When the Bliss of Waking Turns South

Over the many years of working with clients as they travel on their healing path, there is a common pattern. Expanded awareness, many AhHa moments, new freedom & bliss . . . and then things ‘turn south,’ or so it feels.

I’d been working with a lovely woman who was coming for sessions every 2 weeks. Her clarity was growing, old outworn patterns were releasing. Her connection to God and her guides was deepening. She was stepping into her true expression with greater confidence. She was feeling more self-love, more love and generosity for others, and rooting deeper into her sense of self-worth.  After a few months of working together she wanted to dive deeper, so we embarked on a 3 day intensive retreat.

She was a deep-diver over that weekend! She received greater clarity and released deep grief. Though she felt much lighter, with a joyful spaciousness, she also got ‘sick’ at the very end. By sick, as I’ve stated before, that word is a more familiar label for cleansing the emotional on the physical level. With bronchitis, inconvenienced, by what was happening, and a little deflated.  It wasn’t the ending she’d hoped for.

When we really commit to our spiritual unfolding, it’s important to realize there will be peaks and valleys, highs and lows, summer and winter. These will show up in our emotional landscape. We may feel a little crazy and confused, as our mind integrates new perceptions, and the body will go through many changes. Many times, as our patterns are transformed, as our vibrations rise, we may need to boldly step into a fire, which may be painful, and walk through it to gain a new perception, a higher level of wakefulness.  The work is to show up where the rubber meets the road, so to speak, remaining vigilant and awake to practice a new way of being.

The process of awakening is amazing and filled with much wonder, as we learn to see/perceive/live, like we’ve never seen/perceived/lived before. We remember what we’ve long forgotten ~

 that we are each sparks of the Divine Love, waiting to be fully embodied. The connection with all of Life, the expansion of Love, and the deep well of Compassion we access, is without words to describe.  This is Our Truth.

And, the other side of the coin, is that we must also face the abyss of the Unknown, disconnection from identifications that previously allowed life and ourselves to make sense to our human-ness. There is an unearthing of pain, sadness, and fear, which must be released and transformed with the consciousness of waking.

When this stage of our spiritual journey is experienced for the first time it can certainly feel as if we’ve taken a wrong turn somewhere along the line! I remember after the bliss of the first 4 months of my Kundalini awakening, I became very unsettled ~ at least in the mind.

For months I’d been in a state of disintegration of the self, as I’d known myself to be. Literally, I felt empty, like a void inside, yet so clear and full at the same time. The previous ways in which my personality functioned felt washed away. I wasn’t experiencing any ‘buttons’ being pushed, even though there was plenty of button pushing happening. I didn’t need to process, discuss, or solve any issues. Silence, being present and acting from a place of being in the moment, allowed life to unfold perfectly. Judgments had escaped me and I felt deeply connected with Source. I thought I was free!

And then, it turned south, or so I thought. Around that 4 month time, the body felt at peace, empty, calm, and grounded. But my mind from nowhere, began thinking again. It was as if a switch was flipped off from being the witness/observer state of consciousness, of simply being present.  Instead, the mind’s thought was perceiving the state of intense detachment, and there was reaction. And that reaction was disturbed. I had been resting in the hightened state of witness consciousness, and next, I was entering back into the more person-hood, identified, ego consciousness.  Instead of experiencing the peace, calm, empty of the body, as I had prior, I felt greatly detached and numb to all emotion, within the mind.

This alarmed the mind, while the body remained silent and empty. Without the senses of emotion, I couldn’t access the feeling of love for my partner or family. I didn’t feel connected to myself. I felt void of personality. To top it off, the fact that I couldn’t even feel the sense of alarm in my body, that I felt in my mind, alarmed my mind even more!

This phase passed. As I traversed over the years, I recognized that at different phases of our awakening, there are a great many shifts that take place energetically, physically, and of course, this affects our consciousness.  Consciousness is the key. New states of consciousness will create a new experience in how we relate to everything. But I don’t want to digress into that long subject.

The point is, that we are growing, expanding, awakening, ascending. So many words to describe what has to be experiential, to truly understand. It’s important that we have these conversations, because this will ward off unneeded fear or disappointment. Everyone’s spiritual path is unique, and yet, there are similarities at different junctures along the way.

I didn’t take a wrong turn & head south. The client, I shared about above or the others, also didn’t take wrong turns. All of us traversing this path will realize this, if we just keep moving forward, opening our heart to love and the Divine, and keep the fire of courage burning that a spiritual warrior needs to continue their journey.

We are blessed to be living in this time of accelerated spiritual unfolding! It’s amazing. It’s daunting. It’s a path of embodiment, and this is what has been largely overlooked in spiritual teachings in the general public. So hang on, but not too tightly. The ride is filled with more ease & grace, the less we cling.  If you feel you’ve turned south, know you will soon turn north again.We’re all in this together, so you’re invited to keep rising, keep diving, keep shining.

 

Blessings on your ups & downs ~ Lotus

art: Mara Freidman
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Embodying Your Divine Self

Entering into the arms of your Beloved, you enter into the Essence of You.

There are thresholds that must be crossed if you wish to come home to you Divine Self. And what is meant by the ‘Divine Self?‘  

Have you experienced those moments of empty ~ bliss?  

Where you’re so lost in something you love doing, absorbed in the moment, losing track of all space & time, shedding for those moments, the attachment to who your personality is or isn’t? 

