Our awakening happens in cycles & rhythms, ebbs & flows, valleys & peaks, stages & phases, continuous next levels & layers.
The beginning stages/phases often find us desiring greater health, balance, wellness. Exercise, diet, hatha yoga, are some of the new choices we seek out. We feel better, brighter, and with this comes the initial peeking into our emotional/mental landscape, addressing destructive habits, behaviors, re-evaluating people, places, things, in our lives.
At some point if we are to continue on, we often feel called to go deeper. We are ready for the stillness of meditation. We’re called to study, gain spiritual knowledge, explore the more subtle expressions of our reality through understanding/experiences of the energy, in all it’s forms. Our inner lives remain fairly stable & secure, ego has been identified, yet we too are identified with our egoic-personality.
Ahh … but then, again if Soul realizes we are ready to go deeper still, the stages & phases, expand & deepen into the cycles/rhythms, ebbs/flows, valleys/peaks. This is when we often run into a dark night of the soul. Stability & security begins to be a bit more precarious. Soul has a way of ushering us, initiating us into depths of our being, we didn’t know existed, as long as we lived top-side of life, the surface of life, the surface of ourselves.
This phase is not often the spiritual journey we consciously choose, as in the first, feel-good stages of awakening. This is the inner journey, where the rubber meets the road, where all that we’ve known to be true crumbles into ecstatic piles of rubble. Yes, it’s true ecstasy & spiritual death, can live side by side.
Here we dive deep into our own darkness … and don’t be fooled to believe you are free of the cracks & crevices, within your psyche & heart, your cells & tissues, your brain & bones. We live within the confines of our Shadow, until enough Light rays dissolve it’s hold. For when we truly awaken into the deeper levels, we find eons of unresolved lies, pain, distortions, that require space to survive.
Yet, Soul has other plans than only the surface, top-side existence. The valleys grow deep & long as we purge all that has been carried for eons. The identity of personality must be transformed, before we KNOW who we are.
We will rise up to the peak once again, and yes, we will dive down again as well. True awakening isn’t for the faint of heart. It isn’t warm & fuzzy, happy go lucky, when the deep work is being done. We will feel alone & isolated, as the un-initiated can’t comprehend the demolition at hand. And there will be few words that can accurately illustrate the experience happening within.
There are the initial cycles, where the depths & ebbs will be greater than the times of peaks & flows. Hold yourself close & dear, loves. It’s all temporary.
True awakening in the later phase, is for the warrior aspects within us. Here we grow stronger, more vital, learning how face the fire of illusions. And rejoice in the burning.
But not to fret! For there is a purpose to this fire & it’s raging does indeed become warm embers. Whether you wish to call the Awakening that we are undergoing, simply that of Awakening… or Ascension… or the embodiment of Shakti-Kundalini … or … ??? Language matters not. There are no words for the direct experience of dying to who & what we thought we were, & being reborn into the Remembering of the Truth WE ARE.
Dear Ones … those of you in the fire, keep burning!
Keep surrendering! What awaits you, is a deeper Wisdom, beyond what any books, scriptures, intellectual knowledge can convey. For this is the path of Know Thy Self. This is the path of Divine Embodiment.
Once we travel the inner cycles/rhythms, we are freed up of the chains that once held us captive, without our even knowing we were prisoners. We come out the other side, with a lightness of being, the realization that Love abounds & is unceasingly present. The density of all that was, has now enabled more levity, spaciousness, faith & trust, Light.
Concepts of our purity, goodness & love, transform into KNOWING & Being, the Divine Humans that we are that have awoken those divine qualities within.
The Freedom & Joy of traversing the depths, facing the fires, allowing the crumbling of all we’ve held true, is that we have access then to next leveling, upon next leveling, into heights that we never expected of knew existed.
This is the power of our time. We were made for this time.
If you are in the stage of crumbling, break down, Sweetness!
You were made for this process!
This process awaits us all. This is the transformational, evolutionary event of our being.
And it is a never ending journey.
Rejoice! As the true beauty that you ARE awaits you!