Lovelies . . . Do you long for the path of Self-Love & Embracing the Sacred within? And yet, do you attempt to divide your inner light & darkness? Are you unsure as to how… More
Our awakening happens in cycles & rhythms, ebbs & flows, valleys & peaks, stages & phases, continuous next levels & layers.
The beginning stages/phases often find us desiring greater health, balance, wellness. Exercise, diet, hatha yoga, are some of the new choices we seek out. We feel better, brighter, and with this comes the initial peeking into our emotional/mental landscape, addressing destructive habits, behaviors, re-evaluating people, places, things, in our lives.
At some point if we are to continue on, we often feel called to go deeper. We are ready for the stillness of meditation. We’re called to study, gain spiritual knowledge, explore the more subtle expressions of our reality through understanding/experiences of the energy, in all it’s forms. Our inner lives remain fairly stable & secure, ego has been identified, yet we too are identified with our egoic-personality.
Ahh … but then, again if Soul realizes we are ready to go deeper still, the stages & phases, expand & deepen into the cycles/rhythms, ebbs/flows, valleys/peaks. This is when we often run into a dark night of the soul. Stability & security begins to be a bit more precarious. Soul has a way of ushering us, initiating us into depths of our being, we didn’t know existed, as long as we lived top-side of life, the surface of life, the surface of ourselves.
This phase is not often the spiritual journey we consciously choose, as in the first, feel-good stages of awakening. This is the inner journey, where the rubber meets the road, where all that we’ve known to be true crumbles into ecstatic piles of rubble. Yes, it’s true ecstasy & spiritual death, can live side by side.
Here we dive deep into our own darkness … and don’t be fooled to believe you are free of the cracks & crevices, within your psyche & heart, your cells & tissues, your brain & bones. We live within the confines of our Shadow, until enough Light rays dissolve it’s hold. For when we truly awaken into the deeper levels, we find eons of unresolved lies, pain, distortions, that require space to survive.
Yet, Soul has other plans than only the surface, top-side existence. The valleys grow deep & long as we purge all that has been carried for eons. The identity of personality must be transformed, before we KNOW who we are.
We will rise up to the peak once again, and yes, we will dive down again as well. True awakening isn’t for the faint of heart. It isn’t warm & fuzzy, happy go lucky, when the deep work is being done. We will feel alone & isolated, as the un-initiated can’t comprehend the demolition at hand. And there will be few words that can accurately illustrate the experience happening within.
There are the initial cycles, where the depths & ebbs will be greater than the times of peaks & flows. Hold yourself close & dear, loves. It’s all temporary.
True awakening in the later phase, is for the warrior aspects within us. Here we grow stronger, more vital, learning how face the fire of illusions. And rejoice in the burning.
But not to fret! For there is a purpose to this fire & it’s raging does indeed become warm embers. Whether you wish to call the Awakening that we are undergoing, simply that of Awakening… or Ascension… or the embodiment of Shakti-Kundalini … or … ??? Language matters not. There are no words for the direct experience of dying to who & what we thought we were, & being reborn into the Remembering of the Truth WE ARE.
Dear Ones … those of you in the fire, keep burning!
Keep surrendering! What awaits you, is a deeper Wisdom, beyond what any books, scriptures, intellectual knowledge can convey. For this is the path of Know Thy Self. This is the path of Divine Embodiment.
Once we travel the inner cycles/rhythms, we are freed up of the chains that once held us captive, without our even knowing we were prisoners. We come out the other side, with a lightness of being, the realization that Love abounds & is unceasingly present. The density of all that was, has now enabled more levity, spaciousness, faith & trust, Light.
Concepts of our purity, goodness & love, transform into KNOWING & Being, the Divine Humans that we are that have awoken those divine qualities within.
The Freedom & Joy of traversing the depths, facing the fires, allowing the crumbling of all we’ve held true, is that we have access then to next leveling, upon next leveling, into heights that we never expected of knew existed.
This is the power of our time. We were made for this time.
If you are in the stage of crumbling, break down, Sweetness!
You were made for this process!
This process awaits us all. This is the transformational, evolutionary event of our being.
And it is a never ending journey.
Rejoice! As the true beauty that you ARE awaits you!