Or when you’ve felt in such a flow with creativity gushing forth, uninhibited, expressing spontaneously, that even you were amazed in the afterglow?

Or when someone or something, has unexpectedly opened your heart to allow an ecstatic LOVE pour through your being, unafraid, unfettered, and fully expanded, that there was nothing in your mind, but that state of being in your awareness? 

Our Divine Self, expresses through vibrations, frequency & states of being, rather than emotions or thought. Those states of being are always present, they don’t ebb & flow, with our whims, fears, judgments, or grief. They are ever-present, as those qualities are our sacred ground of being. They are who we are, beneath the personality of stories, beliefs, habits, & life’s experiences.

The Divine Self radiates through us in a growing force & presence, the more that we release, heal & unfurl the false sense of self.

But how do we find the thresholds, let alone access this living presence within each of us? 

How do we learn to maintain that connection once it’s made? 

How do we allow it to transform us, so that we are living more fully as our divine Self? 

This is what we explore in the Path of Embodiment, since we can’t access, awaken, maintain & transform into the remembering of our Divine Self without Embodiment.  This path is not of the intellect or mind, it must take place within our body, heart, & Soul.  It is experiential, utilizing only as needed, the informational.

You are invited to explore & expand, deepen & embody your Truest Self, Divine Self, when you step through the first threshold of inquiry & a consultation with me.

I’ll be hosting a deep dive into this conversation of initiation, for your Beloved’s Embrace:

Beloved’s Embrace: Embodying your Divine Self

Sunday, April 23

Los Feliz, CA

10 am – 4 pm

For inquiries, please contact me:

lotus@artofsacredembodiment

626-394-1565

Embraced by Programming

Too often we are held in the warm embrace of comfort and contentment, of what we think we know to be true. It feels warm and fuzzy and non-threatening. But alas, it’s what we can also call programming.

And we can feel this changing!

In this space, this close embrace, we are held in a state of sleep. By sleep, I of course am not referring to the night time, rest, rejuvenate, dream land, subconscious processing, in preparation for the coming day, sleep.

By asleep, I’m referring to a subconscious resistance to ignite a more wakeful, curiosity about the world we live in. Such as: Why do I function as I do in the world? Why do the world’s ‘advanced’ societies function in the way they do? Why do I hold the beliefs I have? What is my deepest longing? deepest fear? most wondrous joy? What am I truly here on this planet for? What is my purpose? Why do I hate? Why do I love? Why do I keep repeating habits that bring unhappiness? Do I believe I am special, unique, divine? If not, why not? Do I have a sense of the sacred or soul in my life? Do I love  myself? If not, why not? Do I believe in things I cannot see? If not, why not?

You see, many of us go through our lives on autopilot (accepted programming). Yet more of us are beginning to address these kinds of questions within ourselves. When we’re asleep/programmed, held in the arms the ordinary, mundane state of ourselves and the world, we believe this ‘comfort’ is how life should be. When our boat starts to rock, we do what is necessary to return to the status quo of the previous comfort zone (programming). The ordinary, from which we became momentarily unsettled, is the default setting.

The other option: Wake-Up to something more, ExtraOrdinary  within us and outside of us.

While in the past there has been a preference to remain asleep, this is changing. Let me say here, I don’t believe people are making the conscious choice to stay asleep. This isn’t a judgment call. It’s been an overall state of mind, that as a population we’ve been lulled into. I believe there is a deeper force which programs that ‘comfort’ of the ordinary. Here’s an illustration:

One day a couple of years ago, I was having a talk with a friend. The day was beautiful and we were out for a walk. It was not long after the Ferguson riots began, and my friend was understandably feeling the pain about the violence taking place. We had stopped at the park to rest, sitting on the grass and I began to share some information that I had come across regarding this.

I thought this was the perfect opportunity to open a conversation. I shared that according to some of the sources I’d read, that these racial upsets weren’t an accident. That there was evidence of a larger plan to begin destabilizing our population, inciting hatred and fear, to create deeper division among the population. I also made the comment that according to what I’d heard, there would be more blatant episodes of racial violence in the near future. (Which there were.)

As I shared, my friends eyes began to glaze over. I received a blank stare of silence. And then she repeated her confusion, that she didn’t understand why there was so much violence taking place. With her next sentence, she then changed the subject to the park and weather. No questions. No disagreement. No challenging me in what she may have perceived as conspiracy thinking. No indication that I had shared anything at all.

In another example of collective programming, many people are more apt to remain in circumstances which breed stress, depression, unhappiness, and frustration, particularly in the the case of ones professional/work life, than be open to seeing an alternative way of living. Being open to an alternative doesn’t necessarily mean easy or without effort. When introduced to options or a plan of change, there is an unconscious clinging to the mode of rationalizations as to why life needs to remain as it is. It’s this kind of programming that we aren’t even aware of most of the time.

The programs run through us, like a computer. They’ve been ‘downloaded’ into our mind, heart and cellular structure, by society, family, education, religions and our own past experiences. They run unquestioned, automatically in the background. When they are questioned, the ‘regulation button’ (the programmed habitual thinking) is pushed, the glaze comes over the brain, and the ‘does not compute’ signal is activated. It happens so quickly and subtly, most of the time this process isn’t even recognized consciously.

New awakening signals are breaking up the old sleep signals!

