In this moment what is your body communicating?
Just take a moment, close your eyes, take a couple of breaths and feel . . .
I’m posing this question from my own need to check-in, reflect within, sense what is, Get Real with myself, so to speak.
The last 4 or 5 days I’ve been setting up a new MindBody account, as I’m now at a point of expanding my business. One truth about me is that I love the start-up’s to new projects. I get inspired by the process of new beginnings. There is invigoration that I gain from creating something new. The mind gets jazzed. Envisioning brings new possibilities. And even the challenges of technology, for a non-techy sort, like myself, feeds me. This ones mind does like to be challenged and engaged! That is true.
Another truth about me, is that while I feel energized by the above scenario, there usually comes the wall I’m now hitting. I’m agitated. My body feels contracted. My mind is not feeling clear. And, my energy system is feeling weakened due to the way I’ve been utilizing my energy. Coupled with too much time on the computer, its EMF’s which I’ve mentioned in the past, are draining my system further. The invigoration and inspiration have diminished. The commitment to follow-through, while has remained present for the last day or so regardless, is now just wanting this set-up to be done. For me all of this is an indication that I’ve been too much in the mind, in the thinking masculine.
This is just an example of a bigger picture and deeper question. How often are your inner masculine & feminine fighting with one another or making love with each other? How do you function within your own inner feminine & inner masculine energies? Are they balanced? Do they dance in harmony? Do you lean more toward one than the other?
For me, a pattern has been one extreme to the other. While I’m consistently trying to navigate this dance and truly honor both aspects of the mind and heart, action and rest, will and surrender, the lessons always demand more subtle honing.
Early in the week I was feeling feeling fulfilled, unattached to ‘getting this done’ and combining the ‘doing’ (masculine) with organic flow (feminine). I felt open and spacious, (feminine qualities) as I moved forward, in step by step doing, (masculine qualities). As more of the details are slowing me down, attachment is growing, and I feel the push to completion, even though the mind isn’t really as clear.
Energetically, I think many of us can relate to this dynamic. There is probably a fair number of us which tend toward feeling this imbalanced masculine drive, push, attached, need to control, ‘get things done’ in our day to day life.
I know the answer for me is just what I’m doing. I felt inspired to process this pattern here, to be followed by letting go for now, for today, maybe for tomorrow of the constriction of energy that cuts me off from my center. The outdoors call. The time to simply listen to music, color, putz around the house, and allow the opening to occur naturally. Enter into the feminine space.
Once I soften, once I let go of the minds obsession with completion ‘right now’, once I relax into my body again, I’ll be re-energized, replenished, clear, inspired, and flow into the completion with ease. Once again my feminine & masculine will be functioning in harmony & balance. But for now, space for her grace is calling.
I’ve learned that when I carry out work in my life, from a true organic rhythm of balanced doing & flow, the satisfaction of what I’m doing runs deep. Authenticity is present. Alignment enables clear seeing. Presence allows joy in any from of work at hand.
Even as I’ve written, I’m feeling my breath flow more easily, relaxation settle into my muscles, my heart is softening & my mind is letting of control. With that I bid you farewell for now.
And back to the original question: What is your body communicating in this moment? What does it need to be in harmony with your inner masculine & feminine? Which aspect needs your attention for them to dance in Joy together, through your body, heart & mind?
In Harmony ~