It’s that time of year again. The wheel has turned and we are just at the cusp of the winter holidays ~ Thanksgiving, Christmas, Hanukkah, and New Years. Before we even begin, lets first recognize that the expectation that we are supposed to be happy, joyous and free during these months, can be a heavy load for some. I feel it’s important to be sensitive to the variety of experiences people have at this time of year.
Not all experience the holidays with such an outlook. Some people experience feeling of loss and loneliness. Others feel the stress of money. Introverts may feel overwhelmed with socializing. And those who don’t have close, loved ones in their lives can feel very isolated. It’s important to remember, that even though there can be great joy for many, these holidays are indeed a collective thought form that we have been programmed to buy into. And the key word here is ‘buy’. ie spend money, over indulge, experience excess, thanks to corporate agenda’s. But that is NOT what this post is about, lest I get distracted. However, it is a way of consoling those who may feel the rumblings of ‘Bah! Humbug’ settling in. It is ok if these days, are just another day.
I don’t want to focus on the holidays per se. Instead, I’d like to talk about the creators that we are. That regardless how we hold the holidays, that just like all days, we have the power to cultivate our own inner experience.
Do you believe this to be true?
That’s an important question to begin with. If we don’t have that faith and trust in our ability to literally create the emotional experience in our lives, that we choose, then we won’t. Now, I’m not going to blow rainbows and sparkles up you know where.
It’s not always easy.
It does require acknowledging & understanding what causes you unhappiness, restlessness, fear, anxiety, hate, and self-rejection.
It requires commitment & dedication to your own healing & self wisdom.
And, it actually takes practice, flexing your emotional/mental muscles, to create and maintain high frequency states of being.
But the good news is, you CAN begin to make shifts, even if you haven’t yet realized that your Soul/Highest Self long for your person-hood to be Happy, Joyous and Free!
Let’s start, shall we?
Close your eyes and take a few deep breaths.
Breathe slowly, deeply, until you feel yourself relaxing.
After you’ve settled into yourself for a moment, bring a memory of something that you can’t help but smile about.
Allow the smile to take over!
(My memory is of my dogs that I used to have. As soon as I see them in my minds eye, my heart explodes, and an uncontrollable smile takes over my whole face.)
Find that kind of memory and really FEEL the emotion. Keep your eyes closed and just feel all of that for a couple of minutes.
Let this frequency vibrate through your being
Once you have connected the memory, to the feeling, continue to let this experience/feeling/frequency vibrate through your being.
Allow yourself to feel how amazing the feeling, feels.
This is the entry point.
Every morning before you rise, every night as you’re going to sleep, any moment that opens up for you during the day … Close your eyes, breathe, let the smile bloom across your face, feel this memory fill your being with whatever the positive qualities are that plugs you into your Light.
This is Your Light. Your Radiance. Your Joy. Your Enthusiasm.
Soon, you won’t need the memory. Your smile will become enlivening. Your physiology & biology, brain & heart will soon rewire itself, enabling you to access higher emotional states, raising your frequency, with ease & grace!
This practice will also help you to become aware of those habitual thoughts, feelings, stories, stresses, decisions, and beliefs, that literally bring you down. That is, lower your frequency.
That is, bring about depression, sadness, anger … you get the picture. There’s no need for concern or judgment. This is simply information pointing you in the direction of your healing work. The denser feelings are simply teachers, pointing out where we still carry pain or dishonor of self, wearing a myriad of masks.
You will get to choose, over & over,
“Do I wish to continue to cultivate/create my own Joy?”
“Am I willing to do the inner work?”
Or, “Do I choose to remain, maintain, in a space that either brings me suffering or resting in a comfortable status quo.”
To choose more happiness, joy, freedom, peace, heart connections, abundance, and celebration of life, will require some effort. There’s no quick, lasting fix. The only way to the other side, is through the denser frequencies and raising them through deeper & higher awareness.
So, as we enter this holiday season, wherever you find yourself emotionally, be gentle with the preciousness that you are. May you find this simple practice a helpful tool to increase the joy that you may already be filled with, because there is no end to how high we can go! And if you are feeling sad, lonely, or frustrated, I hope this assists in bringing you some levity of spirit, to your heart & mind.