The programs connect to beliefs/feelings about survival, love, security, power, abandonment, ability, and freedom, to name a few. The list goes on to include every story we believe about ourselves, others, and life. To challenge the programming, means to greatly upset the boat, which is our mind. It will challenge our beliefs of who we are, who we think others are, what we believe about life, what we believe we deserve or don’t deserve, whether we believe we have the power to change or create in our lives, etc.

For some people, there is a deep unconscious resistance to NOT grow in ways that expand our consciousness and NOT challenge the beliefs of how we’ve been programmed. Growth, change, expansion can indeed be hard and uncomfortable, but ultimately the reward is freedom. It can be painful, but the reward is joy and peace. It can be scary, but the reward is inner power and great success.

We’re opting to grow through the discomfort to realize our Joy!

We could look at two examples of familiar paths people choose (subconsciously) to live. One being, a desire to live a life that is comfortable, predictable, and with unchallenged beliefs or emotional discomfort. A second familiar path, is one of great continued stress, difficulty, emotional pain, or fear that also becomes comfortable, and thrives like addictions do, in unending cycles.

As a new concept is introduced, the ‘regulation button’ is triggered as soon as concepts or information are introduced into the mind. If it doesn’t fit into one’s present belief system or paradigm, or if it feels to strange, big, or overwhelming,  the ‘regulation button’ is pushed, tripping the signal to ‘go back to sleep.’  The internal counter reaction to expanding our consciousness, says ‘Don’t look there. Stay here, nice and cozy and comfortable.’ ‘That’s crazy talk!’ ‘I could never do that.’ etc. This in no way serves the Highest Good of Who We Really Are. It doesn’t serve the Highest Good for humanity or our planet. It only serves the agenda of other forces which desire to have control over us, via our programmed sleep.

The invitation is to all of us, to continually step into active inquiry as to how we are living our life. We are becoming more conscious, dynamic, and responsible, by reflecting and asking ourselves the hard questions. We are also becoming more willing to do the inconvenient actions in our life to continue to awaken. It is the risk of changing whatever our norm is that delivers many unexpected gifts.

There is no end to the awakening process! There is no finish line, just continued expansion.

2017 has ushered in a painful wake-up call to many with a new president bringing great upheaval, forcing all who have been asleep to wake-up. For many this process is excruciating and terrifying. Going back to sleep is becoming more and more difficult, as it should be. Why? Because we are here to truly awaken to our Selves, in both our darkness and our Light.

We are pulling out of the arms that embrace us tight & hold us in a programmed slumber!

The jig is up! We are here to awaken, evolve, transform, and create magic and mayhem full of Light and Love. But we must unfurl ourselves from the arms that hold us in a false embrace of safety and comfort. We are here to pull away from the bearer of our sleep (programming), pull out of these arms, and stand tall in our Light, our Brilliance, our Power. To take responsibility for honoring ourselves as a divine humanity, awaken and become ready to transform into all of our highest qualities. We are here to rise forth and claim our right to Joy, Peace, and Loving Power.

Blessings in Our Collective Awakening!

Are You Ready to Choose Flight?

I’ve been singing some Carol King lately, with the slight change of the lyrics . . . I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel continuous walls of attachments & resistance crumbling down. I feel the sky tumbling down . . . With every release of old beliefs, stories, personality traits, whenever Spirit’s around . . .

Little did I know I had the expectation to return to a caterpillar stage & create a new groove at the start of the year. Instead the butterfly keeps emerging rapidly.

I’ve given up on finding a new routine, which I’d hoped I’d be able to ground in once I rounded this monumental corner of transformation, which I’ve been longing for, for eons it seems. Especially at this time of quickening evolution on the planet & mind blowing revelations when witnessing our human experiences . . . New, new, new. It’s sort of like being in a carnival fun house trying to find sure footing on the ever shifting floor beneath your feet. Some moments it’s amusing, others it’s anxiety producing, and many other moments you just want the ride to stop.

Instead it’s an on-going dance of new phases & stages of becoming nothing of who I used to be. I know that many of you know this feeling right now. Awakening & awakening & awakening to ever new levels of Self, Love, dimensions, divinity & assistance from beyond the veil.

The new stability is found in the heart & in the growing direct experience, rather than that which we can touch & see. It’s a constant re-aligning of action & surrender, intent & consent to the Divine flow. This is what we signed up for. We consented to go on this earthly ride at this time, to bring in & anchor greater Light.

The more resistance to change at this time, the more challenges I find. And so, I continue to Let Go & fly!

Even as there are many of us who have been experiencing the process of awakening, as it is just that an on-going process, there are many of our brothers & sisters who this may be their maiden voyage, and what a time to begin . . . Although, awakening is the purpose of this time on this planet. This time may be wrought with much unexpected, therefore I feel it’s up to all of us to come together & share our experience, strength & hope.

Change is knocking on many hearts. If there is only an understanding of a world that is linear, rational, goal oriented, work, entertainment, & processing the duality of our present political climate, when change begins to tug at you, it may not make sense.

Many people know that their old ways aren’t working any more. They feel the stress, the exhaustion, the phantom illnesses, the rising anxiety & the debilitating depression, the yearning for something new. Some realize that they are being programmed to be distracted, and follow the distractions the next moment. Others are gaining the recognition that they are comfortably numb.

There is a growing awareness & desire for something more. Something deeper. Something more sacred. Something more fulfilling & enlivening. But there is the catch. To give life to the new will require change. Change will be uncomfortable. Period.

