Integrating Shadows Past

Settling into myself this evening after what feels like many days of going & doing.

My husband and I have moved from Los Angeles to Tulsa, Oklahoma. It’s been a flurry of transition since June, the heat of summer to now, October, feeling the chill of fall. Earlier tonight the call inward, to return to the sacred embrace of Divine Mother spoke loud & clear. The previous opportunities I’ve had for down-time, inward-time, has lessened greatly with the new life that has been unfolding, and I savor the snippets I get to settle into stillness and inner quietude.

My practice as of late has been of the soul retrieval nature. Returning to the places where I’d left pieces of myself in Tulsa. The shadow of this lost, wild child, angry,  teen-age alcoholic rebel, of 30+ years ago has loomed large since I departed this town. I flung many judgments her way. Much shame was buried, until it wanted to surface, that is.

She/me is now held in my loving embrace, being integrated into a new level of wholeness. She/I was really so much sweeter than I had allowed her/me to be. Acknowledged, seen, heard, & loved, she/me leaves behind those times in the dark, to celebrate the wisdom in the light.

The memories seep through the humidity of the summer and the cool breezes as the cold approaches. The weather here carries a surprising amount of recall, through my body. It also shares visions the younger me in ‘this park’ or with ‘that person’ or ‘walking down that street’ … through much wiser eyes and a softer heart.

I’ve had many tears flow in the release of shame that I see now was unwarranted. Mistakes and choices, were made back then that can be labeled as ‘bad,’ but that no longer holds weight. as we all do our best to make our way through tough, tender years.

I reclaim myself from where I gave my love in order to learn lessons of the depths of compromise and self-negation. I reclaim myself from holding on to the innocence lost, expecting the power of love and validation to come from outside.  I reclaim myself from the addiction to suffering, from living in the past.

Each layer that rises with the initial imprint of fear, sorrow, loss, shame, etc. I hold myself and remind myself of the innate preciousness that has always been. I bring all of me back into this present Now Moment.

There is a re-patterning of this town as time-lines collapse with each layer of integration. The past fades into this life, here, now, full of Light, Wisdom & Divine Knowing of the perfection of all that has passed.  I walk with a new freedom into each moment, a clear mind, a softer heart, with more space for the Presence of Divine Grace, to make a home within.

There may be more to be revealed, to heal, to integrate, in this town. Time will tell.

But each step of the way, I know the truth beyond anything pulls me momentarily into the undertow.  I know that I am a precious, divine being, seeing beyond these human experiences.

May we all reclaim our past/future, which separate us from the divinity within and live in the fullness of our Light & Truth Now.

Many Blessings on the never-ending journey ~

Lotus

art: Autumn Skye Art

 

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Embodying Your Divine Self

Entering into the arms of your Beloved, you enter into the Essence of You.

There are thresholds that must be crossed if you wish to come home to you Divine Self. And what is meant by the ‘Divine Self?‘  

Have you experienced those moments of empty ~ bliss?  

Where you’re so lost in something you love doing, absorbed in the moment, losing track of all space & time, shedding for those moments, the attachment to who your personality is or isn’t? 

Or when you’ve felt in such a flow with creativity gushing forth, uninhibited, expressing spontaneously, that even you were amazed in the afterglow?

Or when someone or something, has unexpectedly opened your heart to allow an ecstatic LOVE pour through your being, unafraid, unfettered, and fully expanded, that there was nothing in your mind, but that state of being in your awareness? 

Our Divine Self, expresses through vibrations, frequency & states of being, rather than emotions or thought. Those states of being are always present, they don’t ebb & flow, with our whims, fears, judgments, or grief. They are ever-present, as those qualities are our sacred ground of being. They are who we are, beneath the personality of stories, beliefs, habits, & life’s experiences.

The Divine Self radiates through us in a growing force & presence, the more that we release, heal & unfurl the false sense of self.

But how do we find the thresholds, let alone access this living presence within each of us? 

How do we learn to maintain that connection once it’s made? 

How do we allow it to transform us, so that we are living more fully as our divine Self? 

This is what we explore in the Path of Embodiment, since we can’t access, awaken, maintain & transform into the remembering of our Divine Self without Embodiment.  This path is not of the intellect or mind, it must take place within our body, heart, & Soul.  It is experiential, utilizing only as needed, the informational.

You are invited to explore & expand, deepen & embody your Truest Self, Divine Self, when you step through the first threshold of inquiry & a consultation with me.