Here’s to coming into Joy & Harmony with yourself, so your can see that reflected back to you over this time of Gratitude & Peace.
The sacred energies of the Divine Feminine are being felt more prominently, more often & for more people. The Ascension Process is well underway, affecting all of humanity, whether we know we’re being affected or not. Our old brain is being upgraded & created a’new, for a more balanced way of being.
What does this really mean & how can we grasp this in a tangible way. Well, I won’t begin to assume I know to the far reaches of what this really means. However, I can attest to the experiential significance of this reality, which for me goes back at least a decade.
Since the early 2000’s, I’ve had many patches of time where my mind refused to ‘function’ in the fashion I’d previously been accustomed to. Early on, I understood this to be a bi-product of the deepening of my meditation practice.
For brief periods of time, I’d not know the day, date, month, or year. And I really didn’t care. It didn’t seem important. I’d find myself just sitting peacefully, daydreaming, feeling emptied of cares & worries, or even thoughts. In the early days, this would last a day or two and then, “Wa-La!” the next day would bring me back to the good ol’ linear, rational, logical, thinking. I could track time, it was easier to attach to stressful thoughts, and I could project into and plan for the future.
Over time, and in particular around 2013, this all changed drastically. The short spans of time grew into gradual levels of a new normal. What did the New Norm look like?
My memory no longer held information that was superfluous, regardless of what my personality thought was important to continue to carry with me. And it wasn’t dementia, which was a mild fear.
The thought process had great challenges in once again, tracking time. I eventually let go of needing to.
The mind felt foggy & mushy.
I felt like daydreaming A LOT. The mind felt soft & wavy.
There were spells of dizziness. This wasn’t any kind of nervous disorder.
I didn’t feel the need to be in control or the world around me. Which had been a major survival habit since as back as far as I could remember.
I entered into a magical flow by surrendering & letting my mind go … though the necessary shifts being created, that is.
There were more nuanced changes, but this has been the most obvious thus far.
For thousands of years, we’ve been functioning under the qualities of the predominantly masculine energy. Though the masculine qualities are necessary for a balanced way of living & thinking, it has been grossly imbalanced, as most of us realize.
I don’t believe this topic is as cut & dry as this post expresses, but lets keep it simple, right? The brain can be seen as holding masculine, yang, qualities in it’s Left-side functioning. The Right-side, the feminine holds more of our creative, emotive, I like the word spiraling, way of functioning. It helps us to access more expansive brain-wave states, which connect us more acutely to our own Soul & subtle bodies. This also supports us in receiving higher wisdom, rather than a limited intellectual understanding.
As we’ve been moving forward along the awakening process, we’re slowly being taught how to function from more of the Right side, the feminine side of the brain. And in this process, it can be challenging & inconvenient for the way our society & it’s systems have been set up.
The invitation we’re receiving from these periods of foggy headed times, is to surrender to the change, which is in essence a profound transformation of consciousness.
The invitation is to begin to create more space in your life, maybe restructure your life, so that your more able to let go into this divine flow.
The invitation is to take some time out … rest, daydream, watch the sky & trees, sleep. Allow the no-mind it’s space, & witness the space this creates within you & your heart.
We need not be alarmed with this change, and the better we roll with it, the more ease & grace we’ll experience. Also, it’s quite exciting to realize that a divine consciousness is evolving through us … we’re in the midst of an amazing period of time, where we can begin to truly witness & embrace humanity transforming!
As always, with any Ascension symptoms that may be new to you, or that you feel it’s best to seek medical assistance, please do. However, if the results come back clear, you can rest in the fact that the experiences you’re having are something to celebrate, not fear!
We may swing to the side of the Right-sided Feminine brain expressions before we come to balance out with the Left-sided Masculine, yet when they form a new dance together of harmony & balance, we’ll be functioning from a new mind & a new way of living & a new world we’re living in!
Here’s to humanity’s merging of our New Mind!
Blessings & Love,
In the morning stillness
my gaze rests
on the sunlight dancing on the canopy of leaves.
Each breath out,
I release all the mind
believes me to be.
As I breathe into the empty spaces
I am filled with the songs of birds,
the whispers of trees,
the pulsing dance of Mother Earth
and Cosmic Light.