As soon as the heart & soul reach out to inquire for the new, the life of the creative feminine force within them, the knee-jerk reactions say:
“Oh No! I just don’t have the time.”
“Oh No! My spouse would never go for that.”
“Oh No! I couldn’t take that kind of time, that would be so selfish.”
“Oh No! I can’t afford that.”
“Oh No! But what if I fail?”

All of these rebuttals, make perfect sense. They are rational, and any logical person would say, of course, ‘Stay where & how you are, there’s too much to lose. It’s better to be safe than sorry.’
This is the paradigm we are leaving behind, whether we are ready for it or not! The growing discomfort of this time is to push us out of our comfort zones, our programmed thinking. It’s asking us to question our beliefs.
Why do you believe what you believe?
Are those beliefs yours or passed on through society?
And finally, are those beliefs serving your personal highest good, bringing you joy at the end of the day & the highest good of our world at large?

This is the time to release our stuckness in the root chakras of scarcity, survival, fear, & cultural thought forms, in order to evolve & expand into who we truly are. It is the time where we are being asked to be accountable for who we choose to be, what we choose to contribute to the world, and do we choose to be a Light in the world or a shadow.

What needs to be brought into awareness is that when we choose not to inquire into ourselves as those questions invite, that IS our programming at work. This is the part of us that chooses the status quo of what is known, what is ‘comfortably numb’ verses joyful, celebrating wholeness, stepping into our purpose. This is the part of us that clings to the belief of limitation, rather than expand into abundance, desires to remain asleep, rather than awaken, that chooses to remain trapped in the servitude of programming, rather than experience a greater freedom. This is the part of us that chooses to hand over our personal power to authorities outside of our highest conscience and forfeit our sovereignty..

Change is indeed difficult. It can be confusing. It requires us to release the stability of outworn ways and grow in a faith & trust of the greatness within our soul. Change sets the stage for our transformation, and it doesn’t play by the rational rules. It plays by the rules of faith, creativity, inspiration & intuition. It introduces us to the direct experience of higher awareness, soul connection, & being true to one’s Self. It leads us to divine connection & divine knowing, which increases our Faith & Trust that we are not alone. Choosing change gives us the strength to resist falling prey to all the lies & programming of the world.

We can choose to stay in the stuckness today, a year, or 5 years from now. We’ll most likely continue seeing through the same eyes & often times carrying a heavier load. I’ve heard people say, ‘if only I’d taken that other path when I had the chance, my life could have been so much different.’ Well, this is true, and it’s also true that the path of choosing self-empowerment, self-love will always be there. Sometimes it just gets harder to see as time goes on.

We are given choices over & over again, moments when we are on that threshold again, to honor our Self fully and say
“Yes!” It’s time for something different.
“Yes! I choose to step out of my sleep walking & awaken to the truth that is calling from inside my heart.”
“Yes! I choose to face my fears, insecurities, in order to give life to my purpose & sacred calling.”
“Yes! I choose to go through the discomfort in order to access greater happiness, joy, trust, and faith.”

We all have these choices, on-going, and that is the joy and wonder of being a spiritual-human being evolving. My inner world & outer reality will continue to morph and transform, as I choose consistent awakening. This is such a powerful time to shine & radiate the Light within you. The path before you is open and calling. I hope, if you haven’t yet found you’re path, you join the growing numbers of change makers! Come fly with us!
The choice is yours! What will you choose?

Blessings ~ Lotus

Navigating the Lion’s Gate Portal

Here we are in another big shower of divine energies, serving to upgrade and upshift our consciousness and open our hearts! This cycle finds us just on the eve of the Lion’s Gate Portal happening tomorrow, August 8 ~ 8/8.  There is much information about this configuration that takes place every year, although news on the street, is that this year, we’ve been in an extra powerful Lion’s Gate cycle. Here’s a link for more insight,.

However, what I’d like to share about today, are some helpful hints to create ease and grace during this time and beyond.

The first and primary tool for all of us, is to remember, always to ground; connect to the Heart of Mother Earth and spend time in her abundant beauty.  This lifts our heart, opens out mind, balances out imbalances due to modern life, and increases our frequency.

Secondly, as we move forward, the new energies will be ushering in more of the ‘unseen’ to be ‘seen.’ Aspects of the brain, normally untapped will be/are being activated, allowing accessibility to more subtle realms. Our energy systems are also becoming more sensitive, so perceiving on all levels is increasing. Those of us already privy to these understandings can be of great support to those just ‘waking up’ to the subtleties. The more grounded we are, the higher vibration we’re holding, the greater heart/faith centered our support will be.

Thirdly, one of the gifts of the shifts we’ve been going through, is that we have much assistance in clearing our detrimental beliefs and programming. And as much as this is true, during this time, it’s important to continue to acknowledge and become willing to release habits that register in the lower vibrational range. Becoming more adept at consciously creating the qualities of Love, Compassion, Forgiveness, Inner Peace, etc will support the new frequencies.

Because we attract what we vibrate, both in our thoughts AND from the healed/unhealed subconscious, this can impact what we begin to ‘see’ as the veils of the ‘unseen’ are lifted. The higher frequency, the more Love & Compassion we’re cultivating, will bring to our awareness more of the Light of the subtle realms. The opposite may be said if we aren’t actively taking responsibility for the healing of our own heart and psyche.

If support and tools are needed for deeper healing, see here.

When we are healing the denser energies of our own experience and perceptions, those energies that are shadow aspects of each chakra become balanced, functioning from the divine qualities of heart and mind, inherent within each of us.