I’ll be hosting a deep dive into this conversation of initiation, for your Beloved’s Embrace:

Beloved’s Embrace: Embodying your Divine Self

Sunday, April 23

Los Feliz, CA

10 am – 4 pm

For inquiries, please contact me:

lotus@artofsacredembodiment

626-394-1565

The Path of Surrender pt 3 ~ Embodiment

Embracing the Sacred Feminine and the Path of Surrender is one of great, subtle power. Divine Embodiment is the awareness of the Sacred, within our humanness.

Embodiment requires stages of Surrender to the Highest qualities of Light and Love, within our living temple body. It is this aspect of working with the Sacred Feminine which makes my heart sing!

In our world, we see force and might as power and strength. We view acceptance and surrender as weak and cowardly. Yet, reflecting back to the short exercises in Part 2, was your Will able to make your mind soften & find peace? Most likely, no. Did you notice that by allowing and accepting your minds activity and re-orienting your attention, everything softened in your body and mind? Probably, to some degree. And I can promise, with practice, the results speak for themselves.

It is when we step back from fighting against ourselves, against our judgements, shaming our shame, or our regrets, when a new relationship is seeded within our being.

As we enter into a place of acceptance of our shadow, befriend our darkness, and recognize even that darkness, as a teacher and Sacred, we begin to see with new eyes, hear with new ears, and feel with a more expansive heart.

Befriending perceived ‘bad’ ways and acknowledging them with a sense of honor, allows us to create the space to realize that these are simply parts of ourselves which need healing, integration, listening to. Sitting in this allowance, deepens our understanding and compassion, opening us up to inner peace, regardless of circumstances.

This is the Sacred Feminine power. She brings inner peace to the longest waging war. The wars within our own being. When we stop waging against our self, we stop waging wars with others around us. This may sound like an over simplification to the use of the word war, given all of the circumstances today. However, there wasn’t a mistake in the teachings of all of the great, luminous minds throughout time, who have spoken this same sentiment. We must love ourselves, before we can love our neighbor. We must find peace within, so we can create peace without.

One of the Divine Mysteries of Sacred Feminine, centers around a return to the body. Returning to the sensuousness of Life, of our whole range of emotions, to the cycles of Life and Death, to the sacred Presence of every moment.

She indeed calls us within. She asks us to spark our courage to dive in deep, into the depths of Soul, in order to rise into the heights of divine Love.

The inner path creates healing of old wounds through the gentle, tender approach of self-acceptance. For it is in learning acceptance of what is, we see with ease, what needs to be transmuted into self-love. Self-Acceptance & Self-Love are keys to unlock magical doors within our own heart. When these doors are unlocked and opened, our energy and inner light flow more freely. In this freedom, we touch the lives of others, as well as lift the vibration of our world. The body contains these journeys of inner discovery, in which we receive new life, the death of the outworn, and rebirth. When walking with our Sacred Feminine, we are empowered to ride these waves and cycles, with wonderment and awe!

The body is the sacred vehicle in which this transformation takes place. It is the powerful vessel which houses all that we need to ascend into our highest calling, our highest expressions of Self. The body is the sacred house for the Divine Love to be expressed into this world.

Embodiment of the Sacred Feminine is not necessarily a path that all of us are called toward in this life. That being said, there are many of us that are yearning on a soul level for this union of divinity, within our humanity, and there are many others of us experiencing this reality in the present time.

I speak in rhyme, rhythm and flow, for this is how the Mother speaks to our Soul.

We all begin where we are. For those to stepping on the Path of the Sacred Feminine, we transform and we are here to assist the transformation of this world through the higher frequencies of Love being cultivated within our own beings, as we release past wounding. Through this deep inner work, we become divine vessels, Body Temples for the streams of Love gracing our hearts and planet.

In spite of all the bleak noise blaring at us from all directions on the ‘worldly’ plane, the distractions that are purposely directed to keep us in states of conflict, anger, fear & darkness, do not be fooled . . . There is much Light present. With the growing presence of divine energies on our planet, we can offer up wonderings that in the coming generations, humanity as a whole will evolve into its Embodied Divinity.

The Sacred Feminine invites you to turn your attention away from the outer, reject the bombardment of programming coming from lower consciousness. Turn within to your own heart, inner knowing, tender love. Dive in here!

She invites you to remember:

You are Whole & Wholy. You are Divine. You carry Wisdom.

Dive into Her sacred waters and receive the radiance of Your Self!

 

With Love,

Lotus