In the surrender of just being,
I am evermore connected
to the loving wisdom of Life,
& I am evermore connected.
“Spiritual awakening refers to a shift in consciousness, a perception of reality which had been previously unrealized. The culmination of such realizations is in the recognition of oneness with all of existence.” from the Urban Dictionary
This is a good comprehensive description of awakening. I would add, that awakening is an on-going process for the vast majority … but only if we engage with the process consciously.
Awakening is the topic of our time, because it’s a very real, exciting, evolutionary leap that humanity is making present day.
But what does this really mean?
What does this feel & look like?
Who does it affect?
Why does it matter?
Who is awakening?
I can only share from my personal, direct experience & from witnessing the journey of others, whether it be friends, family, or clients. As the quote from the Urban Dictionary expresses above, as we begin to wake-up, our perceptions change & consciousness expands. Yet this can still seem quite vague to some still asleep or just on the cusp of waking.
It helps me to break it down in specific, tangible examples, even though it can often defy any kind of concrete description. Waking-up is a deeply personal voyage we take into our own heart & soul. As we awaken, our perceptions of what we believed to be true begin to shift, morph, fall away & expand. This may happen in a flash from an intense experience that forever changes our awareness. Or it may happen subtly, over time, from beginning a practice of yoga or meditation. It may also come on in trauma, from an injury or illness, or perhaps from the loss of someone we loved dearly.
Rumi wrote in this poem, a key phrase: Don’t go back to sleep.
For years, copying other people, I tried to know myself.
From within, I couldn’t decide what to do.
Unable to see, I heard my name being called.
Then I walked outside.
The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the door sill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.
What does this look & feel like? Before we begin our awakening, we are living in a state of slumber, asleep without knowing it. We most likely won’t even understand the meaning of being asleep, until we begin to wake.
While asleep, we are living from unconscious programs & conditioning. There is an acceptance of thought forms & beliefs that we learn form the majority. This majority may include family, education systems, culture, societal rules, etc. They tend towards thing in terms of black & white, right & wrongs; judgments, prejudices, fears & divisions, that have crept into our psyche by osmosis; the systems that ‘run’ the world are rarely questioned; and the mundane, contentment of empty entertainment/substances as the stress release from the accepted pressures of ‘this is how life is’ resolve.
But when we begin to awaken, we begin to question, we begin to seek, we desire to know more deeply who we are & why are we here. Although for me, those questions weren’t quite that clear, however as I awoke, I came closer to what seemed like the answers.
The process may be as soft as a whisper or as abrupt as thunder.
The purpose of life may take on new meaning, perhaps a new creativity springs forth, or an unquenchable thirst for learning becomes a driving force. Many experience the desire to change their eating habits to a kinder diet. Others may begin feeling called to seek truth & justice, via activism. Some find a strong call to connect with nature, while others find the need for emotional healing. Still others seek God/Spirit directly.
As we begin to look at ourselves & the world through new colored lenses, our mind & heart expand into new realizations and epiphanies. There are new qualities of being that are accessed. While some may begin to experience as sense of Peace for the first time ever, another may feel newly energized after being previously identified by depression.
One may experience states of Bliss or Joy. This realization awakens them to another level of expanded awareness ~ that our true inner expression IS Bliss or Joy, not the personality with whom we’ve thought ourselves to be!
There are as many unique expressions of waking-up, as there are souls.
What does this mean? Waking up, Awakening … means, we are accessing new levels of awareness, consciousness, knowing of ourselves beyond all that we have believed when we were asleep. It is this expansion of consciousness which also helps us to connect more deeply with our Soul, with the desire for more Truth, Justice, or Freedom, to feel more Peace, Compassion, Harmony, Higher Connection.
It is this expansion of consciousness which also connects us more to our heart intelligence, to Love, to our intuition, and to an inner guidance that deeply supports us in becoming free-thinking, verse conforming to the collective, mass consciousness, blindly.
Awakening inspires us to realize that we carry emotional/mental wounds. A deeper awareness begins to inform us, that these hurts we carry, often compel us to hurt ourselves & others, whether we mean to or not. If we continue to stay open & willing to awaken, we’re inspired to heal our wounds, resolve hurts with others, and eventually to expand our focus from our individual lives, into how we can serve our sisters, brothers, Mother Nature & all living beings.