We can see how these three points can be interlinked to help our expansion of both consciousness and Love. The process of Awakening asks for our active participation. We aren’t simply bystanders awaiting for magic to strike.  We must co-create the magic with the divine assistance. This is our learning in how we connect to our own divinity, and help the whole human family to rise collectively.  May we all be prepared to cross the Lion’s Gate threshold of Love, Light, and Abundance, in Joy and Peace.

Divine Solar Blessings ~

Lotus

 

 

 

Rising with Care, Ease & Grace Part 1

Traveling along sacred paths, though a blessing, it isn’t always easy. There is deep work involved on our part, as we co-create our new being-ness with the divine.  We stumble into realms where all the rules we believed to be written in stone, no longer apply. And how all of this unfolds in our body and consciousness is not always understood, but ever so important to explore. I was inspired to write this a few weeks ago and happy to be addressing it now.

Over the last couple of months it’s felt important to be paying attention to self-care during the continuous influx of energies. We are a mind-body-heart-energy holistic system or psycho-physio-spiritual beings. I know it may sound dry or detached to put a label as such on ourselves that sounds kind of mechanical, yet in some ways it can be helpful to break us free for a moment of our personal attachments to how we normally perceive our existence. The point is that, all of these aspects of ourselves are affected as our energy raises. We aren’t going to escape the impact that is experienced during our awakening process. It will affect how our mind processes thoughts, memories, experiences. It affects how our body feels and functions. And our emotional world may also become it’s own roller coaster ride.

I remember in the early-early days of my own awakening, the first phases I experienced were of such bliss and expansion. In my naivety, I felt magically free of reactivity! Ah! the freedom of no more buttons to be pushed. I was in the flow! Indeed, the power of Grace to hold us in those stages of infancy is vital. I think many would throw in the towel instantly, if the purification’s on the gross levels were the first experiences to be had.

Needless to say, I came back down to earth ~ with a heavy thud.  My mind felt warped and very unstable, no longer serene, I was easily agitated, and I felt numb. I truly didn’t know what had transpired in that time, and wasn’t aware that my ‘garbage’ of past wounds, angers, fears, and lives were rising to the surface. To complicate the situation and add insult to my ‘injured’ sense of reality, my body went into heavy detox mode. For over a month I was in bed as the beloved energy of Divine Mother, Shakti Kundalini, moved through the physical body to clear Her path. It began with a UTI, then a kidney infection. Afterwards, energy moved through the intestines, literally dumping waste in amounts which I was stunned to see the body could hold. Traveling upward through the respiratory system, and finally the grand finale, into the head. This was my breaking point. This was when I vowed off the spiritual path. This was when I was truly left within the depths of myself, alone with many shadow aspects of me.  This lifetime and past. Divine Mother had lost her term of endearment in my mind and heart and became simply “The Energy” spoken with dread.

Some undergo much more dramatic processes, and others less so. The point to remember, is that if we are on an awakening trajectory, our bodies, minds, hearts will undergo clearings.

I look back now and marvel at how profound of a time, of an initiation onto the deeper truths of awakening, that first year was. Needless to say, Soul wouldn’t let me return to the previous state of falling back to sleep for long. This ones heart began to long again for our Primal Mother, my Divine Mother, as soon as my mind gained strength and a semblance of clarity.

Fast forward, 16 years later. With the increase of frequencies, the collective Ascension, of the personal Kundalini rising (at least this is the perception which I hold this continuous evolution), I still am experiencing cleansing’s, though less intense, and witnessing this in others.

Since there is such a quickening on all levels of our being, there are some self-care tips which have been helpful in maintaining some balance along the the occasional, rocky road.

(I will note a disclaimer here: Always check with your doctor if you feel your health is in danger. Nothing I say here is to negate medical assessment. You must listen to your own body. I am not prescribing anything for anyone else, simply offering my own personal experience and ideas to explore for one’s self, in the best way possible for you.)

** First of all, I can’t say enough about allowing permission to rest. It’s natural to wonder “Why am I so tired and groggy?” This is especially challenging if we’re attached to the  conditioning of ‘productivity’, when we feel like we should be functioning in a more ‘outwardly productive’ fashion.  However, there is SO much ‘productivity’ going on internally when we are called into sleep. During the more active planetary phases it’s been said and experienced by many that we need to sleep more, nap more, be quiet more, find stillness more. Sleep and rest allows for the anchoring and integration of all the new inner refining taking place. Learning to just Be right now is paramount for smooth sailing. The Feminine is calling us into greater modes of quietude, gentleness and receptivity. In this way there will be a balancing so that we harmonize with the Divine Masculine.

** Body aches and pains. Muscle stiffness, pain and cramps as well as joint pain has been present for myself and others. Stretch gently and bring attention to the sensations without pushing or forcing the body to open to quickly. I have found some days, that I have to stretch multiple times a day. Stretch lovingly. Keep the body moving, as this helps to move old energy out, while creating space and ease for the new.

** Walk, dance, swim. While continuing to pay attention to moving the body, it’s important to find joyful ways of being in the body. Find what nourishes you! Follow want feels good.

** Magnesium has been such a gift! It helps with free floating anxiety or pressure in the chest, as downloads are entering in. This supplement does wonders for stiff muscles, to help sleep at night, and for overall relaxation. I especially love the powder, ‘Calm’ brand.

