Integrating Shadows Past

Settling into myself this evening after what feels like many days of going & doing.

My husband and I have moved from Los Angeles to Tulsa, Oklahoma. It’s been a flurry of transition since June, the heat of summer to now, October, feeling the chill of fall. Earlier tonight the call inward, to return to the sacred embrace of Divine Mother spoke loud & clear. The previous opportunities I’ve had for down-time, inward-time, has lessened greatly with the new life that has been unfolding, and I savor the snippets I get to settle into stillness and inner quietude.

My practice as of late has been of the soul retrieval nature. Returning to the places where I’d left pieces of myself in Tulsa. The shadow of this lost, wild child, angry,  teen-age alcoholic rebel, of 30+ years ago has loomed large since I departed this town. I flung many judgments her way. Much shame was buried, until it wanted to surface, that is.

She/me is now held in my loving embrace, being integrated into a new level of wholeness. She/I was really so much sweeter than I had allowed her/me to be. Acknowledged, seen, heard, & loved, she/me leaves behind those times in the dark, to celebrate the wisdom in the light.

The memories seep through the humidity of the summer and the cool breezes as the cold approaches. The weather here carries a surprising amount of recall, through my body. It also shares visions the younger me in ‘this park’ or with ‘that person’ or ‘walking down that street’ … through much wiser eyes and a softer heart.

I’ve had many tears flow in the release of shame that I see now was unwarranted. Mistakes and choices, were made back then that can be labeled as ‘bad,’ but that no longer holds weight. as we all do our best to make our way through tough, tender years.

I reclaim myself from where I gave my love in order to learn lessons of the depths of compromise and self-negation. I reclaim myself from holding on to the innocence lost, expecting the power of love and validation to come from outside.  I reclaim myself from the addiction to suffering, from living in the past.

Each layer that rises with the initial imprint of fear, sorrow, loss, shame, etc. I hold myself and remind myself of the innate preciousness that has always been. I bring all of me back into this present Now Moment.

There is a re-patterning of this town as time-lines collapse with each layer of integration. The past fades into this life, here, now, full of Light, Wisdom & Divine Knowing of the perfection of all that has passed.  I walk with a new freedom into each moment, a clear mind, a softer heart, with more space for the Presence of Divine Grace, to make a home within.

There may be more to be revealed, to heal, to integrate, in this town. Time will tell.

But each step of the way, I know the truth beyond anything pulls me momentarily into the undertow.  I know that I am a precious, divine being, seeing beyond these human experiences.

May we all reclaim our past/future, which separate us from the divinity within and live in the fullness of our Light & Truth Now.

Many Blessings on the never-ending journey ~

Lotus

art: Autumn Skye Art

 

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Ma Shakti Kundalini ~ Yoga of the Divine Feminine

 

The ancient ways are being birthed in abundance once again as our divine awakening quickens.  The voice of the Divine Feminine, expressed most often through the Goddess presence and archetypes have been touching a growing number of hearts and souls. We are remembering our very own depth and girth through this inkling of soul-spirit, heart opening around the world.

There are many ways through which the Divine Feminine is introduced to us. But there is one Way in which we intimately cultivate a very real, tangible, mystical relationship with Her.  It is through the Yoga of the Divine Feminine, which has many labels, but in essence it takes place through direct, personal communion with Her energy and Divine Presence.

Through this path, we learn experientially who She is, and who we truly are. When we step into this sacred relationship, the myriad of descriptions, from various religious traditions which speak of Her, fall away. The intellect cannot lead or guide us on this journey of divine Soul-Heart knowing. The Mystery teachings defy explanation, only direct Knowing.

When we fully awaken the Divine Spark within us, we embrace the Presence of God. The manual practices which were once necessary for our growth, become secondary. We meet first hand the origin of all these sacred arts and practices, Shakti Kundalini Ma.  Her teachings bubble up and through us spontaneously and organically, just as is needed by our precious being. She becomes our inner guide, calling us to surrender to Her divine care, Her sacred Love, to Her multidimensional Wisdom and our True Self.

She is the Holy Spirit, the Shekinah, all aspects of the Goddess, of all traditions. Through many languages, art, poetry, and esoteric science, attempts have been made to put Her presence into understanding, but are always incomplete. She has been revered, enlivened, and embodied by all mystics and saints of all traditions.

The Divine Feminine force is the creative energy of the Universe and our very being. She is no way foreign to us, in fact She is our truest essence, made conscious. She is the force that raises our consciousness, strengthens our intuitive knowing, that flowers forth the highest qualities of Love & Compassion in our heart, and that which connects us to God.

To travel the mystery of the Great Mother, you must step through the portal, the opening, which is within yourself, to access Her Presence.

My sacred purpose in this world is to initiate, support and guide those who are ready to step into the next level of their Divine Awakening.

If your Soul-Heart feels the call to dive deeper, expand spaciously, and ascend into the highest frequencies of Love within YOU, this is my offering to you.

These sessions are offered in person only. This is a committed path of connection and practice. This is the Way of Embodiment.

It is an honor to escort you on this sacred journey to Your Divine Self.

To learn more, please contact me personally to schedule a consultation.

See Offerings   under the Art of Sacred Embodiment Initiation Programs.

 

 

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