What I once believed as black & white, becomes grey & the full spectrum of color.
Where once I saw our world from one dimension, now expands to many.
That which was once experienced as solid, is now all energy.
Though in the past I believed myself to be seperate from you, truly we are all connected.
And as we continue on the path of awakening, we begin to find it is unending, never dull, always full of wonder & magic, and that there are stages & phases of growth & change, upon stages & phases of expansion. We grow into our Wholeness. We transform. Our life transforms. . . Beautifully & continually.
Why does this matter & who does it affect? This matters tremendously because it affects everyone! Firstly, it affects each of us, as expressed above. Secondly, our world is in desperate need of awakened hearts & minds. Souls who have healed themselves, and can bring that harmonized, balanced, clear perspective to all Life.
Our collective consciousness & those leading the majority thought forms on our planet, have been deeply asleep, separated from their own loving depths of being. As we awaken, we become the new free-thinking, expansive, exploring higher states of being consciousness. This uplifts all of humanity & Mother Earth.
Each of us matter. And each one of us who takes on the responsibility of Awakening, makes an impact.
Who is Awakening? My guess is, that if you’re reading this, you’ve begun! Many more around the world are beginning this amazing, glorious mass awakening at hand today, as it is written in the stars, so to speak, and the energy of this time on Earth.
Awakening isn’t a one time event. We may have a great moment or period of time, where everything is opening up in a new way. There may be a powerful epiphany which has re-set the course of a life. This is awesome & perfect. But, in the way in which I hold this awareness, that doesn’t mean we’re awake. That means we’re on the path, we’re in process, and the path is stretched our before us to continue our journey.
Some of us choose this path, because the old ways of our life aren’t bringing us happiness, health, freedom. Some begin awakening because their Soul & Life has deemed it time! The beauty is, we don’t need to be in crisis to begin. We simply need to choose.
Are you awakening? Ultimately, you’re the only one who can answer that.
Seek within your own heart & being. Listen to that still small voice.
In quoting Rumi again … Can you hear “the breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you”?
Listen … and “Don’t go back to sleep!”
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Blessings & Love on Your Awakening Journey~
Calling forth our future self, we become ready to receive, through our present being, that which we are ready to learn & create as we move forward.
Stretch the mind & expand the heart,
for these will be the points of access.
It is these precious points of meeting, within our present self, that our divine blueprints, our divine calling & purpose, continue to be activated & upgraded, in each present-Now, to manifest our innate Love & Light in service to all.
We are more than just the personality we see/know. We each have a higher consciousness, our Highest Self, in connection with the Divine/God/Goddess/Universe/Spirit which we are being invited to call forth with greater consistency & clarity.
We may also call this our inner teacher, our intuition, our deepest knowings, our soul-call, which inspires us to awaken to the fullness of our being, which expands & extends beyond the time & space that we perceive.
This Highest Self is always with us, like a guardian angel. Though at first it is most often perceived as outside of us, we soon find, these aspects of our very own self, are rooted within us, simply awaiting us to become aware of the guiding presence within our heart.
Embrace that which creates more genuine Joy, Peace & Harmony, in your being .
Allow your choices to carry the ever up-grading vibratory signatures, which will support your ability to hold new levels of Light & Love in your heart.
I once had a discussion with one of my teachers, about 6 months after receiving Kriya initiation. I was inquiring whether it was ok to back off from my practice if the increasing energy in my system and the expansion process felt ‘too much’?
His reply was, “Of course you may. But also remember, if you don’t acclimate to the new levels of energy that are creating transformation, you will not acclimate to the new levels, and transformation will not take place.”
As you release the old ways, which you have believed to be you, loss is a natural feeling.
But remember, the space being cleared out, left empty & as a void, is the Space for Grace. It is then you can be filled with more Light, which will truly serve your upliftment & Joy.
Feeling called to activate your rising to the next level?
Blessings on Rising!
The last few days of incoming energies, has spiked the frequency for us all once again, as we come closer to the Full Moon on Tuesday.
In making inner/outer space for these higher vibrations, I’ve listened to my body & taken more down-time, quiet-time, drank more water & have been grounding outside, connecting with Mama Nature.