In this book, Spiritual Nutrition ~ Six Foundations for Spiritual Life and the Awakening of Kundalini’, by Dr. Gabriel Cousens, (I can’t recommend this book enough!) he lists a number of minerals which are important, as they are frequencies of light and will support the activation on a cellular level, which then supports our bodies to remain strong, stable and balanced. More on him and his work can be found at The Tree of Life Rejuvenation Center in Arizona.

** Epson Salt baths. Though it may be too hot for some of us at this time of year for that, it’s always good for detoxing, calming, and energetically cleansing the body.

** Drink a lot of water. The general water rule is 8 – 8 oz glasses of water a day. Listen to your body. If you’re active, drink more. I usually add a pinch of raw red sea salt into my water for minerals and to increase absorption. A 1/2 lemon in the morning is also helpful to keep the organs clear.

** Receive body work or energy work at least weekly. This keeps energies moving through the body on all levels. The more everything moves through our physical and subtle bodies, the more ‘up-shifting’ we can handle. To inquire for distance or local options for assistance, click here. The influx higher frequencies need to have our aligned assistance for the integration process to take place with the most ease, harmony, and balance.

** Meditation. Daily meditation automatically balances, clears, calms and clarifies our body-mind-heart-energy. This helps us to dial into our inner voice, our inner knowing, and connects us to the higher truths of our being. Meditation has been a staple in most all spiritual traditions for a reason. It holds many keys.  If your interested in learning the right kind of meditation technique for you, inquire here.  

** Grounding.  Ascension/5-D, Awakening, does’t mean we’re leaving our body. We are anchoring higher qualities of being in our body, integrating our Highest Self, here.now. It’s common for some people to feel disassociated, floaty, out of body, or too airy, if they aren’t rooting in the chakras that stabilize and support a balanced rising.  Grounding meditations are important if this is your experience, as well as Earthing, keeping your gaze to the ground and connecting to the sensations of your footsteps are some helpful hints.

** Crystals and stones can help on subtle levels for a myriad of imbalances. I line a number of them up on my computer to help with the EMF’s. Carry them throughout the day. Nap with specific stones for specific needs. I’m still in the newbie stages of exploring and experimenting and finding what is working best for me at this time.

** Let go of the caffeine,  refined sugars, processed foods, too much meat and dairy.  As sad as it may be to let go of the stimulants and those foods that ‘bog’ us down, it’s in our best interest. The cleaner the diet, with organic whole foods and fresh produce the better we will be served. It’s always good to remember, that our bodies are being supported in holding higher frequencies and more energy. The ‘cleaner’ our body, the less work the divine energy needs to detox and the stronger our body becomes.

** Let go of the negative mental and emotional energy we’re feeding ourselves. Violence, division, anger, hate, etc. enter into our subconscious and will need to be cleansed as well, at some point.  Unplugging from the collective thought forms and the programming which ignites fear, scarcity, anger, division, and self-rejection is vitally important to our process of awakening. What are you watching, reading, listening to? Where are you going? What company are you keeping? Remember: Everything holds an energetic vibration and consciousness. ‘Eat wisely.’

** One of my biggest lessons has been realizing that as the energies come into our field and effect the body, the 2 systems that are impacted greatly are the Nervous System and the Endocrine System. What I’m finding  supportive on multiple levels in this way, are pure Essential Oils. I’m going to write  a separate blog for this soon.

** Winding down, one of the most difficult things to let go of that many people find, is to spend LESS time on the computer, phones, tablets, or in areas where Wi-fi is always on. This creates so much havoc in our energy bodies and not to mention our physical vitality. For many of us, as our own frequency rises, so will the sensitivity in experiencing the electro-magnetic field imposing on our personal energy field. Check in with your body to see if you get headaches, nausea, feel literal ‘waves’ in your energy field, dizzy, or what I call hot spots. This is what I’ve termed highly sensitive areas like my throat or lower abdomen if the EMF’s are affecting me, and depending on where I have the computer or phone situated.  And please remember, even if you aren’t sensitized to this yet, you are still being affected and it interferes with the ‘upgrades’ of energies attempting to assist us.

** And last, as has been mentioned numerous times in other posts, spend time on the Earth, out in Mama Nature. She will help us to balance & harmonize, naturally. Earthing, which is the practice of your feel or your whole body as bare as possible on the earth. Especially for those living in the city, like myself,  there is great incoherence in the energy fields, and this greatly affects our health. Earthing helps to reorganize our energy system with love.

I hope this is helpful. I’m aware that not everyone is experiencing all of any of these things I’ve described, as well as many symptoms haven’t been addressed.  You may or may not be having these experiences now or in the future, however, I feel it’s always helpful to have a reference point, just in case and know you aren’t alone!

Rising with Ease & Grace ~

Lotus

Guidance from the Light ~ Star Family Love

Recently I’ve appreciated the information offered by my star-family of the Blue races. Some of you may already be familiar with them, whether it be as the Blue Avian’s or other races. My most familiar recognition with them has been through the Hindu Gods/Goddesses, such as Shiva, Krishna, or Kali Ma, etc. Though most of what I received during this conversation was personal, I wanted to share what is applicable for all of us to remember. Because ultimately, this is about ALL of Us.

We are beings of Magnificence, Love, Compassion, and Beauty. 

‘We want you to know that you are a part of a vast family tree made up of many species. Just as you have many ethnic groups among you, we too have a variety of species of which are interconnected.

