be like putting a light bulb that holds 100 volts into a socket which 1000 volts will be pouring through. The light bulb would shatter. With this example in mind, we can see that as energy rises and enters into the body, our Nervous System and other systems of the body must be strong enough to hold the current.

I invite you to check in with your own body. Are you anxious? Do you have trouble sleeping? Have you found you have headaches, which was a rare event in the past? Do you have excess or too little Cortisol in your system? Do you have Adrenal fatigue? Do you feel like you feel like you want to sleep all the time? Do you feel ‘something’ pulling at you to ‘go within’?  Are your hormones becoming more erratic? Do you feel depressed unexpectedly? Do you become filled with new energy and insights in spurts? Has your body led you to make significant changes in your diet?  Have you been experiencing heart palpitations? Do you have shortness of breath? 

The many paths of yogic teachings, which include the 8 limbs of Patanjali are the science of Kundalini Awakening AND that of holding the divine force within the body, safely. In brief, the 8 limbs cover the ‘do’s & do not’s’ of ethical observances; physical yoga postures; breathing & control of prana; control of the senses; concentration & inner awareness; devotion & meditation on the Divine; Divine Union. The science of yoga is to prepare us, in body, mind, & heart for the awakening of the Divine within us. To ensure that our bodies and minds could handle the massive transformation which takes place during the process of awakening.

While it’s true our whole being is profoundly impacted, the Endocrine System & Nervous System are greatly affected with the increase of energy into our being.

At this point I’m going to shift gears. As I’ve shared previously, we have moved beyond the time of the isolated individual Kundalini awakenings. We could say now that the Earth’s Kundalini is now rising, which effects us all, collectively. In my thought process, this has transitioned into merging with the Ascension camp. Ascension is the big jump in our spiritual evolution, that is the mass Awakening. Same process as Kundalini but it’s sped up!

Humanity isn’t ascending in order to leave this planet. We are drawing down divine energies from the cosmos (spiritual Kundalini)  to become divine beings, here on Earth. As many of us have been experiencing, our bodies are feeling the surges. This is a process of Embodiment.

The many Ascension symptoms are condensed experiences of  the former, (before 2012/2014) gradual Kundalini purification processes. Taking care of our bodies is paramount for a rising into the new higher frequencies, energies, with ease and grace.( See Part 1.)  As vibrations, frequencies increase and heighten, this also happens in our body.

With this awareness, we can make sure that we are supporting the Endocrine System with whole organic, foods, minerals, hydration, time in Mother Nature, and exercise, to keep our body strong. Sleep is of the utmost importance, and our Nervous System will directly affect this. More sleep is needed nowadays, less stimulation, especially when there are strong cosmic energies flooding our planet and body. The sleep allows the body to receive the energies in a restful state so they can be more easily integrated. When we resist the naps, the sleeping in, the days when we just can’t seem to wake up, the process is more challenging.

Energy work is another powerful way to keep our body, mind, and heart feeling balanced, cleared and harmonized. Now more than ever, our alternative, natural, and energetic modalities of care are becoming more effective. As our being reduces density, and increases in higher frequencies, the old paradigm of health care & healing will be outdated.

I understand that we have lives to maintain. We feel we need to function in the world to keep up with our responsibilities. If this path is new to you, if this information is new to you, just allow yourself to imagine that, maybe what has been known isn’t supposed to be maintained, in the way your mind believes. Allow yourself to imagine that the world is not supposed to continue to function in the way it’s been functioning are. And lastly, imagine that you are being called to become transformed into the highest, most beautiful aspects of your Soul. This is a whole other topic! So I’ll stop with these seeds planted.

If any of this intrigues you, then I invite you to begin to explore how you can best support the Endocrine System and Nervous System. I invite you to begin to really listen to your body when it communicates its most nourishing needs to you. And, if you feel so called, I highly recommend Gabriel’s book, listed above. It’s a whopper of amazing insight and experiential knowledge.

These are truly epic times we’re in. If you feel called to learn more regarding your individual needs, to learn how to more effectively navigate your own transformation of awakening. you can contact me here.

I’ll be sharing next on the high frequencies of Essential Oils to assist in the raising of our frequencies at this time in Part 3. Until then, take care of your whole self, so that you may journey with Ease & Grace!

In Light & Love ~

Lotus

 

 

What are you Vibe-ing?

Spirit has wonderful ways of teaching us, as long as we are sensitive in our listening. Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been receiving  the guidance to vibe specific energetic’s of words. The first word that arose up from within, or sprinkled into my awareness from my Highest Self, was honor. Honor, as we know is something held in great respect; of high esteem; of favor and privilege.

As the words hold an intellectual meaning, the guidance was bringing a full-being awareness to the energy of honor.  There were the moments when I was making dinner with a wandering mind, and honor imbued through my body with a great presence. My mind became focused, and I felt the privilege it was to be making the food in that moment. A sense of deep respect for the circumstances in my life to be such, that I could be cooking awesome, healthy food for myself and my husband.

That presence, the vibe of honor, was lovely and came with ease. There was a special nudge to call me to the present moment, with the visceral, energetic experience of the word.  But what I appreciated even more, were the moments this experience repeated, when under normal circumstances, honoring what was present was the farthest from my mind!

On a particularly rough day, feeling very tired, and dealing with computer issues, which often can bring me to a blood-rush-to-the-face-boiling point, I was rescued by honor. Like a cool breeze wafting in to soothe the rapidly growing irritation, the vibration of honor instantly calmed me. I again was called present to honor the moment, regardless what I was experiencing. I felt how precious the moment was, how privileged I was to have a computer, to have an opportunity to ‘be’ in a higher state of being amidst things not going smoothly. And as I was lifted to this awareness, the fact that I was tired dissipated. I wouldn’t say I felt woken up from sleepiness, as much as, my energy wasn’t being drained from dwelling on mental and emotional turmoil. The energetic up-liftment altered my perception of the just moment prior, frustrating experience.

There were countless times when this mind of mine, would begin to wander away down a path of old stories, memories, or drama’s, which are no longer relevant. Honor stepped into being ~ embodiment of Honor occurred.

The habit of mind, unless otherwise directed can keep us trapped in outworn states of being, denser vibrations, and re-affirming patterns which keep us from rising to our fullest Light.

With the presence of this new energy, I felt as if I was being trained in how to shift the energy and thought patterns to a higher vibration. In much the way a mantra is ‘energized’ in our system, it’s energy/consciousness will uplift us when it is needed, of it’s own accord. At this juncture, for these weeks, it’s been the energy imprint/consciousness of honor.

The last gift that was imbued, was a deep sense of connection to my Highest Self, to the Reality underneath all else. To the person or situation, left to my own devices I may have been ready to pass judgment or criticism, instead I felt heart-centered respect and at one with them.

About 2 days ago, that distinct presence of honor faded. I felt called to continue to turn my attention to what I had learned and put it’s vibration into a conscious practice. And then yesterday, I was pleasantly surprised by the vibration of celebration.  I’ve already received it’s energy uplift me and assist me in recognizing what a celebration each sweet moment can be as well as a hardship, because of the silver lining always present. So, I will continue to be imbued with celebration for as long as Divine Guidance deems it to penetrate my being!

My question and invitation to you? What are you vibing?  Call on your guides, the Universe, your Highest Self and allow them to deliver the energetic imprints of higher vibrations perfect for your heart & being!

Love & Blessings ~

Lotus