Light Language has been streaming through, upgrading & upshifting my being. And messages have been sing-song-ing through…
Choices. We are being reminded of the importance of our choices. To keep aligning with the higher frequencies & increasing our ability to integrate them, we must continuously make the moment by moment choices regarding our habits, beliefs, thought processes, where we put our attention, what we put into our body, what serves as entertainment, how we spend our free time/energy, who we keep company with.
None of this is new. The yogic teachings have been guiding us for thousands of years, into deepening our awareness & choosing wisely of the people, places, things, thoughts & actions, which are of higher vibration/frequency.
Are we calling into our lives those things which cultivate more Life, Harmony, Peace, Beauty, Love, Compassion, etc?
Are we taking the steps to let go of outworn, dense, heavy, habitual energies which we have grown comfortable with?
This will be different for each, depending on where we are at, at any given time. Our awareness & understanding is continuously expanding, each rung of the ladder we climb. Just keep climbing.
We have free-will to choose whether we will release those things/behaviors that create cycles of suffering, pain, disappointment, frustration, anger & fear. We may feel a loss, a void, yet it creates more space for Grace to uplift us.
We are invited to embrace that in life which lifts us & affirms in us, to the highest/deepest knowing, of our Goodness, Beauty, Preciousness, Soul Power & the Loving beings that we are.
As we embrace these qualities in ourselves & Life, this is what Life will be reflecting back to us.
We are stepping into new ways of being & doing. We are creating a new world, by re-creating how we live, think & by amplifying the higher frequencies held in the spaciousness of Love.
You are invited to join us for this monthly gathering of activating more Love, Peace, Harmony, Unity, & Joy within us and in the world, via the high vibrational frequencies of Light & sound.
These sounds & tones of divine speech, are known and understood by our heart & Soul. They assist us in releasing outdated programs that keep us stuck in patterns which no longer serve our happiness & highest good.
Light Language activates aspects of the self which aspires toward spiritual awakening, greater Love, Compassion, Faith & Trust, Inner Peace & connection to the Divine.
We are learning more about the power of sound healing/vibrational healing. Light Language is another form of this which allows deep shifts to occur.
Light Language, though relatively new to many, has been known since ancient times. It has been called, ‘Music of the Sphere’s’, ‘Singing into the Spirit’, ‘Angelic Language & ‘Heavenly Language’ to name a few, as well as Soul Languages.
These sounds & divine speech is known & understood by our heart & Soul. They assist us in releasing outdated programs that keep us stuck in patterns which no longer serve our highest good. Light Language also activates aspects of the self which aspires toward spiritual awakening, greater Love, Compassion, Faith & Trust, Inner Peace & connection to the Divine.
They assist us in releasing all that separates us from remembering & knowing, the innate Love that we are, with ease & grace.
LL are a part of our make-up, our DNA. We all have a Soul Language and these activations & meditations, speak directly to our Highest Heart & highest potential.
Please bring a pillow or cushion to sit on & wear loose, comfy clothing. Also, please bring a notebook for noting any insights/experiences you have.
Please arrive a few minutes early to settle in with some tea. 🙂
Looking forward to sharing !
Lovelies . . .
Do you long for the path of Self-Love & Embracing the Sacred within? And yet, do you attempt to divide your inner light & darkness?
Self-rejection takes shape when we judge our self as wrong, bad, not-enough, faulty, etc. When we push it further within or away, when we pretend this aspect of our self doesn’t exist, we simply delay our wholeness & authenticity.
It’s ok. Feel your ‘darkness’ rise forth & give it breath & voice.
Take it gently in your heart. See it for what it is . . . It is a wound coming forth to be revealed & healed, through your love & presence.
It is a Sacred Shadow, ready to be transformed, transmuted & integrated, with conscious compassion.
When we experience moments of irritation, frustration, judgement, blame or shame, these are simply reactive red-flags showing us to what degree we are separated from the center of our own being & disconnecting from the heart.
Each time, it’s an opportunity & reminder to come back home to the pure essence of who we truly are.
This is the path of becoming Whole & Holy. This is the path of the Sacred Feminine. This is the path to your Truth. And you don’t need to walk it alone.
With Love ~ Lotus
art:: Dennis Nunez Rodriguez