The Blue races were indeed a part of your worlds history and cultures, This was back in a time when we all lived within one another’s knowing and receptivity.  We traveled to krishnaassist humanity in ways which you have come to recognize religiously and spiritually. Either within or outside of specific systems  of  belief, our goal has always been the same. To aid in your recognition and realization of the high beings that you are always, and that you are consciously becoming.

You as humanity forgets this, and it seems many are attached to this belief that you are less than your inherent greatness. This is not a judgment. It is simply an observation as to the lessons you are learning.

This lesson of forgetfulness/remembering governs your choices.

As your beliefs about your greatness or your divinity, so your choices demonstrate your knowing.

And so it goes and grows from what your consciousness is able to realize. 

We understand this can be challenging. It is challenging for the mind and your human awareness and person-hood. We also know that your human family has dealt and deals with other forces which take advantage of, or do not respect your sovereignty. However, as your vibrations rise, those old programs will no longer have the same kind of hold over your mind, heart, and consciousness.

This lesson you will learn, some of you more rapidly than others. Either way, it will take place and we are here to support your Highest Good.

And your Highest Good includes the qualities of Peace, Grace, Safety, Love, Honor, Respect, Ease, and Acknowledgement of your needs and levels of integration.’

For me, although this expanding process of awareness has felt challenging at times, I’m growing to find great comfort in the support surrounding us all, both seen and unseen. It helps in the faith, trust, and a deepening of love in my own heart, and in that trust, is that each of you are finding your own garden flourishing!

Peaceful Blessings ~

Lotus

 

Into the Folds of Integration

While I’ve been attending the basics of the day to day life over this last month, the surrender to going ‘deeper’ and connecting ‘higher’ has been given precedence. There has been a part of me that has been waiting for this deepening phase to lessen in order to resume my previous rhythm, however I’m relinquishing that thought, need, belief, idea . . . whatever I may want to call it.

Instead, I’m offering myself up into it’s fold for integration of this transformation. The Highest Self has no desire or need to return to what was. It’s simply the old patterns of myself which hold-out for what is known.

“Burn not the attributes of your Soul. Only set aflame, in a holy fire those aspects which hold you separate from your divine Self.”
The Divine guidance spoke.

Languages of Light, streaming down and through the heart are opening & expanding, deepening & uplifting, guiding me ever more closely to my highest alignment, the heart-soul call. They ignite a knowing within, even if that means loss of what’s been. Though the options to dance the old steps are always present ~ and I still partake as needed, I can’t remain in ‘what was’ for long.

Remembering through the letting-go’s and re-calibrating a new, the clarity grows of not only my, but all of our Truth, as I’m once again told:

“I Am the Life and the Light.
I Am the Love & Life flowing through you.
As Light flows, Life is vitalized and Love increases.”

The challenge is not to get caught in the thick shrouds of forgetfulness, and to remember that we are Love embodied. The biggest challenge is to continuously take the steps it takes to unveil our Knowing of this Truth, which WILL dissolve the things we wish to hold onto, in our day to day lives.

She of A Thousand Roses, walks with me, You too may call on Her. She is here to embrace all who call, into our deepest alignment & purpose. And I embrace her. The Blessings fall upon us all . . . but are you ready to receive?

In Love & Light ~

Lotus

Light Language streams captured by Natalia Molina 2016

Your Most Potent Super-Power

I don’t know about you, but I’m a big fan of super-hero movies . . . many of them, anyway.

My husband turned me onto The X-Men when we first started dating. Prior to that, I had no interest what so ever in the comic book world. When we finally watched The X-Men, I acquiesced because a) it was something that he really wanted to share with me. b) he’d been such a wonderful sport about watching some of my movie choices which drained him emotionally. c) I put it off as long as I could.

From the very introduction, I was hooked. I felt semblances of relating through my personal process of  Kundalini awakening. While stories of Indigo children danced through my head, I could feel that inner knowing of a future of awakened, latent abilities not too far ahead. After all, the Yogi’s of India spoke of these powers, as well as Jesus.

While some call these super-natural powers miracles or magic, I believe these abilities lie within all of us, quite naturally. However, to truly awaken, harness, and express them, requires mastery.  But this writing isn’t really about super hero’s and the fighting of villains. It’s about the most powerful Super-Power, that opens the door to our greatest inner Power. Self-Love.

Yes. Self-Love. I’m proposing that Self-Love is our most potent form of power and perhaps one of the most challenging for us to master. But but in my experience, just in the beginning stages.

We have the hero within us and we have the villain within us. It is this inner villain that we must befriend. Who is this villain aspect? Our Sacred Shadow. The Shadow has become quite popular in the last couple of years. Thank Goodness! Because this shadowy villain leads us to love.

We live with many aspects, expressions of our wholeness. What I’ve called my inner uglies are those personality traits in myself which I’m not a big fan of. In some instances I’ve been quite ashamed of, disliked, and harbored harsh judgments about these ‘villain’ aspects of myself. This isn’t something any of us are alone in. It’s a part of how we learn and grow, by transforming aspects of ourselves that we deem as ‘wrong’ or ‘bad.’

When I first begin working with clients and the conversation turns toward the Sacred Shadow, one of the first things that comes up for many, is how can this be Sacred? ‘How can these parts of myself that cause me such shame or grief be called sacred.’ And this is where the access point of self-love begins. As human beings, this learning is a path that leads us to know that in Truth, we are worthy, we are good, we are Love. If we don’t know our Shadow, we can’t deeply Know our Light.

Falling into self-love you fall into the core of your being, rooting you to your inner truth.

Through self-love you are lifted into your highest purpose and light.

It escorts you with peace through times of challenge.

It holds you tenderly when your heart breaks.

Fall into this love as it guides your choices as nourishment and nurturance.

Living in love with your own being, you receive love more deeply, and can share it more abundantly.

I believe that while there are many helpful teachings for us all to choose from, a big disservice is done when we attach to the idea that we can skip this step of integrating the Sacred Shadow in our spiritual evolution.  I’m not advocating that we hang out and wallow in our darkness or depression. However, I also don’t believe that we can ‘think good thoughts’ our way to wholeness, maturity, and deep wisdom. Many feel that the Law of Attraction is a one dimensional process that centers only around the thinking, egoic mind. The vibrations & frequencies we attract with go much deeper than the logical, rational mind and into our subconscious, our body, and energy field. When we only hang onto the surface, sadly this leaves many people clinging, hoping, for change without taking the empowered actions to create those changes ~ on the inside FIRST.

The initiation upon the path of Self-Love requires willingness and commitment to look at ones whole self. This is why we have teachers and guides, to help us go where it is difficult to go alone. A simple formula I use is composed of 3 parts:

Acknowledge. Release. Receive.

We must first look within and acknowledge these shadow aspects. This begins to heal them. In the healing and releasing phase of the process, sacredness is born in our awareness. This also begins to create a relationship of receiving our self, which expresses as self-acceptance within our being, rather than self-rejection.

Self-Acceptance flourishes into the receptivity of Self-Love.

They go hand in hand.

Once we hit the new thresholds of Self-Love, we are ready to begin to step into our Super-Power training! Jesus is told to have hung out with those people who were seen as the dregs of society. They were looked down upon for their wrong-doings, their shady ways, their tarnished reputations.

But Jesus had the most important super-power. Because he KNEW himself to be made of Light and Love, this truth of his KNOWING, gave him the clear seeing that EVERYONE is also made of Light & Love. There are no dregs. There are only those who haven’t integrated the Sacred Shadow.

This is how the super-power begins to manifest within our being. When we love ourselves, when we live from a state of wholeness, everyone we meet is a reflection of that Truth, regardless how far they are shrouded in forgetfulness.

Love is the greatest power we have. We are Whole and Wholy. And it is a well-spring within us, awaiting its cultivation to bloom forth and touch the hearts of all that we meet. This is the medicine of today. Turn your attention within and walk this inner path of the Heart, for your super-power of Love awaits!

Blessings of Remembering the Truth of Love Within You ~

Lotus

artist: Shiloh Sophia

The Time is Now

As awakening increases upon our Earth, integration is at hand of our own Highest Self, our own Divine Self. You may already be receiving glimpses of this Presence that peaks through your eyes, gently moves your body~seemly of its own accord, speaks through your mouth, loves enormously and unconditionally through your heart, seeks out compassion and connection, where there was once judgement and division.

This is what I’m hearing from clients I’m working with and these have been my experiences over the years.

This isn’t just our imagination, although, it does require the openness of the mind to imagine this divine potential humanity is being embraced by. What I’ve learned is that while Grace does indeed introduce us to our divine presence, just as Grace introduces us to other divine beings whom are assisting us, we are needed to do our part. We are co-creators with the divine, with our Highest Self. This co-creation requires actions from us in order to become receptive to the subtle energies of our own radiance; in order to know the Truth about who we really are.

We can assist ourselves by actively seeking to heal past woundings and beliefs/stories which keep up locked in the denser energies of our being. For each Sacred Shadow we befriend within us, more light is available. For each instance of blame or shame that we genuinely release, we enter into our own Wholeness. For each new seed we plant of deep love and respect for ourselves, the more Love will emanate from us to touch and uplift another.

Our Souls are compelling us more adamantly to heal, release, and receive. This is the time. Just in the last month I’ve had 3 clients who have used the same word ~ urgency. They have each been new clients and what has brought them to me is an urgency to dive deeper, to shift something within them, to let go of what no longer is serving them. We are knowing on a deeper level that we are going to have to enter into areas where perhaps we’ve feared to tread in the past. Or maybe life seemed to offer us a contentment and there wasn’t a need felt to explore deeper, until now. Whatever the case may be, I see this is changing!

Our inner warrior/warrioress is stirring, carrying us with a new sense of adventure and courage to let go of the distractions and preoccupations of the outer realm. As we move toward our inner-self, we see it’s not as frightening within as we thought. And as we move forward, the forces of Love & Light are meeting us to soften and accelerate the journey.

There is a new (it’s always been there, but we’re now ready to hear) inner knowing that in order to create an outer world which is harmonious, celebratory, infused with Spirit, and of service to ourselves AND one another, we’re going to have to begin within.

We each are vehicles for the Divine . . . it can be no other way.

It is the Source from which we’re born.

The questions are: 

Are you aware of your divinity?

How open are you to that sacred force?

Are you ready to take the actions which connect you to your Divine Self?

Do you return into your own quietude often enough, deep enough, to recognize the radiance you see within, as you?

I’m so honored to be a part of the awakening of Love on this planet and to be a part of this journey with all of you who I walk with. When we say ‘YES!’ to our highest call, that call to awaken, Life truly begins. If you feel the call, assistance is here. 

Blessings on Your Inner Adventure!

Lotus